Wednesday, May 06, 2009

Death of the Encyclopedia Salesman

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The murder had not been horrific, would never make headlines, and frankly I have my doubts as to whether or not John Q. Public has noticed his absence or even cares. I gaze disgustedly at the pitiful sight by my feet, this reward of his hard work and dedication carelessly strewn upon the curb, sorrowfully imagining his thankless hours spent hitting the pavement, moving from home to home, the same sight of door after door repeatedly closed in his face, sometimes gently, sometimes with a hint of menace. I had never actually met one in person, known only of his existence through the passed down tales of legend.
Or lore.
“What are those, mommy?”
The voice of childlike innocence in its unquenchable desire for knowledge brings a much-needed smile to my face…
“Just some old books, honey. C’mon now.”
…albeit all too brief.
“Old books,” I say brashly.
“Old books? No lady, this is not just a pile of mildewed, pseudo-leather encased pages. These tomes are crammed full of information, data, answers to possibly every question you can imagine. Unfortunately, the only answer I seek does not reside within the withered pages of these discarded volumes. Please, leave me. Go home to your hard drive, your iPod, your digital television, your video games. Better yet, take that child to the library. Let her feel the fine texture of a page, papyrus in its original form.
Look it up!
In fact, it’s probably right here on these very pages.”
I fondly remember the set of twenty-three Funk & Wagnall’s encyclopedias lined up in ascending order across the bookshelf in the bedroom of my youth, my eye always on book twenty, oddly named “Supr-Turk.” The remaining twenty-two titles made little sense to my uneducated mind, consisting of words I was sure could not have been part of the English language. My original plan had been to start with book one and read each of them in order, yet “Supr-Turk” called to me.
Fingers massaging my chin in scholarly fashion, I eagerly contemplated the spine of number twenty, pondering what perils might be in store for the free world and its newfound savior, “Supr-Turk.”
“That’s not the name of the book,” my father laughingly explained, treading not lightly on my disappointed, vulnerable state.
“It’s similar to a dictionary. Everything is alphabetical. Supr indicates the beginning of this particular volume starting with the Supreme Court for instance, and ending with Turkey.
Supreme Court?
Turkey?
My mind reeled. Where were the super villains, the super heroes, the exotic locales?
All right, I reasoned. I’ll give you Turkey.
I am uncertain as to the location of those old Funk & Wagnall’s, yet fear they may have met a similar fate. I worry that both the written page and the library may soon become obsolete. My obsession with the death of the encyclopedia salesman must not allow this to happen.
Admittedly, while not a fan of technology, I realize that to survive in today’s society, one must become technologically proficient. I prefer to work the old-fashioned way, taking notes in my trusty steno-pad, yet the horrific state of my penmanship skills renders this method primarily useless. Unfortunately, while trying to decipher said scrawling, my mouse inexplicably died (I am certain that this pronouncement is as ridiculous to read as it was to write), resulting in an unwanted trip to the electronics superstore. Walking through the automatic doors, I find myself overwhelmed by the sheer size of the place. Subconsciously I consider jotting down anther thought, a future case perhaps, the disappearance of the old mom and pop shop, before realizing that upon my return home I will not be able to read it anyway.
“Where do you keep the mice,” I begin to query a disinterested clerk, before realizing just how preposterous my question sounds.
He points, I walk, considering a ride on a passing forklift.
The choices are staggering.
I grow weary.
“Can I help you?”
I eye this particular salesperson warily, wondering how genuine his cheerful disposition really is.
“I need a mouse.”
“For my computer,” I quickly add.
“What kind of mouse,” he chuckles?
I roll my eyes, see his rebuttal, and raise him one.
“What kind of mice do you have?”
His beady eyes study mine.
A smirk forms upon his lips.
He reaches for the top of the line unit.
The scene changes. Everything is stark white, and, I suddenly find myself in the middle of a scene from the beloved hit musical “Grease.”
“Well this mouse is supersonic!”
A sudden crash of music.
Salespeople to the right of me, salespeople to the left of me, all of them hyped and ready to dance.
“Ergonomic!”
Again with the music.
“Aerodynamic!”
“Why, it could be Greased…”
“Dude, dude, dude,” I say, abruptly ending his reverie.
“I just need a simple mouse.”
At home again, in front of my trusty PC, I marvel at the ease and fluidity of my new optical mouse, utilizing a laser light technology rather than the old-fashioned trackball. The history of the mouse is really quite fascinating, and so simple to access thanks to the World Wide Web. It does not take a crack detective to figure out what became of Encyclopedia Salesman.
He has simply become obsolete, a dinosaur from another age.
This case is officially closed.
I have been reassigned, you see.
Another disappearance under eerily similar circumstances.
Apparently, no one knows the whereabouts of the Vacuum Cleaner Salesman!
I am hot on the trail of a suspect, however. Someone who goes under the pseudonym of “Swiffer”, with a particularly evil weapon at his side, some type of robotic cleaning unit called the “Roomba.”
A sick play on words.
“Roomba.”
Rumba.
A dance.
The dance of life?
Or death?

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

I've Always Considered Myself Clueless Musically: Symphony in Teen Minor

Overture
June 1994
“Who are you here to see tonight?”
“ELO, believe it or not,” he said in almost a whisper.
“Me too,” I answered, shrugging off his apparent embarrassment. “I’ve been a fan since Junior High, never had the opportunity to see them in their heyday. This will have to do.”
It had been a chance meeting that early summer evening, a happy coincidence, running into an old friend from my college radio days. The venue, a roughly 2500-seat theater in the round was playing host to both Kansas and the Electric Light Orchestra Part II that evening, a classic summer season double bill. I had known of the existence of this new incarnation of one of my all-time favorite bands for nearly four years, but had paid it little heed, all but ignoring the 1990 release of their self-titled debut. Ironically, only a few weeks prior to their Long Island appearance, while perusing the bargain bin in an overpriced F.Y.E. store, I came across the CD again.

Hello, hello,
it's great to see you once again
We were such friends,
Long time ago
Hello
From the album Electric Light Orchestra Part Two (1990)

In the relative quiet of my home, I popped the CD in, cranked up the volume, hit play, chuckled, and within the first fifteen seconds of track one’s “Hello,” knew why this was in the bargain bin. It seemed so predictably cliché, a simple little ditty to welcome back the legions long departed. Short on patience, I was thankful for the even shorter duration of the track. I am usually not so quick to judge, but as I recognized only a handful of the members in this 1990’s version of a 1970’s icon, admittedly I had not been expecting anything out of this world (loose pun intended).
The thundering crash of orchestral strings in the opening seconds of track two’s “Honest Men” abruptly hurled me two decades back in time without warning. Closing my eyes, opening my mind, and catching the breath I had not realized I had been holding, I loudly proclaimed to my empty room, “Holy S---(expletive deleted). They’re back!”
Now, sitting alongside my girlfriend, the anticipation growing while my mind rapidly ran through the seemingly endless string of hits made popular by the once mighty Electric Light Orchestra, I wondered excitedly, what could they possibly open with?
The lights, suddenly extinguished brought an expectant roar of approval from the nearly sold-out crowd. Softly, a synthesizer sets the mood, laser lights intermittently beam outwards from the center of the circular stage, the imagery of the peak spaceship years brings a fond remembrance of my youthful exuberance. I am literally perched on the edge of my seat as the music builds to its momentous climax, and with a booming crescendo, the stage now awash in moving light and color, the musicians launch into Turn To Stone, the first single from 1977’s Out of the Blue; the record that launched ELO into the strata of super-stardom.

First Movement
I was twelve years old the first time I heard the Electric Light Orchestra, or more appropriately, the first time I became acutely aware of their existence, although somewhere in the subliminal recesses of my untrained musical mind did reside Evil Woman. In the bedroom of my Junior High School sweetheart, (relax, things were different then), the two of us pored through the impressive amount of 45 rpm’s she had amassed at such a young age. I willingly forgave her minor indiscretions amongst which included a single record by Happy Days heartthrob Anson Williams. Ironically, as television’s Happy Days was still immensely popular at that time, my musical naiveté had become somewhat attuned to the sounds of the Potsy Webber/Fonzi era. Fate stepped in when I found myself drawn to the semi futuristic look of the ELO logo adorning the front of the Telephone Line single. By the end of the first chorus of the 50’s sounding Do-wop, doobie do-do-wop’s, a musical obsession had begun to emerge.
While I (not) jokingly refer to myself as musically clueless, I did have an affinity for music curiousness in the guise of flipsides.· I had no idea what to make of the odd Poor Boy (The Greenwood), a tune that brought to my limited consciousness, a hint of Camelot ala Monty Python’s Holy Grail; one of my all-time favorite movies. Fate, destiny or providence, with the stars aligned and the heavens in harmony, this polar opposite non-radio friendly B-side called to me. Rather than make the expected move forward in my evolutionary ELO journey, I decided to take a step backward, choosing not to purchase the recently released A New World Record from which Telephone Line had achieved record single status, but deciding on Olé ELO; a greatest hits collection highlighting the band’s musical accomplishments thus far. Immediate standouts included Evil Woman and Can’t Get It Out of My Head, both of which I had unknowingly been familiar with, the straight away rocker Ma-Ma-ma Belle, and the incredible cover of Chuck Berry’s Roll Over Beethoven. The ethereally beautiful Strange Magic appealed to my sensitive side, still being cultivated at that innocent stage in my life, while 10538 Overture completely intrigued me. The wide range of musical styles presented on this LP made it a perfect choice for the ELO beginner. Every record has its clunker’s however, and to my top-40 sensibilities, the ploddingly long Kuiama was wholly unlistenable. Showdown; probably the band’s most popular hit from those early days did not move me then, and leaves me equally unenthused today.
I do not remember in what order it was that I had accumulated the remainder of the ELO catalog, nor is it most likely important to this tale. A few key points however, do resonate within the dusty catacombs of my neural pathways, beginning with Roll Over Beethoven, an early favorite that inadvertently played a key part in the future path that my life would follow. While creative writing had always been my number one passion, I had always harbored within me the desire to become a radio disc jockey. Accidentally stumbling upon a local college station· where the on-air talent not only answered the phone, but would actually play listener requests as well, I called one afternoon hoping to hear my favorite Chuck Berry remake played over the airwaves. Flabbergasted, I found myself in a state of near euphoria listening to a version of the tune that extended well past the 4:32 running time I had known almost literally by note. A return call to the accommodating D.J. netted the information that the song came from the 1973 LP; the band’s second release suitably titled Electric Light Orchestra Two. Never having enough money from my paltry and undeserved allowance to afford purchasing the record, I am relatively convinced I made many a DJ’s life miserable insisting on hearing only the long version as per my (multiple) requests.
The first time I had heard A New World Record in its entirety will always be remembered as a major event in my life; a turning point of sorts. While I did not have some type of spiritual out of body occurrence, I did experience something I have come to consider as a life changing moment of clarity. Standing in the basement of a close friend, sipping sodas at an impromptu get together, I had been chatting up a new acquaintance of the female persuasion when, with an unexpected crash of imaginary thunder, I suddenly pictured myself as an adult at a real life cocktail party. Repeatedly as I mentally relive this scene, I can almost hear the orchestral buildup at the beginning of Tightrope; the first cut on side one, emotionally driving this climactic transformation from adolescence to adulthood. Sadly, while I enjoy remembering it this way, the drama did not exist in that capacity. This finished basement in the home of a classmate did however provide the setting for my New World Record experience. Apparently, her weekly allowance put her in a high enough tax bracket to afford the purchase of the band’s sixth release. The aforementioned lead cut on side one immediately fueled the fire of my rising ELO passion. Three decades later, the dramatic conclusion of Shangri-la, the final cut on the record still gives me goose bumps. It is truly one of the Electric Light Orchestra’s defining moments.
My procurement of Out of the Blue; the next release, became an important event in that I purchased another album that afternoon which was also a monumental step in my musical evolution; The Beach Boys, Sunflower·. I had well become familiar with Turn to Stone, having previously purchased the 45 rpm, a record whose flipside introduced me to yet another piece of musical magic dating back to the earlier years. Mister Kingdom marked the third tune I had now become privy to from 1974’s Eldorado, also featuring both, Can’t Get It out of My Head, and Poor Boy (the Greenwood), and only added to my desire for more ELO music. The New York radio market in 1977 seemed a bit gutsier then, more open to moving beyond the authorized single releases from a current LP. Night in the City became one New York City station’s song of choice, cementing in me the need to save up my literal pennies and hurry out to the local music retailer of my choice. Like most fans, Out of the Blue remains in the coveted number one position as my favorite ELO record. A double album with a gatefold sleeve, the artwork is breathtaking, and the music within nearly flawless, once you get past the ridiculous Jungle; a song which in this humble writer’s opinion would best have been left in the can, or possibly seen limited release as an unreleased B-side. Bonus points go to the Jet record label for the inclusion of a poster featuring charcoal renderings of the band members and a great build-it-yourself cardboard spaceship. I proudly displayed both of those items within the sanctity of my bedroom for years. One footnote of mention here; my younger brother, a Kiss fan and the proverbial thorn in my ELO side would unmercifully chastise me regarding the poster, referring to my rock idol’s as a bunch of stone faces based on the artists depiction of each member. The arguments that would ensue over our differing musical opinions were loud and legendary, often shaking the very foundation upon which stood our otherwise peaceful middle class home. Further capitalizing on the success of Out of the Blue, a live concert recorded at England’s famous Wembley arena, debuted some months later on HBO. My parents, long denying the need for cable TV resulted in my brother and I viewing this sixty minute spectacle in the living room of a nearby friend, where completely mesmerized by the visuals, I had my doubts as to how live this recording might be. It sounded too good, too close to the original records, and while lip-synching had yet to reach the degree of public acceptance (or denial) it has now, I did harbor some suspicion.
. “Ha, your band went disco,” the same friend who had opened his living room to me a year earlier, said tauntingly.
Not a fan of the genre he spoke of, but biased to the nth degree, I loved Shine a Little Love, yet privately worried that he might be right. After all, if the Stones could do it with Miss You, Rod Stewart with Do Ya Think I’m Sexy, and even the Grateful Dead with Breakdown Street, why not the Electric Light Orchestra? Dare I mention the Beach Boys one-time sojourn into that dreaded territory with a remake of one of their lesser-known tunes from 1967?· While Discovery could not possibly live up to its predecessor, it did not disappoint. The mega success of Don’t Bring Me Down quickly dispelled the disco theory, although Last Train to London, while not a chart topper, clearly appealed to the Saturday Night Fever crowd. With Lush orchestration, backed by an equally moving choral performance, The Diary of Horace Wimp is the standout track on the eighth Electric Light Orchestra release. The musical saga of a nerd, who on a lifelong search for love, subsequently meets, then marries his significant other in the span of only a week did not chart here, but did receive a small degree of radio airplay. While trespassing in a neighbor’s backyard bushes during an overzealous game of adolescent Hide and Seek, I distinctly recall hearing this incredible tune resonating from the speakers of a portable radio in the yard next door, where my escape route if need be, would take me straight through the tomato plants.
Ah, youth!
I am considerably fortunate, possessing what I have come to believe as a unique gift in retaining some of the most inane recollections of my adolescence, leaving me with the realization that it is hard to comprehend how important the music you hold close to your heart really is, that the musicians you have personally chosen as your favorites are in essence writing the very soundtrack of your life.
September 1978 marked the next milestone in my adolescent evolution, High School. Bringing along my undeniable fervor for the music of the Electric light Orchestra, I re-discovered (semi-ELO pun intended) another lifelong passion. Introduction to Creative Writing marked my immersion into a world I had inexplicably abandoned several years earlier. Although the urge to create had never dissipated, the motivation to produce had. Handed the task to write a modern day fairy tale, my heart leapt. Eldorado had long played in my mind as a movie that needed to make the transition to the written page. Always in creative mode, I had nearly failed 8th grade math two years earlier due to my wandering thoughts. It was during that time when I had first conceived the idea of this artistic masterpiece as a written fable. The developing intellect of a fourteen year old led to a far different concept than that of composer Jeff Lynne.

Opus Interruptus
Eldorado: A Concerto in Musical Cluelessness

Puberty having been reached, I envisioned the tale of a forlorn teen, not unlike myself pining for a popular, out of his league female classmate. From his lonely perch, he gazes upon her from the bedroom window while she laughs with her friends, knowing if his secret ever got out, they would be laughing at him. Barry Manilow’s Even Now reaches its climax as he pours his heart out to the silver screen, the girls below seemingly oblivious.
I will take a moment here to allow you, the unsuspecting reader to catch your breath and compose yourself.
Yes, I pictured this as a musical.
You can blame my parents and Top 40 radio for the inclusion of Barry Manilow on the soundtrack.
May I remind you that I was only fourteen?
My head bowed in shame, I shall continue to plunder forward.
Anticipate another break allowing the inevitable laughter to subside.
Following the lead of the Eldorado Overture, the two, silently whisked from their beds in a dreamlike state, awaken on a lush green hill, remarkably fully clothed (I have yet to work out some of the kinks), with only the memory of a voice summoning them to a land called Eldorado.
(Cue Music)
Can’t Get It Out of My Head
With awkward introductions out of the way, they set out on their journey. Reaching the top of a near insurmountable peak, they face yet another rolling green knoll in front of them. Dismayed at the thought of infinite hills beyond, Lisa begins to lose hope, growing increasingly fearful that the two of them are desperately lost and alone. Ever the voice of reason, Bob, takes her by the hand and vows that together, they will ascend each rise, with the assurance that something wonderful lay ahead. With renewed hope and boundless energy they continue, until at the crest of one last mound, they see off in the distance a small farm tended by a lone individual.
(Cue Music)
Boy Blue
Descending upon the isolated dwelling at full gait, they come upon an unlikely character, fondly recognized from childhood days of innocence. Little Boy Blue welcomes them to his small abode, where following another round of awkward introductions, he explains to them that no soul has ever seen Eldorado, yet all believe of its existence to the north, in the land where the sun rises (an ingenious fairy tale twist, right?). After a fine night’s rest upon a bale of hay, having never questioned the hellacious sleeping arrangements, they set forth the next morning, with a hearty farewell from their host and a word of warning. Beware the scourge, who will stop at nothing in her mad quest to destroy all that is good. At dusk, following another day of exhaustive climbing, they eye a small wisp of smoke rising in the distance.
Could it be Eldorado?
No, not yet.
We are still on side one.
(Cue Music)
Poorboy (The Greenwood)
They arrive at a small Hamlet; The Greenwood, and with the second cheerful welcome in as many days, they meet a smiling young lad, shoddily dressed and in need of an extreme makeover.
“I am Poorboy,” he states proudly.
We can take another break here to bring the fits of convulsive laughter back under control, although I foresee plenty of mirth still to come.
Bob and Lisa are mystified that this small band of people, living in squalor are immeasurably happy to the point of near giddiness.
“We are friends, we are family, we are together,” PB explains.
“What of this scourge that infiltrates these lands?” Bob asks, displaying his impressive command of fairy tale diction.
A cautious hush falls over the happy campers.
“Belle. Her name is Belle and she is pure evil. I fear your arrival here may bring her wrath down upon us. An odd whispering comes on the breeze. Look upon the horizon,” Poor Boy urges.
“Clouds, where there should never be. She sees all. She knows that you are here.”
Mealtime passes without incident. As Twilight gives way to darkness, a distant thunder begins to roll. Emaciated dogs whine, children cling to their mothers. The rustling breeze becomes a howling wind, accompanied now by cruel, echoing laughter. Rain pelts down, further adding to the blinding darkness. Lisa, succumbing to an unseen force can no longer hold her ground and while the locals run for shelter, finds herself forcefully separated from her unlikely companion. Bob fights the wind with rapidly waning strength, before falling to the ground, unable to withstand the wrath any longer.
(Cue Music)
Ma-Mama-Belle
“Who dares trespass upon these lands?” The angry voice demands.
Bob, shielding his eyes from the churning maelstrom glimpses the form of a malevolent woman, bathed in a chartreuse (or some such fairy tale color) glow.
“I have felt your powers from afar, known that this moment would one day come,” she menacingly addresses Lisa. “Alas, as you cower in fear, I grow stronger. None shall defy me.”
Her arms raised high; Belle summons the lightning, and then redirects it at her foe. Bob watches in horror as Lisa disappears in a blinding, yet silent explosion of light. Confusingly, he feels an overwhelming sense of peace and calm. The wind and rains have subsided. He opens his eyes and sees Lisa through a wispy white fog.
(Cue Music)
Laredo Tornado
“Be gone from here, Belle. Your evil is powerless here.”
The lilting voice seems to come from the heavens.
Belle screams in frustration, swears revenge and dramatically makes her exit. The fog dissipates and takes the form of an ethereal being in a flowing white gown. She calls forth the townspeople from their shanties, assures them that all is now safe and begins to fade from existence.
“Wait. Who are you?” Bob asks.
In that brief moment, Lisa perceives that the woman appears notably winded, before she is no more.
“That was Laredo,” PB informs them. “She watches over all of us, but is rarely seen. The two of you must be of some importance for her to make herself known.”
Another night’s sleep with many questions and little answers later, our heroes set forth again, this time with renewed confidence that they cannot fail. A short walk through a non-threatening forest provides a much-needed change of scenery. As they approach the edge, a golden light beckons. Emerging from the trees, they behold a shining kingdom that reflects the sunlight in every direction.
Eldorado, they think cheerfully as they enter unhindered, yet no one seems to be about. Their footsteps echo along the empty hallways, until before a great flight of steps, they hear the stirrings of someone above.
(Cue music)
Mister Kingdom
Mister Kingdom is a lonely man who blames himself for the plight his land suffers, the result of an unauthorized visit to the world of man, he explains. His search for love, and the immeasurable powers he had bestowed upon Belle, whom he had brought back with him made her hungry for more. Banished home again, the land from which Belle had arrived refused to accept her. Unknowingly bounced back to the dominion of the king, she disappeared to practice dark magic. A feeling of unease descended upon the kingdom and surrounding country. Left alone to wither in misery, Mister Kingdom conjured up what little power he could muster, giving birth to Laredo, a wraith whom would soon see her already diminished life force perish. He goes on to explain that Bob and Lisa, representing all that is innocent and good would in essence breathe new life into this place, yet belle had become too powerful and would stop at nothing in her quest to rule. A doddering, weeping fool, he falls to the ground in anguish, and suddenly the great castle is no more. Bob and Lisa are left standing alone in a field of (you guessed it) green, armed with knowledge, but not answers. As night approaches following another several hours of walking, the distinct glow of a city appears on the horizon. Warily entering, they know in their hearts that this cannot be Eldorado. Their queries as they pass people along the streets are ignored. What had appeared as paradise upon their unexpected arrival two full days ago now seemed anything but.
(Cue music)
Nobody’s Child
While Lisa disappears inside a hotel with the hope of procuring lodging and a good night’s sleep on an actual bed, Bob is being lasciviously summoned by a woman whose appearance has far surpassed anything his pubescent adolescence could imagine. Out of earshot, she promises him untold joy and passion. He shifts uncomfortably as he stares into the eyes of this incredible creature, thinking in the back of his mind, she’s not at all like the sleazy prostitutes you see on TV. Lisa watches from hotel door, dismayed at the sight of him and the woman disappearing through the door of an abandoned theater. A tear threatens, but she holds back the sorrowful emotion as she marches across the street, angry that he has so easily lost sight of their mission. Inside, the darkened auditorium she can barely make out the silhouette of Bob forlornly walking across the stage. Dramatically, he faces the empty seats. A lone spotlight illuminates him in a soft amber glow.
(Cue Music)
End of the Show (Dennis Wilson)
He pours his heart out to the empty room, singing a mournful Dennis Wilson (Beach Boys) solo tune. He is, essentially throwing in the towel. On the final note of the climactic ballad, Lisa ascends the stage, overcome with emotion and hugs him, weeping openly in a display of role reversal harkening back to their first meeting on the hill when he took charge. With the hooker, nowhere in sight and all but forgotten, she leans in to reward him with the long awaited kiss he has dreamed of, a kiss that is interrupted by the sudden activation of strobe lights all around them.
(Cue Music)
Illusions in G Major
A sudden explosion of light and sound brings forth a trio of bizarre characters dressed in futuristic sequins, with outrageously exaggerated fluorescent afro’s and sunglasses ala Elton John’s Captain Fantastic. The Illusions, sing and play feverishly while hokey special effects reminiscent of the Live at Wembley video envelope the group. A dramatic flash of light signals the end of this odd transference. Standing atop an impossibly high mountain, our heroes look around in bewilderment as they are showered with praise and confetti. Among the sea of faces, they recognize Little Boy Blue, Poor Boy and Mister Kingdom. The hooker mischievously winks at Bob, who realizes in the second before she disappears is actually none other than the evil Belle. Unable to overcome their power, fueled purely by innocence, her cheap Adam and Eve temptation ploy had failed.
(Cue Music)
Eldorado Finale
Overcome with happiness and emotion, Lisa sings now. Eldorado will now become the place she will lay down roots. Bob cannot understand this. She has friends and family at home. Was it something he said? I must stay as well, he argues. She silences him with a kiss. He falters, dizzy with the feel of her lips, yet glimpses for just a moment the black clouds above the distant mountains furiously lit from within.
He awakens in his bed the following morning, unknowing of all that has happened, the days spent in Eldorado, no longer than a few short hours in the real world. Lisa is not in school that day, something he barely realizes until the whispers of rumor reach his ears. Kidnapped, runaway, no one knows for sure.
As the last vestige of the Eldorado finale draws to its conclusion, we see from high above, a rolling green hill, Lisa walking beside an almost transparent Laredo.
The End

Wipe away the tears I envisioned, not of sadness, but of quite the opposite, and let me be frank.
Did I mention that I was fourteen at the time?
Quite simply, I drew from an album I loved, taking the songs at literal face value only on the titles. I challenge anyone to attempt a similar project with a different album, and see what happens. I know it is ridiculous to picture Bob on that first hill, singing Can’t Get It out of My Head, his plight having absolutely nothing to with the lyrics of the song. Looking back at the original 1978 creative writing project, I embellished this latter day adaptation quite a bit. The actual written version, similar to a movie screenplay based on an epic novel was simply horrendous, though I clearly recall the exhilaration I had felt on the day I read it aloud in class. Evidently unimpressed, yet diplomatic in his expression, the instructor asked aloud, “What makes this a modern day fairy tale?”
“Uh hello-o-o, there’s a hooker in it,” I should have replied.
Self consciously, I chose a safer response.
“Well it was based on a record album,” I answered unconvincingly.
Apparently, that meant something. Smiling, he returned it to his desk.
“Excellent,” he replied.
There really is no way to put into words how much the music of Jeff Lynne has affected my life. If nothing else, I hope that this haphazardly concocted vision of his 1974 masterpiece elicits something more than just the adoration and admiration I hold for his work. Should you find yourself wondering whether there might have been a sequel in store, the answer is undoubtedly yes. Bob would return, albeit with another romantic love interest. Lisa, having been taken by the evil Belle is held prisoner in the distant mountains. Bob and (whatever her name is) must conquer and then tame a devil horse known only by the name Caballo Diablo, based on a Charlie Daniels song ironically released in 1974 as well. I had also planned on penning a tale based on the Eagles Desperado album. Somewhere amongst my dusty artifacts resides the beginning pages. Unfortunately, it never progressed beyond that point. The main character, a Luke Skywalker type yearns to find action somewhere far from the uneventful domicile he calls home.
His opening song professing this desire?
Wild West Hero
Out of the Blue (1977)

What can I say?
There is simply something about a Jeff Lynne composition that just inspires.
Let’s move on.
My interest in ELO began to wane with the release of 1980’s Xanadu. Now a High School senior complete with driver’s license and confidently dating, both I’m Alive and All Over the World did not instill in me the same thrill I had felt in years past with each new release. I did splurge for the soundtrack however, and leaned heavily towards Don’t Walk Away, feeling that somewhere within that tune remained just a hint of true ELO magic. Whether due to lack of finances or lack of interest, I mistakenly turned down an opportunity to see the band live in support of 1981’s Time. Attending college locally, I maintained relations with my high school chums, most of whom never truly appreciated ELO with the same fervor as I, yet had made it a priority to see the show, reporting afterwards that even sans spaceship, it had been a spectacle. Both MTV, literally in its infancy, and radio stations played Hold on Tight in heavy rotation. Having yet to purchase the LP, I owned only the 7” single. While I loved that record, it was the flipside, the unreleased When Time Stood Still, which appealed to me more. Twilight, the second single, and one of my all-time favorite ELO cuts also featured an unreleased B-side, the catchy and extremely radio friendly Julie Don’t Live Here. Those four songs represented my entire Time experience. At some point, I had finally gotten a hold of the entire LP, but wholly ignored it. Similar to the contractual obligation that I firmly believe made up the final Electric Light Orchestra release, I later purchased the last two records, Secret Messages (1983) and Balance of Power (1986) only from a sense of commitment. Both Jeff Lynne’s Armchair Theatre and Afterglow, the long awaited ELO box set released in 1990, featuring additional non-album B-sides and a small number of unreleased tracks were simply non-events for me. My fascination with Jeff Lynne and the Electric Light Orchestra had come to an end.

Intermezzo
June 1994
“Roll Over Beethoven, Roll Over Beethoven, Roll Over Beethoven.”
Literally out of breath, having been musically whisked back through my adolescence in just under seventy-five minutes, I silently repeated the mantra, sending my message via psychic vibrations to the musicians, who at that minute, just out of sight behind the curtain, patiently waited for the precise moment to dramatically re-emerge on stage.
The Electric Light Orchestra Part Two did not disappoint. The thundering crash of drums and cymbals on the final note of Beethoven’s fifth had the audience on their feet, cheering loudly, and then subsequently making their way toward the exit. When Kansas hit the stage thirty minutes later, the crowd had diminished considerably.
My elation with the reborn Electric Light Orchestra extended to the following morning. Sparing neither time nor expense, I immediately purchased ELO Part Two live with the Moscow Symphony Orchestra in both CD and VHS formats. Concentrating primarily on the music and visuals, I exercised my musical cluelessness, paying little attention to the identities of the actual performers. A co-worker, wholly uninterested in my newfound adulation, argued that this manifestation symbolized nothing more than a glorified cover band, and bordered on blasphemy. Granted the very voice of the original Electric Light Orchestra was conspicuously absent, but then Jeff Lynne had always kept a lower profile than most popular musicians had. Bands recording and performing without key and founding members had also become the norm, Foreigner, Fleetwood Mac, Journey, Styx, just to name a few. There is no question that Jeff Lynne represented the sole embodiment of all things ELO, far eclipsing the role of just singer songwriter. I never paid much attention to the ELO back-story, knew little of lawsuits filed either by former members suddenly excised, nor those filed for copyright infringement over ownership of the name.
Lightning struck on an early summer’s eve in 1994.
The Journey had begun anew.
Here it comes again
It’s all around me
It must be magic...
Summer and Lightning
From the album Out of the Blue (1977)


Second Movement
Nearly fourteen months had elapsed before I had the opportunity to hear ELO music performed live again. During that time, my hunger became insatiable. Albums released decades earlier seemed fresh again, the pops, clicks, and scratches of my youthful vinyl years, now phantoms as I embraced every nuance digitally. Songs I had little tolerance for, or simply overlooked in my formative years became new favorites, while those I once preferred now went ignored. The first time I listened to 1979’s Discovery via my CD Walkman, I Discovered (absolute ELO pun intended) Wishing; the fourth cut on the album side formerly known as two. In Junior High School, this track seemed bland and forgettable.
Now, artwork!
My lifelong love for country music rendered Face the Music’s Down Home Town a one-time favorite.
Now, annoying!
It had taken over a decade to familiarize myself with both Time and Secret Messages. The giddy elation I felt in hearing these for the first time reminded me of my earliest ELO experiences. Balance of Power, the group’s 1986 curtain call featured a scaled down version of the band with only three original members remaining, and an oddly simplistic logo. The single, Calling America received light airplay here via radio and MTV, but failed to chart. Heaven Only Knows, the album’s lead off cut became an instant favorite the first time I had listened to it. The structure of the backing vocals, mixing high falsettos with lower bass was similar to the Beach Boys sound of that era. Plenty might argue that assessment, but two years later Jeff would work with Brian Wilson, contributing bass, guitar and keyboards on Let it Shine; a tune he co-wrote with the former Beach Boy. Similar to the records that had preceded it, Balance of Power would wait nearly a decade before I listened to it from start to finish. The lighter pop feel of the record, indicative of the year in which it was recorded reeks of contractual obligation. The grandiose production expected from an Electric Light Orchestra record while non-existent, left in its wake a number of radio friendly tunes with single potential. Listening to it now, there is no doubt in my mind that many of these could have been hits. I often wonder what might have happened if the album had been released without the ELO signature attached. My wife, an ELO fan by association only, finds Balance of Power to be the most listenable due largely to its non-ELO sound.
I re-visited Eldorado with the intention of fully understanding Jeff Lynne’s original concept, reaching the conclusion that either I am not intellectual enough, or my mind has thrown up some type of defense mechanism, allowing me only to see it as I originally envisioned. If anyone can tell me, just what Laredo Tornado really means it would seriously be appreciated.
The concept of Time is not entirely lost on me, but for some reason I see it as a futuristic version of my Eldorado, complete with frizzy haired, garishly clothed rockers, whisking our time traveler back to the present as they belt out Hold on Tight, accompanied again by hokey video effects ala the Live at Wembley video.
It is difficult to fathom that the only CD not in my ELO collection is the album that started it all. 1973’s No Answer is a tough listen. Sadly disappointing in my early ELO exploration, it remains primarily unchartered territory today. 10538 Overture and Mr. Radio, the only two cuts I found listenable in my youth are still the only ones I listen to presently, and believe me I have tried on multiple occasions to give this record a fair chance. Had it been my very first ELO purchase, this epic indulgence outlining my musical obsession would not exist.
Coming into possession of a King Biscuit Flower Hour CD, Kuiama, the first ELO tune I thoroughly ignored, unexpectedly became a new favorite. The live version, recorded for the BBC in 1973 featured an impassioned solo by original violinist Wilf Gibson and a dramatic orchestral buildup, musically placing the listener upon the battlefield within the very ranks of an advancing army, grimly marching forward to the thundering climax before bridging to the disturbing confession of the reluctant soldier in the final verses.
Kuia, please believe me, I just couldn't help myself.
I wanted to run, but they gave me a gun
and they told me the duty I owed to my Fatherland.
I made my stand
Kuia, I just shot them
I just blew their heads open,
And I heard them scream in their agony
Kuiama, she waits there for meTrue blue,
you saw it through.
Kuiama

From the album Electric Light Orchestra II (1973)

This exhilarating performance, so full of vivid imagery soars emotionally, before poignantly reaching its conclusion. As the synthesizer fades to its final demise, the audience, silently stunned, breaks into exuberant applause. A true moment captured, this is what live music is all about!
Recordings of the original Electric Light Orchestra in a live setting were often difficult to find. I remember finding a copy of the 1974 release; The Night the Light Went on (in Long Beach) at a local retailer. Pricier than some of the other albums I had acquired due to its import status, I eagerly purchased it. The slightly longer version of Roll Over Beethoven alone made this a must have. Seeing both Day Tripper and Great Balls of Fire listed on the back cover only added to my jubilant expectation. Thirty years later, I can confidently say that I went straight to Roll Over Beethoven before listening to the rest of the album. Too young, and not in possession of a decent stereo, I hardly noticed the muddy quality of the recording, which years later I would find out had been mistakenly compiled from the wrong set of master tapes. With only eight tracks, three of them instrumentals, this record elicited a poor representation of the band. While Mik’s Violin solo coupled with the Orange Blossom Special appealed to the country fan in me, and made sense from a medley standpoint, I could not understand the abrupt transition from the classic composition, In the Hall of the Mountain King, to the rollicking Great Balls of Fire. I loved their interpretation of the Beatles classic Day Tripper with its brief infusion of classical violins and piano minuet. Roll Over Beethoven notwithstanding, the standout track for me on this collection was 10538 Overture featuring the (too) brief Do Ya guitar interlude. Remastered in the mid 1990’s and featuring alternate cover art, the disc now provides an honest look into the band before the pinnacle of success. Shortly following the re-release of this classic, ELO fans embraced both Live at Winterland 1976, and Live at Wembley 1978. Winterland captures again, the raw sound of the band on stage. I had long awaited a live version of Ma-Ma-Ma Belle, an early favorite of mine, and this version, with the extended ending and blistering guitar solo made it worth the price of the disc alone. I wish I could say the same for Wembley. Longing to believe that my earliest suspicions were not true, this CD is a blatant forgery. Word of lawsuits revolving around the band lip-synching during the space ship tour had not escaped my attention; however, I have not thoroughly researched the allegations to dispel the rumors.
With the advent of the Internet, I was finally afforded a glimpse into what I missed by not attending the Time tour in 1981. Twilight, an audience recorded bootleg captures the band live in Koln Germany, albeit sans Bev Bevan who missed a number of shows due to illness. The twenty-minute medley of songs spanning the band’s musical catalogue is outstanding. My biggest disappointment in this show lies in the fact that nearly eight minutes were wasted on Richard Tandy’s keyboard solo and a cover of the Beatle’s Across the Universe.
Admittedly, I am not a Beatles fan!
I had also never heard of the song before acquiring this disc in 1998. Clearly, Jeff Lynne had this tune on the brain while composing Mister Kingdom for the Eldorado album. Never having seen the original Electric Light Orchestra in person, this CD remains my favorite live disc. Unedited, it embodies the total live experience without the mastering or sweetening of a professional recording. Now, thoroughly sated, I eagerly awaited another opportunity to catch the latter day version of the band Jeff Lynne had formed so many years ago.

Third Movement
June 1995
To the casual outsider strolling past me in the opposite direction, my rushed gait exuded nothing more than a typical working class New Yorker possibly running late for a meeting. Inside however, emotions were in turmoil, my mind racked with guilt as I hurriedly made my way across town to a rendezvous with destiny. Left behind to fend for himself, my co-worker inwardly fumed at my seemingly inexplicable departure. Circumstance, coincidence, destiny, the words danced gleefully through my head while I reveled in the stroke of sheer luck at being in the car with the radio on at exactly the right moment just twenty-four hours ago.
“Make sure to drop by tomorrow afternoon, say hello to members of the Electric Light Orchestra Part Two and pick up a copy of their soon to be released CD,” the DJ announced. They were due to perform the next evening at the nearby Meadowlands with the Little River Band. The fact that they were playing on the main stage at the state fair taking place in the parking lot rather than inside the mammoth arena did not surprise me.
Yes, how the mighty hath fallen, I thought to myself. Regrettably, a combination of logistics and a decidedly misplaced dedication to the workplace made attending this show a near impossibility. My disappointment however was unmatched to the excitement I felt at the prospect of not only shaking hands with members of rock royalty whom I deemed instrumental in contributing to the virtual soundtrack of my life, but finally getting my hands on new ELO product after an interminable wait. Turning the corner, I prepared myself for what would certainly amount to an endless wait at the rear of an equally interminable line. The questions came in a torrent as I moved closer towards the hallowed location. Where are the police barricades, the traffic, and the blaring car horns? Unencumbered, I walked inside to an equally, uneventful atmosphere, more questions rapidly coming in succession.
Is it canceled?
Did I get the time wrong?
Did I get the date wrong?
Had the DJ been misinformed?
Befuddled, confusion turned to shock, as I looked upon the unbelievable sight of a band member standing on line to purchase guitar strings.
Why is he standing on line like a common customer,” I shockingly wondered!
Upon further inspection, I recognized some of the other band mates aimlessly standing about, looking decidedly unhappy.
Warily approaching bassist Kelly Groucutt, I shyly asked, “Is there an autograph signing happening here?”
"No," he laughed loudly, flamboyantly waving his arms in the air, comically calling attention to the library like atmosphere.
“We have nothing to sign," his voice piercingly echoed.
I looked around nervously, expecting an immediate admonishment from one of the nonplussed sales clerks.
Until that very moment, the absence of any band related paraphernalia on display had escaped me. It was a scene right out of Spinal Tap, the hysterical mid-80’s cinematic romp detailing the rise and fall of a fictional rock and roll band.
"Well, what's happening then," I persisted.
"I'll tell you what's happening. We’re going to kick the crap out of our bloody manager, that's what. You may want to stick around a bit."
Not having much to say, I waited awkwardly for guitarist Phil Bates, the newest member of the band to pay for his purchase.
“Why don’t you join us for a couple of pints,” Kelly offered, gesturing towards the pub across the street.
It was single-handedly one of the most surreal moments in my life, standing there like an idiot contemplating the impossible.
Do I stick around and drink with ELO or should I return to work?
Drink with ELO or go back to the office?
I waited patiently for the opposing miniature versions of me to appear on my shoulders, The angelic and the satanic, each with a valid reason for my staying or leaving.
Drink with ELO or go back to the office?
Do it.
Don’t.
Do it.
Don’t.
I wonder what it looked like from the perspective of the thirsty Mr. Groucutt.
I had no camera and therefore no proof of my ill-timed decision. Cursing my sense of priority, values and stellar work ethic, I chose to return to the side of my harried co-worker on the other side of town. I did however learn an important lesson that afternoon and happily offer a bit of wisdom here.
No job is worth it!
Disgusted with myself for not acting upon my good fortune, I was even more disappointed that the show in Jersey that evening marked the only appearance in the tri-state area. Not knowing the reasons behind the botched meet and greet, I grew increasingly worried that the band’s touring days may be seriously limited. From that moment forward, I made a personal vow to myself to attend any upcoming gigs within reason.
I was finally able to obtain a copy of the new CD a few short weeks later, and while it had been well worth the wait, I found myself hard pressed agreeing with other ELO enthusiasts that Moment of Truth had far surpassed the bands first outing. The voice and music of Phil Bates brought a dynamic to the band that harkened back a little closer to the original ELO sound. Breaking Down the Walls, the second cut on the album sets the tone in much the same way Honest Men had from the previous release, preparing the listener to take a trip back in time to the heyday of the Electric Light Orchestra. The song possesses all of the magic ingredients both vocally and instrumentally to stand alongside some of founder Jeff Lynne’s greatest creations. Eric Troyer’s equally satisfying; Power of a Million Lights, another high point on the album, draws on many of the same large production elements. Voices; a song of inspiration that lyrically may come off as a bit cliché, yet delivers a powerfully emotional vocal performance is my clear cut favorite track. Whiskey Girls, the Phil Bates, Bev Bevan penned rocker would most likely find greater acceptance by fans of either the UK’s Status Quo, or Atlanta's Georgia Satellites. A fan of both bands, I easily connected with the tune, though will agree wholeheartedly it is totally out of place on any unit bearing the Electric Light Orchestra moniker. Perfecting my burgeoning skills as a video editor, I chose the tune as the musical base for a self-indulgent tribute to myself seen only by a few friends, family members, and quite possibly ELO Part II members.
Several months later on a Labor Day excursion to the Jersey shore, fate had chosen to make another appearance in my life, this time in the guise of a local music paper. Sitting poolside, lazily turning the pages, my eyes widened at the sight of a casino ad touting an upcoming performance by the Electric Light Orchestra Part Two! Six Weeks later, not quite kicking and screaming, the girl who would eventually become my wife acquiesced, having grown used to some of my idiosyncrasies like traveling inordinate distances to see a show. Unfamiliar with the practice of bribing theater staff with a well-placed twenty-dollar bill for good seats, we sat well above the stage on the second level for the early show. My pulse raced as I expectantly wondered what they might open with this time. With a sudden dimming of the lights, and sans any fanfare, a generic voice announced simply, “Ladies and Gentleman, The Electric Light Orchestra Part Two!” The curtain still rising, Phil Bates had already begun singing the first line of the mega-hit, Evil Woman. Even without the spectacle of the laser lights and synthesized overture I had remembered from the first performance so many months before, I enjoyed the show, though felt a small bit of disappointment by the lack of newer original material. Kelly’s passionate vocal performance on The Fox, a tune describing in detail the story of a foxhunt as seen through the eyes of the title character, while not one of my favorite Part Two compositions, received vigorous applause from the audience. During the later show, now a little the wiser, I waited from a front table for the conclusion of Whiskey Girls, before approaching the stage and throwing several copies of my video (now on glorious VHS) to Kelly, who with a look of confusion mouthed the words “what is that?” as they were taken backstage by one of the road crew. Clearly labeled Whiskey Girls, and with my business card attached to each copy, I patiently waited days, weeks for a call from someone within the ELO Part Two organization, sadly to no avail.
Yet another year would pass before the next show, this time in New York City’s esteemed Carnegie Hall. My front row seat, stage right, came not through a twenty-dollar bribe, but from filling out a mailing list request at the previous Atlantic City show, something I do all the time because of my love for junk mail. I do not recall seeing or hearing anything even remotely close to promotion with the exception of an unfavorable blurb in the New York Daily News Summer Preview pull-out section. A comprehensive listing of all things warm weather related in the big apple, the trite mention, more insult than promo read simply,
E.L.O. Part II with The New York Philharmonic at Carnegie Hall. Yeah, right!
Obviously coming from the same mindset of my esteemed co-worker who still considered any form of ELO without Jeff Lynne, blasphemy, or from a non-fan in general, it did not make a difference. The sold-out show was simply magical, and left me with the question, why hadn’t Jeff Lynne considered this during the arena years? It is simply the only way to experience ELO music in a live setting. The numerous shows I had attended following that New York City night could never measure up. I don’t know much about the time spent overseas, but the brief stints the band did here in the states revolved around casinos and summer rib fests, often leading to ridicule regarding their management decisions. Content just knowing that the band continued to tour on a semi-regular basis led to a degree of complacency on my part making trips to Jersey’s casino capitol less of a priority. Passing on attending one such show resulted in shock and bewilderment upon my return to work following the weekend to learn that Bev Bevan had announced his resignation. I could not imagine how the band could carry on without the last true link to the original Electric Light Orchestra, and became convinced that I had seen the last of them. I had been saddened to learn of Phil Bates departure months earlier, though replacing him with California guitarist Parthenon Huxley had worked well. One of the biggest disappointments in losing Phil had been the expected lack of even further tunes played live from their own catalog. By the time Bevan had left, the band had dropped all of their originals from the set list with the exception of “Over London Skies,” a tune he co-wrote with Huxley. With Gordon Townsend in the drummer’s seat, the band continued to tour, now under the name ELO2, due to increasing legal pressure from Jeff Lynne, who ultimately re-acquired full ownership of the Electric Light Orchestra name, forcing the remnants of the current touring outfit to either change theirs or cease and desist!
Luckily, with only a scant few shows left to play on the current tour, there would be more than enough time to find a new identity.
Unluckily, those shows were played with no identity, the band, now; a literal rock and roll John Doe.
Walking into a small Long Island Playhouse, the marquee and lobby stripped of all references to the band now formerly known as ELO2, I sadly wondered, “hath the mighty fall any further?”
With a sense of both professionalism and bravado however, the band played on, paying reverence to that timeless creed, the show must go on. Following the final encore for which they received vigorous applause from the tiny, yet packed house, I waited outside the backstage door with a scant few others where I briefly regaled Kelly with the tale of our previous meeting under bizarrely similar circumstances.
"Not one of our brightest moments,” he laughingly agreed.
"It must be odd fulfilling these gigs without a name.”
"Did you have a good time tonight," he asked, still smiling.
"Absolutely."
"Ah, what's in a name anyway," he joked.
Apparently not much!
Having survived years of either mismanagement, or no management, they lazily decided on calling themselves The Orchestra! The ridiculously generic name makes it nearly impossible to find them on the web via any reputable search engine. They did however manage to put out a CD, No Rewind, which most will agree is the most satisfying of the Part II related releases. The biggest disappointment lies in the lack of material submitted by Kelly Groucutt. His closing contribution, Before We Go, had been kicking around for several years, appearing on an acoustic Phil Bates release. A Little Light on an Electric Night featured guest appearances by ELO alum, Kelly, Bev, and Mik Kaminski who joined Phil on unplugged versions of Showdown, Whiskey Girls, One More Tomorrow, and Evil Woman. Kelly’s solo performance of No One Was Saved, an early version of the aforementioned Before We Go, showcases his boundless vocal and songwriting talents. Who knows what may have resulted decades earlier, had Jeff Lynne allowed Mr. Groucutt more input into the original Electric Light Orchestra recordings? The finished version of the song on the Orchestra’s No Rewind makes a fitting closing for what will most likely result in the band’s swan song. Should that be the case, at least they bow out on a high note. Parthenon Huxley’s Jewel and Johnny kicks off the disc in glorious ELO fashion. I remember hearing it performed a year earlier in NYC’s BB King’s, a smaller six-hundred-seat venue not nearly filled to capacity. The promise of new material on the way was encouraging, and the debut of the song, reminiscent of the classics Mr. Blue Sky and The Diary of Horace Wimp showed that Huxley had admirably filled the shoes of former guitarist/vocalist Phil Bates. Eric Troyer’s If Only, an emotionally powerful ballad far surpasses any of his previous contributions to the Part II catalog. Still not a Beatles fan, I am willing to overlook the quasi Eleanor Rigby cello break in the song’s bridge. Beatles jokes aside; this is simply one of the most beautiful tunes I have ever heard. The disc overall, does maintain a decidedly Beatles feel, even without the inclusion of the 60’s classic Twist and Shout. Having heard enough of the tune during its 80’s resurgence in movies like Ferris Bueller’s Day Off, and Rodney Dangerfield’s Back To School, this version is wholly original. Beginning with only an acoustic guitar, Eric’s vocal somberly delivers the first verse before the strings are introduced, dramatically rising towards the unmistakable chorus. The song comes full circle with Eric’s falsetto accompanied only by the distinctive violin of Mik Kaminski, mournfully taking it to its conclusion. Had radio programmer’s gotten a hold of this tune; I can only believe that it may very well have breathed new life into the ELO franchise.
I was thinkin' of the past,
I was tryin' to wrack my brain,
I was looking at the future,
I was trying to play the game.
Didn't want to do it, 'cause I knew what I'd find,
You're really only livin' in a state of mind, yeah.
State of Mind
From the album Zoom (2001)
A few short months following the release of No Rewind, Jeff Lynne, now in full control of the Electric Light Orchestra name, tried to do just that. With Sony records on board, he released Zoom in June of 2001. Complete with new spaceship bearing the famous ELO logo, Zoom promised to be the true comeback that devout fans and purists had long awaited. Alright, the alleged single release received roughly a week’s worth of radio airplay here before quickly fading into obscurity. I purchased the CD in much the same fashion I had done with the last few vinyl releases in the 1980’s, primarily out of a sense of obligation. Back then, my retailer of choice had been Record World, due mostly to its convenient proximity. I distinctly remember finding stickers affixed to either solo records or soundtracks as a reminder to sales associates to group the record within its proper category. For instance, the Xanadu album would display a sticker, which read; file under “E” for ELO. During my first half-hearted listen to Zoom, I immediately reached the conclusion, file under “L” for Lynne. Either biased, or too quick to judge, I felt as most longtime fans will begrudgingly agree, that Zoom, even with the inclusion of strings, was more a Jeff solo project than a true ELO product. Determined to give the disc my undivided attention, I made a solo trip down to the Jersey shore several weeks later. Equipped with homemade cassette featuring Zoom on the A-side, and Jeff’s 1990 Armchair Theatre on the B-side, I set out. The tape provided the soundtrack to an unexpected peaceful, yet memorable weekend, resulting in both albums earning newfound respect. I find myself during the winter months listening to Zoom, which never fails to take me back to that sun drenched lazy getaway spent swimming, parasailing, reading, and sipping a few cold ones. Regardless, I still consider it an extension of Jeff’s solo work rather than a full-blown ELO production. The announcement of a tour to support the record meant that I would finally be afforded the opportunity to see the man, single-handedly responsible for the music that has so been a part of my life. The tour, set to take place in an arena setting rather than a theater setting came as a surprise. The ultimate cancellation due to weak ticket sales did not.
All the talk and whispering over the years that had revolved around poor management pertaining to the Part II camp could never measure up to this debacle. Jeff Lynne, having always kept a lower profile than most, coupled with the thirty-five year lapse in anything ELO related, not to mention the blatant disregard by the media ELO often received throughout their career, simply did not add up to any type of arena experience. The companion DVD; Zoom Tour Live, at least provided a glimpse into what may have been. While ELO Part II had covered a substantial amount of the older tunes, it was the inclusion of nuggets such as Tightrope and Face the Music’s One Summer Dream that made Zoom Live worth the price of admission alone. Admittedly, I have yet to make it through the recording in one sitting. While every note is pristine, the performance lacks the excitement I had grown used to either via the Live at Wembley video or the aforementioned Twilight bootleg recording from 1981. Jeff, while nearly legendary is just not a great front man. The setting, complete with seated cellists exudes more of a chamber feel than that of a concert, nearly to the point of sterility. I often wonder that if bootleg recordings had appeared as the tour progressed and Jeff had loosened up a bit if my opinion might not have changed.

Finale
The stars that shine so brightly
They call to me
I dream of how it might be…
Take Me On and On

From the album Secret Messages (1983)
The first ELO Part Two bootleg I had acquired was recorded in Los Angeles at the infamous Whisky-a-Go-Go in 1991. It was loud, it was raucous, and it oozed excitement. The musicians, well into their 40’s played with the energy and the enthusiasm of a band just starting out, which in essence is exactly what it was. The recording captures the raw excitement of a new band rising. (Loose ELO pun intended). Supporting their debut release, this disc featured four brand new tunes including Eric Troyer’s Thousand Eyes. One of my favorite tunes from the disc, this was another one that had sold me on the new ELO sound. I always considered Bev Bevan’s Heartbreaker among one of the best tunes in the post-Jeff repertoire, often comparing it with Out of the Blue’s “Night in the City.” Had they been taken a little more seriously, I think this tune would most definitely have seen some radio action. This disc has been met with a good deal of derision from older ELO fans claiming that it’s pop sensibilities stray far from Jeff Lynne’s original intentions. I agree wholeheartedly, and stand firm that this is not ELO! This band represented an extension of what Jeff had set forth two decades earlier, enhancing it with their individually personal signatures.
The result?
Nearly twenty additional years of Electric Light Orchestra music played for the masses, be it in a parking lot, a casino, or Carnegie Hall.
Still ignorant to the ELO back-story, I cannot fathom why Jeff, in re-forming the ELO brand could not reunite the ELO band! It is abundantly clear via the scant live recordings of the original lineup, that while Jeff was undeniably the brains of the outfit, Kelly Groucutt was its heart and soul. Notably, while not an original member at the bands inception, he was imminently the most recognizable and remembered band member long after their fade into rock and roll obscurity. Who knows what might have happened had the opportunity arisen for some type of collaborative effort in a truly reunited incarnation of the band?
Sadly, the world will never know.
Kelly Groucutt suffered a fatal heart attack in the days immediately following the German leg of the Orchestra’s 2009 tour, leaving in his wake a gaping hole impossible to fill. His dynamic stage presence and rapport with audiences both on and off that stage were awe-inspiring. Honest, sincere and genuine, he left us with the magic of music, and laughter in our hearts. I had the opportunity to speak with Kelly on several occasions. His talent’s far exceeded that of just musicianship. He possessed the natural ability to make people smile, make everyone around him feel welcome, while looking upon all of us, not as fans, but as friends. I am both humbled and honored; having met someone whom was not just a part of music royalty, but who stood taller than most, and faced the world smiling, either looking down from the top, or up from the bottom. Kelly, quite simply, you will be sorely missed.
I still envision in my heart an ELO reunion with Jeff at the helm, backed by the immeasurable talents of those who have carried on his legacy for the last several years. His music and that of his peers continues touch my life, the hunger inside of me craving for more.

Rise up and sound the sirens,
Send out the searching powers,
All we need is a few good men
Send the s.o.s. and red alerts
All across the universe
Calling your honest men
Honest Men

from the album Electric Light Orchestra Part Two (1990)
As I dwell upon this thought, I feel the embers of creativity welling up from underneath again, a vision of The Illusions, garishly attired, surrounded by the swirling cheesy effects of Wembley past, reaching through time, summoning those would be heroes, the innocent elite, to quell the dark rising in some far off dimension. The music calls to me once again, bringing with it the hope that together, the remaining leaders of two opposing Electric Light Orchestra factions may set aside their differences and work together as one, keeping the melody and dream alive so that future generations of long-winded writers not unlike myself may live to continue the tale.

From our mistakes,
It should be clear
No one should lose
what they revere
No One was Saved
Kelly Groucutt
A Little Light on an Electric Night (1996)

Rest in Peace, Dear Friend.

Tom Mortensen
April 2009

· Record biz talk for the opposite side of the small record with the big hole in the center.
· http://mortmaz.blogspot.com/2008/10/legal-ids-and-hitting-post.html

· The Beach Boys; my all-time favorite band, will be covered next in the musically clueless series.
· 1967’s Here Comes the Night appeared as an eleven-minute disco remake on The Beach Boys 1979 release, the Light Album.

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Symphony in Teen Minor (Excerpt)

This is a Preprint of an article that will appear in the next issue of Forest Hills Celebrity & Entertainment. As this was written for publication, and I am limited to only 1000 words, it is essentially just a small piece in a much larger tale.

Overture
I have never been an autograph hound, don’t consider myself as the star struck type, yet there I was one mid-90’s summer afternoon, making haste to get to a local music retailer with the hope of saying hello to someone whom I deemed instrumental in contributing to the virtual soundtrack of my life. The rare in-store appearance to promote the release of an upcoming CD would precede their appearance that evening at New Jersey’s Meadowlands.
I was willing to overlook the fact that they would be performing in the parking lot at the annual summer fair, rather than inside the mammoth arena.
“Yes, how the mighty hath fallen," I thought to myself, recalling the band’s glory days some two decades earlier as one of the most influential acts in rock and roll history. Not the stalker type, I was not a purist either. Sure, the man directly responsible for all of the music that had taken the once great Electric Light Orchestra to a remarkable degree of success wanted no part in this new incarnation, aptly titled E.L.O Part II, but the current members; some of whom had contributed to that stratospheric achievement, had quite literally resurrected the music of my adolescent years.

First Movement
Turning the street corner, I prepared myself for what would certainly amount to an endless wait at the rear of an equally interminable line, yet arriving at the site unencumbered, I witnessed what the retail community would consider a dismal business day. Shaking my head in disbelief, confusion swiftly turned to shock as I looked upon the mind-boggling sight of a band member standing on line to purchase guitar strings.
Why is he standing on line like a common customer,” I shockingly wondered!
Upon further inspection, I recognized some of the other band mates aimlessly standing about, looking decidedly unhappy.
Warily approaching the bassist, I shyly asked, “Is there an autograph signing happening here?”
"No," he laughed loudly, flamboyantly waving his arms in the air, comically calling attention to the almost ethereal, library like atmosphere.
“We have nothing to sign," his voice piercingly echoed.
I looked around nervously, expecting an immediate admonishment from one of the nonplussed sales clerks.
Until that very moment, the absence of any band related paraphernalia on display had escaped me. It was a scene right out of Spinal Tap, the hysterical mid-80’s cinematic romp detailing the rise and fall of a fictional rock and roll band.
"Well, what's happening then," I persisted.
"I'll tell you what's happening. We’re going to kick the crap out of our bloody manager, that's what. You may want to stick around a bit."

Interlude
His name was Kelly Groucutt. Joining the Electric Light Orchestra in 1974, he quickly became a fan favorite onstage, adding his distinctive voice as lead vocalist on several of the bands greatest hits. Notably, while not an original member at the bands inception in the earlier part of the decade, he was imminently the most recognizable and remembered band member long after their fade into rock and roll obscurity.
Should you be scratching your collective heads in confusion, wondering how this tale may fall under the jurisdiction of anything Forest Hills related, I temporarily defer to this periodical’s last name; Entertainment. However, should that not suffice; Mr. Groucutt was born in Staffordshire England in 1945. I often wonder whether he may have grown up in a dwelling similar to those of which I admire as I meander through The Gardens each evening upon my return from the working day world.
There’s your Forest Hills connection.

Second Movement
The “Part Two” years in the E.L.O. legacy were often embroiled in lawsuits over ownership of the actual Electric Light Orchestra name. By 2000, when drummer Bev Bevan; the only original member had called it quits, the band, now left with even less credibility also found themselves sans identity; a literal rock and roll John Doe.
Walking into the small Long Island Playhouse, the marquee and lobby stripped of all references to the band now formerly known as ELO2, I sadly wondered, “hath the mighty fall any further?”
With a sense of both professionalism and bravado, the band played on, paying reverence to that timeless creed, the show must go on. Following the final encore for which they received vigorous applause from the tiny, yet packed house, I waited outside the backstage door with a scant few others where I briefly regaled Kelly with the tale of our previous meeting under bizarrely similar circumstances.
"Not one of our brightest moments,” he laughingly agreed.
"It must be odd fulfilling these gigs without a name.”
"Did you have a good time tonight," he asked, still smiling.
"Absolutely."
"Ah, what's in a name anyway," he joked as we posed together for a picture that means so much more to me today than it did back then.

Finale
Whether a nameless face in a sea of many at the end of the show, or one of the dedicated few who has stuck around through thick and thin, the brief opportunity to speak with someone who has touched so many lives through his craft is often too short. Kelly Groucutt suffered a fatal heart attack in the days immediately following the completion of the German leg of their 2009 tour, leaving in his wake a gaping hole impossible to fill. His dynamic stage presence and rapport with audiences both on and off that stage were awe-inspiring. Honest, sincere and genuine, he left us with the magic of music, and laughter in our hearts. I am both humbled and honored; having met someone whom was not just a part of music royalty, but who stood taller than most, and faced the world smiling, either looking down from the top, or up from the bottom.
Kelly, quite simply, you will be sorely missed.
Rest in Peace, dear friend.
* Photo's courtesy Ken Latta/orchestra.net

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Morty's 25 (plus 5) Random Things About Me

I have recently become a fan of (and subsequently obsessed with) Facebook.
WARNING!
If you are not a member yet, take heed.
IT IS ADDICTING!
A substantial portion of my High School graduating class are all there, and now they are my friends. Most of them barely recognized my existence back then, but hey; that's ancient history. The reason I bring this to light now comes as a result of a note I received from an old pen-pal (see the July 2008 posting titled "AWRY Pronounced "Orrie"?) "25 Random Things About Me" is a great way to get to know a little more about those you have now come to consider as friends within the Facebook universe. I found that it was a tall order to come up with 25 random facts pertaining to myself. After careful consideration, I have also come to the conclusion that I may have eliminated a small number of tidbits that I would have liked to include. In keeping with my recently realized license to be lazy (see the previous posting for information on that) I have decided to post my facebook facts here along with some additional thoughts as well.
In the music world these would be construed as Bonus Tracks.

Morty's 25 Random Things About Me.
1. I despise the apartment we currently call home. It is far too small for three of us, but due to the current economic climate (and some pretty foolish financial decisions) we are trapped there.
2. I have always been more of a follower, never a leader
3. I am absloutely convinced that it is not what you know, It's WHO you know.
4. I am a huge fan of the Partridge Family, own all of their CD's and know the lyrics to no less than 95% of their tunes
5. I don't like award shows and have little interest in most films that receive the "Oscar Buzz."
6. I have always been a morning person.
7. I have abominable handwriting and can no longer write in script.
8. I have little interest in anything political, and believe that most of our chosen leaders care only for themselves.
9. One of my favorite movies of all time is "The Gumball Rally."
10. I can totally live without my cell phone.
11. I love country music.
12. I am petrified of the doctor.
13. I would love to lose thirty pounds
14. My favorite place in the world is Key West
15. I would love to write a novel
16. I never stop worrying about the inevitable days ahead when my son will no longer look up to me.
17. I always wanted rock and roll hair, or a cool pony tail.
18. I avoid confrontation.
19. I often wish there really was a "Fantasy Island".
20. I would like to try horseback riding one day.
21. I love the sound of seagulls at the beach.
22. I have little use for religion after being told by an over-zealous, misguided relative that "Harry Potter" was killing my child.
23. I love to walk.
24. I am a Beach Boys fanatic
25. I still LOVE White Castle.

Bonus Tracks (Facts)

26. I have never owned a real suit
27. I concur with my wife and can go for an Extreme Makeover
28. I will never be a fan of Howard Stern
29. I used to love Roller Coasters and insane thrill rides. Now I feel I have gotten too old for that type of rush. (There is no way that going from 0 to 120 in less than a few seconds can be good for you).
30. I have little interest in and no use whatsoever for The Beatles.
There it is, Morty in a nutshell and another posting in for January. Please feel free to comment and don't forget to check in at unknown80s.blogspot.com with a new posting only days away. Now get yourself on Facebook if you haven't done so already.
More friends, more friends...

Saturday, January 10, 2009

2009 The Year in "Pre"view

4 lines from a lazy poet, her epitaph read , only after loudly voicing her annoyance at being approached by yet another autograph seeker. Granted, she was the most popular girl in school, but we were in the sixth grade! I had hoped for nothing more than a brief memento of the even briefer time we had spent together over the last several years, something I could go back to and read with a combination of melancholy and affection.
4 lines from a lazy poet, written haphazardly underneath four hastily drawn horizontal lines on a purple page in an album, loosely considered to be our yearbook.
"In days of old when knights were bold and toilets weren't invented..."
I don't remember the rest, but that one sure made for a memorable piece of whimsy which still makes me laugh. More than one of my classmates had graced my pages with that fine display of literature, Plagiarism alive and well amongst our graduating class.
Moving up, I have to remind myself. We merely Moved Up from Grade School.
4 lines from a lazy poet, followed by her signature. I won't identify her by name (Sue) because that would be unfair, yet what a disappointment coming from not only the most popular girl in class, but from the valedictorian as well.
"Another one," she complained, her arms thrust towards the ceiling. "Everyone loves me, I know."
This is not a story about love lost, or first heartbreak.
Remarkably, I realize now that her brief uncaring brush-off is actually a golden ticket of sorts. It has taken me more than three decades to realize and appreciate the gift that she had entrusted to the mere hands of one of her many sixth grade subordinates.
A License to be lazy!
Now that I am aware of what is in my possession, I am unsure of just how to go about using it. While I am not exactly going to the gym these days, laziness is almost a foreign concept to me. Trying to maintain two blog sites, write a column for a local magazine, working far too many hours at a job I actually get paid to do, and balancing family responsibilities is no easy task. 2008 proved a great writing year for me, and it is my hope that 2009 might follow in the same vein. There are still many tales to tell as I continue this journey through my life via the world of blogging. Unfortunately, I have not felt the calling of late to sit in front of the computer and begin the task of relaying them. It is, however with this in mind, that I have decided to put to use my thirty-four year old license to be lazy.
Think about it.
Recording artists, in the guise of releasing Greatest Hits collections are actually doing what?
Being Lazy!
As my December deadline at Forest Hills Celebrity & Entertainment approached, I had almost considered following in the footsteps of so many of the aforementioned musicians and submitting a greatest hits collection of my own.
The Best of Morty 2008.
I had it all figured out too. I would preface these brief synopses of some of my writings by welcoming all new readers and allowing them a glimpse into the past (back issues, I think they call it in the biz).
I know what you're thinking.
It's brilliant!
Common sense and my fine work ethic prevailed however, moving that idea to the proverbial back burner. Instead, I put my writing to good use that issue, drawing attention to a small group of car enthusiasts who spend their time raising money for a local children's hospital. It proved both enlightening and heartwarming, adding an entirely new dimension to my holiday season.
As I now feel pressed for time, not having posted in nearly a month, I have decided that in the interest of getting something online, I would take a semi-lazy path and provide you, the reader, with a preview of what is to come in 2009.
When I launched this site in December of '06, it began with a tale of my adolescent life, first love and its corresponding first kiss. Remarkably, through lots of shameless self-promotion, that memoir not only reached its intended target audience, but so touched some of those involved that a book project is now getting underway. Only in its infant stages as I write this, it is our combined hope to publish something by year's end. "Return to Innocence," marked my return to the written word following over two decades of literary silence. It also landed me the official title of columnist (which I can't mention enough) in the aforementioned periodical. As I attempt to find time to work towards publishing a historical account of the location in which Innocence had taken place, I plan to revisit that first posting. Having grown far more comfortable with the entire writing process, I cringe now whenever I take a gander back at my blogging debut. The impending result will be an extreme makeover, hopefully with a somewhat more appealing title.
My second posting; Odd Jobs: A Resume' for Disaster (wow, I'm good with titles) loosely hinted at my long and varied work history in a number of different occupational areas. Wait until you hear of my brief stint as a perfume salesman ripping off the unsuspecting public with knock-offs. SUCCESSFULLY!
While nothing may seem more ridiculous than delivering false teeth, at least that position was reputable.
(I am hoping I may have piqued your curiosity enough to take a trip back through the archives for a better understanding of what I am talking about). While you're back there, take a look at "Tales from the VW," a hysterical romp outlining my earliest driving experiences. There are still plenty of tales untold from that Smokey and the Bandit, Dukes of Hazzard era if you catch my drift.
Recently my son explained to me what a bad, disgusting friend the vacuum cleaner is.
Hey, he's only five.
I argued with him.
Mr. Hoover, my mom's late 70's upright model became a very close friend of mine one summer 1981 night, an early drinking tale that will either have you grabbing your sides to hold in the explosion of laughter, or find you shaking your head in disgust or dismay.
Recently, Justin sat upon my lap in front of the computer, proudly showing me a few scribbled notes on a post-it.
"What's that," I asked.
"It says blogged by Justin. I wrote people about the 1980's"
For now, I will keep his blog out of the spotlight. Five years of age is too soon for the public airing of his dirty laundry.
Mine on the other hand...?
Music, love, laughter, tears (maybe tears).
It's all coming your way in 2009.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Celluloid Christmas

“Stop the car, stop the car,” my brother and I screamed in unison.
From the rear seat, ripe with the smell of fresh pine, having just chosen the tree that would grace our living room; we had implausibly seen the impossible.
“What,” my dad responded, trying in earnest to curb his anger at our ear splitting outburst?
“It’s Santa, It’s Santa,” we rejoiced in perfect monophonic stereo.
What is he doing here, so far in advance of his scheduled appearance on that night of all nights, my mind silently raced!
Spinning damage control with the finesse and expertise that only a board-certified Spin Doctor could accomplish, my mom confidently informed us, “It’s just one of his elves.”
His image growing larger in the rear window as dad reluctantly backed up, my brother and I sat spellbound, unsure of what to believe.
That’s some movie magic right there!
Year after year, I try to recapture just a shred of the glory that once was a part of the very fabric, which made that time so special. The arrival of a son in our lives who now completely gets the whole Christmas thing – at least the Santa side of it – has returned to us a modicum of holiday cheer, partly from holding his revered bearded hero over his head in an effort to keep him on the straight and narrow. I get a small thrill from watching him squirm when he knows that Santa really is watching him.
Hey, don’t be like that!
All parents experience that very same pleasure. Most are just not as open about it as I am. Admittedly however, I do miss the holiday memories that were special enough, large enough, to be worthy of celluloid, perfect made for TV holiday fare. The recollections I still have, stored deep in the recesses of my addled brain contain all of the elements for a great movie. There is an innocent child, a bumbling romantic, an adolescent coming of age, even an evil villain, trying not to steal Christmas… just Christmas lights.
Wow, that used to be fun.
Alright, again with the disapproving scowl!
I’ll have you know, that like Santa, I too can see everything, so...
“You better watch out…you better not pout.”
It was sometime around the age of three, when my son began to understand that Christmas morning meant something special.
“Hey buddy,” I prodded a mere millisecond after he stirred.
I had been waiting all night for this moment.
Check that.
I had quite literally been waiting decades for that very moment, a chance to see a hint of Christmas magic as I may once have experienced it. I silently pondered whether ol’ Scrooge had felt this way, as from the outside he gazed upon a life that once had been.
“Come on; let’s see if Santa was here.”
“I want milk,” he whined.
Again, with the milk I brooded, rolling my eyes while silently suppressing my still burgeoning parenting skills.
“I hope Santa had enough milk,” I cheerily countered, referring to the snack we had left on the windowsill.
Wearily, he followed my lead.
I could barely contain my excitement as we made our way up the hallway.
“Bed man walking,” I giddily felt like shouting!
My wife on the other hand had no problem in the enthusiasm department at that time of morning opting to sleep through it instead. With a sweeping fanfare echoing only within the recesses of my mind I flicked the light switch, gasped aloud, and proclaimed excitedly, “Oh my goodness little buddy, he was here!”
Time seemed to freeze for a second as he stared blankly ahead, not blinking an eye.
“Who did this,” he asked almost angrily, looking at the obscene amount of gaily-wrapped presents that littered our living room floor.
Therapy was my immediate thought.
First him.
Then me.
Is it possible he doesn’t believe? Did he wake up at some point during my four-letter word tirade as I’d fought with the little train set?
“Who the (expletive deleted) do you think did this, me and Mommy,” my sleep deprived mind nearly screamed?
My dissatisfaction was short lived as groggily, he began to come around, yet I had still been disappointed all the same. It had taken a long time to reach the point where some semblance of true holiday joy had returned to my life. Only a couple of weeks prior, I had still harbored no feelings of festivity.
(Enter the aforementioned bad guy)
An early shopper’s hype ad, an amazingly low price, an incredibly tight window of opportunity and the need for additional DVD players in the office give me a great idea. Knowing that there will indeed be a crush of holiday bargain hunters trying to cash in on such an unbelievable deal, I scope out the store two days before said event. My calm demeanor and courteous manner works its magic on the unsuspecting sales clerk who disinterestedly reveals to me the precise location at which said video units would be found. Smiling, I thank him kindly and slink back out to the street, rubbing my hands together in anticipation, not for the reward of procuring two of these sure to be coveted items, but more for the looks of dismay and disappointment on the faces of those who missed out.
**Author’s Note:
(It’s important here to familiarize yourself with the renowned holiday favorite, “Mister Grinch.” The italicized text denotes the verses that are sung, while the regular text indicates the vocal narration. I know it’s difficult. Bear with me.)**
“You’re a mean one, Mr. Grinch!
And you’ll show them all who’s boss.
You staked out the store on Thursday,
Among the first on line on Saturday,
Mr. Gri-i-i-n-nch!
You denied Christmas gift-givers from getting off cheap,
Their scowls and their frowns, their scorn you did reap”

Walking out of the store that sale day morning to the musical accompaniment of disgruntled sighs and murmurs of disgust as I carried one unit under each arm filled the prescription I needed to ward off a case of the holiday blues, but like a trip to the chiropractor, the relief was short lived at best.

“You felt better, Mr. Grinch.
But the happiness didn’t last long.
Yes, you found it funny,
Saving the boss a little money,
Mr. Gri-i-i-n-nch!

You really weren’t happy, knowing you were wrong.
I’ll dispense with the lame lyrics; I’m really reaching with this song.”

“CUT,” I can almost hear the director scream, while he simultaneously fires the movie score composer.

Look, I’m not exactly searching for the meaning of Christmas, but there are times when I often find myself wondering, what happened to me?
Where went the magic, the wonder?
I used to think that having a kid would be enough to reignite those feelings of joy, which it does in part, but the normal stress of everyday life, work, the economy, hangs above; overshadowing what should otherwise be a delightful time of year.
The holidays are alive all around me, yet I find myself oblivious.
Maybe it started when the snow stopped, or when my growing mind began to realize that the much-needed white stuff for a geriatric sleigh fanatic was not in the forecast for the most important day of the year. Looking out the window at the brief expanse of brown lawn that as far as the nearby sidewalk, a sudden and unwanted dawning of understanding invaded my fantasy world.
“Mom,” I called worriedly from my post.
Luckily, I had still been young enough to warrant an immediate response.
“What’s the matter? Are you okay,” she asked breathlessly, having made a mad dash from the basement washing machine, setting a probable Olympic record, should such an event exist.
“How is Santa going to get here if we don’t have any snow?”
A momentary flicker of anger before applying her PhD in spin doctoring, she coolly responded, “He puts wheels on his sleigh.”
It worked for me.
Every kid wants to be older. I see it in my son, who tells me everyday he wants to be ten, something I am in no rush to see happen. With maturity comes responsibility, but kids don’t see it that way. Kids look at it with wide eyes and boundless possibility. I knew I was beginning to reach a higher plane when Christmas thoughts turned to gift giving rather than only receiving.

“A mailbox,” one of my classmates accused. “You got your parents a mailbox?”
It had not taken long for my younger brother to get the word out, resulting in ceaseless jeers and mockery from friends and classmates alike. Sure, we were not in dire need of a mailbox, but it had been both affordable and easily attainable within biking distance. It had also marked a small milestone in my young life, having had the discipline and foresight to save a few dollars from my seriously undeserved allowance!
I am not proficient in the art of gift giving.
“Ouch, I don’t see him faring well at all here,” The network sports type announcer, says with disappointment in his voice.
“I mean, what was he thinking,” the overpaid, and unnecessary second announcer laughingly adds.
“Let’s see what the judges have to say.”
“ There are no zeroes in this competition, so I give him a one. A girl needs something to show off to her friends, something to make them sick with envy. Any diamond will do.”
“Thank-you, Miss Fabulous. What about you, Mrs. Material?”
“I have a hard time awarding him a two! The choice of gift is awful enough, but Corningware? Certainly, a fine designer made piece would have suited her better.”
“Aw-w-w, whats’a mattah wit you broads? A ‘ting like this will keep her in the kitchen longer. I give him a ten, ‘cos there ain’t no elevens!”
“Well, no surprise there. Thank-you, Mr. Glutton.”
“That makes twelve points, compliments of the overweight male contingent on the panel,” the overpaid and unnecessary THIRD announcer adds unnecessarily.

I still defend the choice of cookware as a gift for my soon to be wife. Her long outdated and rusty hand me downs were both an eyesore and most likely unhealthy. Disappointed by her lack of admiration in my gift, I blamed it on the far below average lack of female companionship in my life to that point, directly resulting in poor gift-giving etiquette. I should have taken a hint from my earliest attempt at courtship and tokens of appreciation.

It was during the ninth grade when I had entered into my first long-term relationship, a far cry from the long-distance relationship I was still more or less embroiled in. It wasn't cheating as n’er the two should ever meet, and at such a tender change, what were the rules that governed a relationship?
Were there any rules?
The only rule I had broken was the cardinal token of appreciation ritual. I had not exactly lost sleep or toiled long and hard in trying to come up with a perfect present for my semi-betrothed, nor had it come to me in a dream. Frankly, I don’t remember how the idea popped into my subconscious, but suddenly like a welcome visit from an unlikely stranger, it appeared to me.
Lollipops!
It was perfect, a gift that did not say anything more than
“Hey, I like you."
"I like you a lot.”
Short of funds however; a condition I had long gotten used to, I opted not for the expensive swirly candy store type, but rather the free ones I had acquired from multiple trips to the bank with mom and dad.
Well of course, it was with mom and dad.
I had no business being inside any financial institution on my own.
Hey, it’s the thought that counts, I reasoned on the lonely walk home.
No, it’s not!

Fifteen years later, with not many more serious relationships under my belt, Christmas had become a time filled with feelings of melancholy. While friends were always in abundance, at the age of twenty-one, I had felt that something more was missing, the need for a significant other
It was on a lonely Christmas Eve when I had reached out to a dear friend who had been dealing with a bit of the holiday doldrums herself. Overcoming incredible odds, we had traversed several miles in my completely unreliable Volkswagen Dasher to view the official Long Island Christmas tree. Quietly walking across the parking lot, we linked arms, and gazed upon the magnificent sight. With her head on my shoulder, lost in our private thoughts, we held each other tightly as only two close friends could, appreciating the fact that in that special moment, at least we had each other.
And that was good enough.
It’s a bittersweet recollection that gives me thought for pause, a fond memory that will last forever.
That’s some movie magic right there!
I realize unselfishly now that Christmas is all about making memories. It’s the forming of memories for a five year old that will hopefully last his lifetime. I have an abundance of Christmas recollections that could probably fill a book, not all worthy of celluloid, though Christmas with the Chicken Pox might be worth looking into. It is not an easy task trying to get into the Christmas spirit now, yet it’s all about putting on that game face to keep a child’s dreams alive. I don’t know how he will handle the truth when that time rolls around. It’s hard enough now trying to keep the facade alive with Santa sightings beginning at sundown following Thanksgiving dinner. Just days before then, our wise beyond his year’s offspring elected to join us in bed for an impromptu early morning discussion relating to Santa’s whereabouts.
“Where does Santa live,” my wife cloyingly baited him.
Thinking about it for a second or two, he removed his favorite Thomas cup from his lips, slurped wetly, then confidently replied, “At the mall.”
I remember vividly the day my mom delivered the devastating blow to my unbelieving ears. Having walked home from school for lunch one bright afternoon, I had alluded to something I was considering asking Santa for. Mom paused, working out in her mind the easiest way to shatter the trouble free fantasy world I had been living in. I can’t remember the precise words, only that they had been both honest, heartfelt and carefully delivered. There had been a minimally brief moment of shock followed by sadness, then inexplicably without hesitation I was simply okay with it. Maybe in the back of my maturing mind somewhere I had already come to understand that there really was no plump gaudily dressed senior citizen flying around the cold December sky with a bottomless bag of toys for every child in the world.
It was a bittersweet moment, an early rite of passage.
I returned to school that afternoon a changed person, mature in the fact that I now shared a sacred secret with my parents that would be cherished until my younger siblings reached their moment of reckoning.
That’s some movie magic right there.
For anywould be producers, directors, and/or screenwriters who may inadvertently stumble across this holiday tale, have your people call my people. Until then, bless you all who have made it through yet another bona fide long-winded Morty yarn.
Happy holidays to all.
And to all, a good night.

Thursday, December 04, 2008

The Pen is Mightier Than...Part III: A Blog Continues.

I started a new book on the bus ride in this morning, and no sooner should I reach the bottom of page one, do I come across this quote that sums up my sole reason for launching this site in the first place.
"A son is a promise that time makes to man, the guarantee every father receives that whatever he holds dear will someday be considered foolish, and that the person he loves best in the world will misunderstand him."
- - Ian Caldwell & Dustin Thomason
The Rule of Four
I repeat myself on this site ad-nauseum, but for those of you checking in for the first time I'll make my point one more (most likely not the last) time. My love for writing and dreams of being published set aside, the primary reason for contributing here really goes back to my son, with the hope that when this beloved little boy reaches his inevitable teen angst years, he might in the privacy of his own room, visit this site to read about his dad, and hopefully think to himself, "hey, my dad was pretty cool after all." There are no sordid tales here, no exploits of unbelievable irresponsibility. I could attempt to make them up, but not having lived my life that way, it would most likely come off as just that...made up. Not all of my life is exactly G-rated, however and some of the more "PG-13" / borderline "R" rated stuff may rear its head here one day.
I have often wondered if my dad and I shared the same special bond at one time in our lives that my son and I do. I have very few recollections of my youngest years. By the time I had hit High School - if not sooner - my parents seemed to take more of a backseat in my life. I suppose that's inevitable in the lives of most folks, and quite honestly it scares the hell out of me. Will there be a great hole, a bottomless chasm in my soul when my little one reaches that point? There were times during my college years when my dad would half-heartedly attempt to regale me with a tale or two of his carefree and reckless years, probably knowing that I was only half-heartedly paying attention. I was too wrapped up in my own world, which was really beginning to open up before my very eyes to miss even a second of it. Not until the birth of my own son (once we got over the earth shattering shock of having another living, breathing life form invade our once peaceful abode), did I begin to realize what his past meant to him, and how important it must have been for him to want to share it, only to watch it fall upon deaf ears.
This past summer as I was writing the tale of a 1987 road trip to the Virginia coast ("Awry: pronounced Orrie?" ca. aug. 2008), I came to the realization that this site is not only dedicated to my son, but to my dad as well, a testament to his past as he tried to convey it to me. There are times now when I think to myself, what I wouldn't give to have that chance now, to have a conversation, to listen, to learn, to get to know him on a deeper level. I really know very little about his past, and many of those who do are either long out of touch, or just simply gone...in that final sense. In a way, it almost presents a quandary here. Do I spend some time trying to find those who are left to fill in the blanks, or do I continue moving forward, not unselfishly doing what I love, while trying to leave a footprint of myself for my son, and hopefully his kids.
Dare I look that far into the future?
In a post 9/11 world, is there a future that lies so far ahead?
Darker thoughts aside, I choose to plow forward for now, still with the hope that my son will find this place interesting enough to even drop by.

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

How Many Christmases?

I'm sure the title of this post is completely misspelled, but how would one go about spelling Christmas in the plural sense? That said, the time for levity comes briefly to an end. Yes, with the conclusion of Thanksgiving, the "holiday" season is now upon us. Here in the Greater New York Area this time of year is often met with a little bit of stress. I'm not talking about stress of the shopping and gift giving type, but the uneasiness of yet another holiday terror alert. The day before Thanksgiving, a day that more often than not finds most folks in a lighter mood as they look forward to the long weekend ahead was merely a few hours old when the powers that be went public, telling us once again not to panic, live our lives as normal, but be vigilant. Another credible threat, this time to our subways and commuter trains may be possible during this otherwise happy time of year. The sight of National Guard troops and an extra police presence has become a daily part of the fabric of our lives. Complacency is once again the creed by which we greet everyday here as we watch (I'm assuming) with some degree of horror the recent events taking place in Mumbai without seriously considering the fact that it could happen here. This is now the way we are forced to welcome in the holidays in a post 9/11 world, with unsettling thoughts, wondering whether or not today might be the day.
Will we make it home unscathed to enjoy another night with our loved ones?
I'm not a fatalist.
I'm a realist.
Last Wednesday, Thanksgiving Eve, I came across the blog site of someone I am honored to consider as an old friend. We had recently re-connected through the awesome power of the World Wide Web, something I pay deference to daily. Admittedly, my knee jerk/gut reaction to a posting titled Thankfulness Needs to Come from the Soul was, "Oh no, not another sappy holiday life changing confession, you could learn a lesson from this" type diatribe.
(Sorry, Tina).
I tend not to get caught up in the fervor of the holidays. Any warm fuzzies dissipated with the last tendrils of my youth, though having the opportunity to experience the magic and wonder of it all through the eyes of my five year-old son has alleviated that jaded feeling somewhat.
Out of respect, I did read Tina's posting from start to finish. It was compelling, well written and came from the heart. It didn't change my life however...at least not until I had reached home that evening to see the early news clips of all hell breaking loose on the other side of the world.
Timing is everything!
I don't often take the time to think about what I should be thankful for. Like most Americans I suppose, I take for granted the things I should be thankful about. I had a lot to sleep on come bedtime that evening.
Shortly following the conclusion of the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade the next morning, where my son exhibited his first true hint of excitement at the upcoming Christmas holiday, having been convinced that Santa was waving at him through the television screen, I took a personal time-out to check e-mail and send one I had felt was now overdue.

Tina,
I read the recent posting on your blog site yesterday and was completely moved by your tale of what is now war torn India. Watching the Macy's parade with my son this morning was so normal, and gives me pause for thought. I'm thankful for "normal." I'm thankful to have re-connected with someone who briefly touched my life poolside at a Virgina Beach " Resort" some twenty years ago. I'm thankful that said "someone" is safe at home with family this year, celebrating the holiday far from where she spent it last year. My best to you and your family. Stay healthy, stay safe.
I often wonder how people in other parts of the country that are far removed from a major city react to increases in terror alerts, or if they are as senitively attuned to them as we are. If that weren't enough - more good news out of Washington.
WASHINGTON – A bipartisan commission is asserting the country should expect a terrorist attack using nuclear or biological weapons sometime in the next five years.
The report, which is scheduled to be publicly released on Wednesday, suggests that the incoming administration of President-elect Barack Obama should improve the capability of the United States to counter such an attack and to prepare if necessary for germ warfare.
From the very day I went public with this site, my goal was to keep this as a happy place, a sacred site to turn to just to get away from it all, have a laugh or two at my expense. I have often said both on this site and off, that I am not politically minded. Politics often brings out the worst in people. I don't take sides over which administration is to blame for the events of 9/11, and inwardly laugh at some of those who do. It really adds up to nothing more than finger pointing; he said, she said.
Now we hear that the incoming administration should essentially prepare for the worst. Shouldn't we have been doing that from sa-a-a-y-y 9/12?
Commuting in on the bus this morning, I briefly looked up from the book I was reading and was greeted with an early morning view of the New York City skyline in the distance, warmly welcoming the rising sun upon its face. Traffic was still light, the heartbeat that is New York had not yet reached its fevered pitch. Holiday lights and decorations were still glowing in that peaceful moment.
I got a chill, thinking back just a few minutes earlier to the news story I had caught the tail end of before heading out the door. Vice-President elect Joe Biden is due to make a presentation soon, discussing the probability of an imminent nuclear or biological attack.
I think of my family.
I wonder briefly, How Many Christmases?
How many more will we have the pleasure of spending together before the unimagineable happens?
I shook off the foreboding thought and went back to my book, a decent coutroom thriller that is reaching its end.
I am a New Yorker.
I return to living my life as I normally would.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Random Thoughts I: "White-Out and Writer's Block"

December 6th will officially mark the second year that this site has been up and running. Regretfully and as expected, there have been some lapses in posting with any degree of regularity. The creative burst I had over the summer was encouraging, though creative is pretty far from what it could actually be considered. I am writing about my life after all. Recently, I seem to have hit yet another dry spell, possibly due to my new obsession with the alternate site I have up and running at unknown80s.blogspot.com. The recent reprint I posted here from the magazine I am contributing to, marked my first true spurt of creativity in decades, lending truth to the idea that great things happen when you least expect it. As a result, I now keep in my possession at all times a small memo book to jot down ideas that randomly pop into my head. Usually days after such an event, I will turn to these pages in an attempt to decipher my God-awful handwriting, which by the way afforded me my first and only trip to the Principal's office, but that story will have to wait. If I'm not busy trying to decipher the aforementioned chicken scratch, I find myself scratching my head in complete confusion, wondering what any of it means. I don't know if it's in some sort of secret code or a newly developed Morty version of shorthand, but I find that I lose more great ideas that way. A theologist, philosopher, or my long departed grandmother would simply say, "if it's meant to be, it's meant to be."
I beg to differ.
I should have taken the principal and the second grade teacher who banished me there all of those years ago just a bit more seriously.
"He's going to be a doctor," my grandmother would say, obviously referring to the unwritten rule that doctor's are notorious for their handwriting.
I'm only realizing now as I type this, why that rule is indeed unwritten.
I don't type well either.
Having never taken a typing class in my life, I feel I get by alright using only the index finger of each hand. As I've mentioned on several occasions since my glorious return to the written word, many of my musings start out on the pages of a simple composition notebook. You can imagine what it must be like trying to transcribe those words when I can barely read the handwriting that placed them there in the first place. If I were actually typing upon the invention that typewriting was meant for, I would have to take out a small bank loan to cover the amount of White-Out I would need. It's amazing, but once this stuff is posted, it looks pristine (sans typo's of course). I still cringe every time I go back to an earlier posting and catch a mistake I missed during one of the many return trips to my blogging past.
Hey, someone has to read this stuff!
I recently installed hit-counters on both sites just to see what kind of traffic I was getting.
It's not exactly the Long Island Expressway at rush hour.
Talk about off the beaten path!
Not too long ago, I found myself loosely involved with a small "classic car club," for lack of a better description here. I had the great pleasure of researching and writing an article about them for the upcoming holiday edition of Forest Hills Celebrity & Entertainment. Fully behind their cause, I spent an afternoon learning how to prepare a press release for their annual Toys For Tots Run. While the end result didn't garner as much attention as I had hoped, I was still happy with the way in which it was presented. I'm now considering a press release to all of the local papers to advertise my return to writing via the world wide web. Hey, why stop there? It is world wide after all. Why not a press release to publications everywhere?
Call it a plea for help.
It was during one of the many return trips to my widely unread posting past that I thought I might take a moment or two to tie up some loose ends in classic Where Are They Now fashion. Coming off the euphoric writer's high of finally completing my first blog submission; "Return To Innocence" in December of '06, I had contemplated continuing that tale, albeit briefly in a short follow-up piece I had planned on calling "Addendum to Innocence." ©! Take note of the copyright symbol that immediately follows that incredible title! The second it came to my mind, I immediately looked around to make sure that no one was attempting to hone in on my thoughts. I mean let's face it, "Addendum to Innocence" is a great title. As a result of my triumphant return to writing, I subscribed to Writer's Digest, a great periodical filled with incentives, ideas, and general information about writer's doing what they love - writing! In one of the recent back issues there was a great article on struggling with titles. Basically the premise was, you've finally completed your masterpiece, now what are you going to call it? Apparently, one of the biggest roadblocks writers have to face is coming up with a catchy title. I'm happy to report that titles seem to represent the least of my writing problems. In fact, I'm patting myself on the back right now as I type this (not an easy task for someone who can't really type to begin with). Go on and take a look at some of the past titles. Don't worry, I'll be here when you get back.
(Picture Morty patiently waiting in front of his computer screen as his imaginary "following" cycles back in time through his life via the blogging archives on this very site.)
"I told you so," he silently triumphs.
I'm really not big on ego!
I have an alter-ego.
For some, "Morty" is my alter-ego, for others, it's Tom, the legal name by which I was born with. The amount of people who know me as Morty still amazes me. They understand I have a proper moniker, yet continue to consider me as Morty.
It drives my wife crazy.
My five year old son laughs out loud when he calls me Morty.
I resisted the idea of being called Morty from the very day in 1981 that my dad had uttered it. Prior to beginning my continuing education in college, he had proudly proclaimed that Morty was his nickname during that time in his life.
I was mortified at the thought.
Thoughts again return to the wisdom of my long departed Grandma:
"If it's meant to be, it's meant to be."
It was!
In lieu of rambling on; something I have become particularly adept at, I will spare you any addendum's for now. Had this been a real typewriter, I would have well been on my way to a third jar of White-Out. Instead, I inwardly groan in Carpal Tunnel agony, probably as a result of improper hand placement upon the keys, or the abuse and overuse of the PC based "Control Z" undo function.

Friday, October 17, 2008

PoliTricks or Parlor Tricks?

**This is my first official Reprint, something I won't be making a habit of. As this is timely for the moment, I thought I might put it out there for the world outside of my little piece of paradise**

Morty 10/08


Here we are already in the fall of 2008 with another presidential election looming on the horizon.
WAIT!
I know what you’re thinking, but before you turn the page let me take a moment and happily plagiarize myself. Take a journey back in time with me to just over a year ago. Forest Hills Celebrity & Entertainment has just reached its one-year milestone. On page twenty-two, a guy who reluctantly goes by the name of Morty introduces himself in his very first magazine column, making a promise (similar to that of your run of the mill politician) to “keep this space lighthearted, a place of refuge…would rather not discuss politics.”
I still adhere to that, steadfastly ignoring the inundation of radio, print and TV ads during this otherwise pleasant time of year. Recently however, I came across an article that inadvertently caught my attention.
Pet owners prefer McCain over Obama.
WHAT!?
Is this all it takes nowadays to reach the coveted top rung of the ladder?
Doesn’t anyone recall our days of yore when a parent’s greatest aspiration was to see his or her child strive for the presidency?
“Do all of your homework and study hard or you’ll never become President,” was the common threat.
Did any kid really dream of actually being President one day? No one in my close-knit circle of friends ever had. This begs the question, what kind of circles do you have to travel in to meet someone with such purposeful ambition? The names, Biff and Muffy come immediately to mind.
All right, that’s a grossly unfair cliché, but I just couldn’t resist.
When did being a pet owner become some kind of presidential prerequisite? I would think that being a parent might hold a bit more presidential precedence.
Are there different levels pertaining to presidential pet ownership?
Does your dog obey?
Can he do tricks, catch a Frisbee?
Maybe that’s a bit too Democratic. Let’s try something Republican.
Does he fetch your slippers, get the paper?
Is there some type of presidential pet chain of command?
Would a dog owner make a better leader than a cat lover? Dogs take more work to train and require constant companionship, while cats are more independent.
Fish don’t count!
A close friend of mine used to drop a line into his five-gallon aquarium to see if they would bite.
They didn’t. Tropical fish are above that.
He wouldn’t have made a good president.
I was once a pet owner! Do hamsters count?
I’ve gone through four in recent years. Teddy, my first guy was of the longhaired Teddy Bear variety.
I know.
The name wasn’t very original.
He used to love to eat Fruit Loops, Frosted Flakes and other high Sugar content cereals. It broke my heart when his two-year lifespan came to an abrupt end in just under six months. Raising pets is a learning process, something I’ve since mastered. As a result, Teddy’s successor’s fared just fine.
I’m also the proud parent of a five-year-old son.
I know; kids don’t count!
He doesn’t want to be president, which is a shame. Recently elected Student of the Day at school, he’s off to such a promising start. Local residents may have seen his picture hanging in Starbucks where he was Customer of the Month at the age of four.
Apparently, raising children is also a learning process.
I could never be President.
To begin with, I’m just not old enough. I also don’t own a real suit, and just barely get by tying a tie.
I’m an exceptionally fussy eater, which could prove problematic while traveling abroad.
I can’t dance.
In the past, it would usually take a good number of drinks to get me anywhere near the dreaded wood floor. I shudder to think how the media might treat this. I can see my picture splashed across the front page in my faux-suit and crooked tie, eyes bloodshot from just enough champagne flutes to get me in position for an old-fashioned high society waltz. I have no business at such formal affairs. I have no clue where the salad fork belongs in the scheme of things, or which fork is actually the salad fork to begin with. I don’t like salad anyway. I can, however eat meat AND potatoes with the same fork!
I have a record.
I don’t know how far back they go with these background checks, but my Second Grade trip to the Principal’s office would certainly not bode well.
I have lousy handwriting, and an even worse signature. I can almost hear the congressional snickering every time a bill would require my John Hancock.
Finally, relocation to the D.C. area is just not an option. Both my wife and I have decent jobs here, and are relatively content in the cramped little space we call home. She recently acquired her driver’s license and thoroughly enjoys getting behind the wheel. A demotion to passenger status in the back of a stretch limo would probably make her crazy. I tend to defer to her, as she is the primary decision maker in our house, similar to that of ex President…
Whoa!
I almost went back on my original promise right there (similar to your run of the mill politician). I’ll quit now while I’m ahead, and spare you my political views, except one. Should I accidentally indulge in a few too many champagne flutes this New Year’s Eve; resulting in the appearance of my name on some future political ballot somewhere, ignore it.
At least until I’ve been upgraded to dog owner status!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Legal I.D.'s and Hitting the Post

1.
It was "Free Hour," which simply meant just that in literal terms. I was in my second week of a budding college career trying not to drown in the far larger sea of students that I had become accustomed to in a High School so recently left behind. Choosing to begin my continuing education path at the Long Island campus of the New York Institute of Technology had been a bold choice. I had no interest in leaving the comfort and security of the home in which I had grown to go away to school, and was even less enthused in joining a fair percentage of my graduating classmates at the nearby two-year school. New York Tech, while still close to home would at the very least, mark a fresh start for me. Still feeling awkward in my new surroundings, I took a seat alone in the non-descript classroom on the lower level of a building known as Education Hall. Apparently, there had yet to be a donor with enough money in the coffer to earn the distinction of having his or her name adorn the front of the equally non-descript structure. My first impression of college life had started out on the cynical side. Having gone through the unpleasant registration process, enrolling in a number of classes I really could not have given a damn about, I spent those early days simply going through the motions. I was a Communications major, yet barely understood what that meant. My sixth grade teacher of so many years before had known exactly what it meant, having inscribed in what loosely passed for a yearbook then, that I would spend my life doing something in communication arts. Looking around the nearly filled classroom, I relegated any disparaging thoughts to the back of my mind and began to feel the first hint of excitement. I was about to take a major step, pursuing a dream that had festered within me since childhood. Undismayed by the large amount of people who had also made a decision to attend the WNYT Radio Fall 1981 Open House, I personally vowed not to get lost in the crowd, to rise above the throng of still nameless, faceless others and make my mark. Looking back now, I realize that it had not been due to a complex series of coincidentally intertwining events in my life that had brought me there, it had been destiny.
I’ve been told that my fascination with radio began at an early age, although I can’t really put a finger on when, I do remember relishing the thought of becoming a radio personality. In my High School Sophomore year, I orchestrated the set up of two separate stereo systems at a backyard party with the plan of suitably mixing between LP’s, effectively keeping a constant flow of music playing. Known as segueing in proper radio terminology as I would later learn, it eliminates the uncomfortable silence between songs also known in radio-ese as “Dead Air”. I had hoped to have a similar set-up in the bedroom I shared with my younger brother, but mom and dad were not buying it, figuratively or literally.
Sometime during my Junior High School Years, I placed a call to New York Disc Jockey; Del Demontreau during his tenure at what I believe was WNEW 1130-am. It was deep into the middle of a sleepless night for me. My brother, exhibiting no signs of insomnia slept through my first fifteen minutes of fame. Del had asked listeners to call in with a favorite joke. Having recently heard a great one from my Grandfather, I rose to the challenge, shocked when the man himself answered the phone on the first ring! Ginger, our beloved mutt and another light sleeper had taken that moment to saunter upstairs to check on the commotion I was so carefully trying not to commit. Nearing the punch line, I froze mid-sentence at the sound of the door quietly creaking open, convinced that I was about to find myself in deep trouble.
“Hold on a minute,” I whispered frantically to a patient Mr. Demontreau on the other end.
Hearing the unmistakable sound of her claws merrily making their way across the linoleum floor, I let out the breath I had been holding.
“Sorry, it’s only my dog,” I said with great relief.
I returned to the comfort of my bed following the animated conclusion of our phone conversation, and eagerly awaited my late night public debut. Seconds moved like minutes. Minutes moved like hours. My mind began to wander, when suddenly I sat bolt upright in a panic, realizing with a doomed certainty, that come morning I would indefinitely find myself in a heap of trouble. Downstairs, my parent’s had gone to bed with the radio on as they always had, tuned to the very same station I had only minutes earlier hung up with.
“Don’t mention my name, don’t mention my name,” I silently pleaded.
He did say my name. Rather than bask in the glow of my sudden fame, I listened intently for the angry sound of footsteps rapidly ascending the stairs. I could barely hear the sound of my voice coming from the radio speaker over the incessant thudding of blood pumping in my ears, perfectly synchronized to the rapid beating of my swiftly aging heart.
The moment passed without incident.
“That was pretty cool,” I thought, rolling over with a mischievous smile across my face.
During those younger years, the local radio stations of choice were 66 WNBC, and 77 WABC. Both of them were textbook hit radio based, Top 40 for those in the radio know. There was no need in making a habit of calling on-air talent to request songs. With a music library of not much more than forty tunes, it was a good bet that whatever you had wanted to hear was not far off. Add to that the fact that the line was always busy anyhow, it was not worth the time to pick up the phone in the first place. That mentality changed with the discovery of a small radio station, which came into the home not via conventional airwaves, but rather through the tiny speaker on the television set. It changed everything I had known; which was not much, about radio. I had no idea from where WNYT originated, but the fact that the DJ’s picked up the phone, were easily accessible, and willing to play requests made it an instant fave. It sounded to my untrained ears like a real radio station, and I found no fault in the fact that it was only available via Nassau County Cablevision’s What’s On Channel. I never got tired of hearing my name mentioned on the air, and the fact that the calls were considered local ones; a big concern of all parents in those days, I never tired of making requests.
A few days prior to the beginning of my educational evolution, I elected to take a drive and familiarize myself with the campus layout. The college grounds at first glance seemed to be carved right out of a deeply wooded forest, a realization I had come to as I made my way from its hub to the oddly distant buildings of the north campus. Following the directions of the posted road signs, I found myself on a picturesque winding road that would eventually terminate at Education Hall, home of WNYT radio. The call letters seemed to ring a bell somewhere in the back of my mind, but I had been so overwhelmed at the sheer size of the property that I had failed to comprehend the enormity of what was not just mere coincidence, but fate! I chose not to intrude on the person that I could see through the window, talking live on the air as I drove past. It had been exciting enough for me just being that close to something that would soon become reality.
The conversational buzz in the room, now filled well beyond its capacity, quickly quieted down once the door was closed, signaling that the meeting was about to begin. I eagerly scanned the faces at the front table, trying to match them to the voices with whom I had long been familiar.
“What? That’s the Battle of the Towns guys,” I silently reeled, referring to one of my favorite WNYT shows.
Following the brief introductory summaries of the executive board members, it was time to decide in which department to begin my radio career, programming, news, engineering, music, or air-staff. I had hoped to get on the fast track to sitting in the coveted pilot’s seat, broadcasting to the untold millions. Nearly ninety percent of the attendees that afternoon harbored the same aspirations, so I opted for the path of least resistance, introducing myself to Music Director, Eddie B, who took me on a brief tour of the station. Consisting of only three rooms, it was smaller than I had imagined, but when the on-air light was lit, and the DJ’s voice came over the house speakers, it had suddenly become larger than life.
The following afternoon, I reported for my first day of work, where I was given a more in-depth look into the inner workings of the music department. My first official task seemed akin to something a lowly private might be expected to undertake in his earliest days at Boot Camp. I would be re-cataloging the entire music library from A to Z, using a slightly more complex system than that of the Dewey Decimal System. In short, I was beginning a career in broadcasting as an unpaid stock boy. By the time I had reached the artists that began with the letter B, I had acquired an interesting skill. I now knew the exact corresponding number of every letter in the alphabet, something I would dazzle my family with on a nightly basis.
“Go ahead, any letter,” I would prompt my mom.
“S.”
“Nineteen,” I responded without hesitation. The letter S indeed being the nineteenth letter in the alphabet.
Twenty-seven years later, I still know all of that by heart.
Proving my dedication, I stayed with that grueling chore for weeks, and made a few new friends along the way. There was Ron G, who had attended the same open house meeting, declaring his allegiance to the news department, Steve H, whose love for Jazz music had earned him the nickname “Jazzman.” He went the management route and reported to the Operations Director. Eddie B, without exaggeration had become like a mentor to me, allowing me to sit in on production and recording sessions, making sure that staff members knew whom I was and urging me to observe as many air shifts as my schedule would allow. Readily heeding his advice, I spent a lot of time around General Manager, Maria Milito who allowed me to sit in the air studio during many of her broadcasts. She was bright, she was entertaining, and she was never condescending. It would be an injustice not to mention other members of the senior staff who were equally as open to helping the newcomers forge ahead in shaping the radio station's future. Sports Director, Angelo S, News Director, Tracey M, and Operations Director Bruce W all come immediately to mind. I learned a lot from behind the scenes, but the daunting site of the control board was still a little intimidating.
I remember the first day of my Radio 101 course, which was held in a group of rooms just across the hall from the radio station. Sitting in Studio A, we listened to Liz and Paula, the instructors who would be taking us through the fundamentals of basic radio production. The control board was old enough that we had to wait for the tubes inside to warm up before it was useable. I kept thinking to myself, there’s no way I’m going to be able to do this, but when my turn finally came and I sat in the big chair, cued up my first record, hit the start button, and brought up the volume all in one fluid motion, I felt both the rush of excitement and the calm of relief sweep over me.
I could do it.
I would do it.
And there was no stopping me!
2.
“Learn production,” Eddie would repeatedly prompt me. Looking around at the vast array of equipment and complicated patch bays that dominated the radio station’s production studio, my confidence level wavered. Sure, I was starting to get used to the lab equipment just across the hall, but that side is made for mistakes, I surmised. This side is the real world! I continued at my own pace, working hard enough in more mundane tasks to remain a viable member of the radio station staff. There were the unlikable trips to the campus copy room where I would collate, staple, and stuff numerous copies of the WNYT playlist, a weekly accounting of the music and artists that were part of the daily on-air rotation, followed by the multiple post office runs. Located several miles from the campus, it would often result in the search for a nearly non-existent parking spot upon my return. Probably the least favorite of my freshman tasks, I dutifully performed it week after week for the sake of the cause.
MTV was still in its infancy during those days, having recently made its debut. Music videos were still a novelty then, and WNYT’s Video Rock Night, a long-standing tradition had always served as one of the most popular events on campus. The video compilations were often donated by the very record companies who had been the recipients of the hastily mailed playlists. I remember waiting patiently to get a glimpse at the new E.L.O. video for “Hold on Tight.” The big hit of the evening however, had been a student film version of an old Flash ‘n the Pan cut called Media Man, expertly produced by a small group of WNYT staff members. I’m surprised that in this age of technology, that not one of them has had the foresight to put it up on Youtube. Maybe my opinion is skewed somewhat, but to me it was a masterpiece.
Now beginning to feel some degree of acceptance, I attended the New York Tech homecoming dance at a nearby catering hall with a number of older staff members, having been asked to join them there as part of the group, but the highlight of that first semester came on a cold November Friday night, in a parking lot behind the old Northstage Theater in Glen Cove. A Beach Boys fan since Junior High School, I boldly parked my 1970 VW bug in front of the backstage door. Funds were tight in those days, and I had not possessed enough cash to purchase a ticket to lead singer Mike Love’s performance in support of his newly released solo record, Looking Back With Love. Dressed in my black satin WNYT staff jacket, I slyly coerced an unsuspecting roadie who was probably as impressed with my self-important college radio status as I was, into letting me inside. Miraculously, when my childhood idol walked into his dressing room several minutes later to find me nervously standing there, he was both cordial and accommodating, agreeing to participate in a telephone interview the following afternoon. I had yet to figure out a way to pull off this feat, but was too excited to worry about it.
The next morning, a very groggy sounding Eddie B answered the phone and selflessly agreed to meet me at the station later. Now all I had to figure out was how to conduct a rock and roll interview. The next several hours were spent busily writing down the questions and then practicing them aloud word for word. I breathlessly arrived at the station at 2pm sharp to find Eddie with everything set to go. Going over my notes one last time, I nodded from my microphone in the adjoining room. Tape was rolling when I picked up the phone and dialed up the lead singer of the legendary Beach Boys. He was undeniably patient while I irrefutably demonstrated my inexperience.
“The best thing I like about this album is that it sounds just like the Beach Boys,” I began proudly.
It was a ridiculous statement.
How was I supposed to know that solo albums are created as an extension of something beyond what the artist is generally known for?
It would not be the last time that I would show my naïveté. Several months later, asked to conduct a phone interview with Danny Elfman of Oingo Boingo to cover the release of their second album, I reluctantly agreed.
“What’s your favorite track,” he cloyingly baited me?
“To tell you the truth, I really don’t know anything about you guys yet,” I lamely replied.
I could hear the resonant groaning from both the other end of the phone and the other end of the hall.
Charlie Midnight, a new artist on the Columbia records label unexpectedly dropped by the studio one afternoon and once again I was in the right place at completely the wrong time. He was a big, tough looking brute who came from a shady past. By this time, I was getting better at sticking to the simple questions, “What were your influences, tell me about this track, tell me about that cut.” It was following the end of one such tune when he began relaying the tale of a working girl during his days as a bouncer in a bordello. I looked at him blankly, having no idea what he was talking about.
What can I say?
It was a learning process.
Hosting skills aside, I had finally become proficient enough in the area of production to present these interviews for air on WNYT’s The Rock Rap, where they came off only semi-flawed, yet succinctly believable. I was becoming comfortable now, and while the road ahead would undoubtedly be paved with the occasional missteps and mishaps, my dedication had not gone unnoticed. Accompanying Assistant Music Director Ana C to a press conference at the midtown Manhattan offices of Elektra records provided clear proof that I was now a recognized (and to some degree), respected staff member. Sixties legend Del Shannon, in town to promote his newly released comeback LP would be meeting with members of both the mainstream and college radio communities. Unfamiliar with his contribution to the music world, I carefully studied the label-produced bio and mentally prepared a few insightful questions should the opportunity present itself. The excitement of feeling like I was actually on the inside overshadowed the whole event. An Elektra representative took us through the protocols of how the conference would be handled. Leaving the room, he gave us time to gather some thoughts, as we eagerly awaited the arrival of this 1960’s icon of which I still knew nothing about. The rest is a blur, yet the interview in its fully produced capacity still lives on cassette tape somewhere within the cluttered confines of my apartment.
Subsequent press conferences included Patrick Simmons of Doobie Brothers fame, Greg Kihn, and Lou Ann Barton; a blues singer whose debut record had been produced by ex-eagle member and soon to be solo artist in his own right, Glenn Frey. Still relatively clueless, I referred to him as Glenn Fr ‘A’ y on the final production of that aired interview.
I never took my eyes off of the big prize however, and nearing the end of the spring semester turned my thoughts towards becoming an air personality. The first step would be to record an air check (radio-ese for demo tape). Not a lot of attention was paid to classes that week as I prepared for my first step towards super-stardom. An important part of the air check was not only the vocal prowess of the individual, but production techniques as well. There was more to it than just successful segues. Learning to talk over music at the proper level sounds simple enough until you hear yourself in a pair of headphones. Getting used to the sound of your voice on tape, let alone over the air is an even more difficult task. While the radio station was not governed by the FCC due to its lack of FM frequency, we followed closely many of the FCC rules and regulations, one of the most important being the Legal I.D.; the identification of the station call letters and broadcast location at the top of every hour. There are those who sing in the shower. I’m pretty convinced that I spent several hours in mine, practicing the all-important delivery of the legal I.D.
“Rocking The Island. WNYT, Old Westbury.”
Hmmm, I would think. Let me try it more Harry Harrison, WCBS.
“Rocking The Island. WNYT, Old Westbury.”
The natural echo of the shower was great for CBS-FM style impersonations. What came out on the air check however was pure Morty, or pure Mawty before I corrected the regional New York accent. Two days later, my mailbox (another sure sign that I had now reached full acceptance) contained my returned air check reel with a note affixed that simply read, "O.K. for air."
The dream had now been realized.
It would be some time yet before I would have my own time slot. Newbie’s were generally relegated to fill in status until something became available. Nearly a week had gone by before an opportunity arose for me to do an hour on General Manager Maria Milito’s show.
My hands were shaking and my heart was racing when I sat down upon the hard cold stool in front of a microphone that seemed suddenly menacing.
Music fading, I hit the start button on my first record. The Cars; Shake it Up began to play for few seconds before I very unconfidently brought the audio level down, turned up the mic and began to speak.
“Rocking the Island, WNYT, Old Westbury,” I said shakily, sounding as if the floor beneath me was trembling violently.
The hour went faster than it should have been allowed to. By the end of my unmemorable debut, I was a bit more at ease. When a fill-in shift opened the following afternoon for an entire four hours, I skipped the first of many classes to do it. By the time summer had rolled around, I was comfortably embedded in a slot of my own, and continued to cover fill-in’s whenever possible. There was late night Saturdays spent with The Battle of the Towns crew, Al Richards, Scotty H, and “The Thing,” followed by a later night trip to the diner with my freshman counterparts Ron G and Steve “Jazzman.” When September came, we were excited to be a fully recognized part of the team, attending the Open House now as seasoned veterans. I like to believe that we treated the new freshmen with the same respect that had been afforded us. We were also becoming much more attuned to the radio industry and as a result, the three of us decided to take it a step further and attend the Intercollegiate Broadcasting Systems (IBS) convention in Washington D.C. Had it not been for Steve’s insistence that this was a great idea, I probably would never have gone. Not a seasoned traveler by any means, the idea of going to D.C. seemed preposterous, yet on a cool March morning in darkness, I climbed into my trusty VW and drove to the Farmingdale residence of the Jazzman. The drive to our nation’s capitol in Steve’s far trustier, yet only slightly roomier vehicle took roughly five hours. Camden, New Jersey; a town we knew nothing about had shone like a beacon in our quest to reach D.C., only because of the numerous signage touting the mileage in which it would be reached. We sailed past the exit, continuing south with much exaggerated fanfare. Most of the conversation revolved around radio, Steve pondering the idea that most frequencies should remain within the same format, thus if listening to a New York jazz station at 101.9, it would make sense that when coming into range of a new station at the same frequency, the music should remain unchanged. We were know it all college kids, together on the road for the first time. As D.C. loomed closer, the excitement mounted, but in the back of my mind, there also lurked a sense of foreboding. From my earliest days of childhood, I had developed a phobia for elevators. My mom claims it started from the days of a stroller, recalling an incident in a department store where the operator closed the doors and I immediately became frantic. I distinctly recall an event in later years, taking a trip into the city on a Saturday morning with my dad. Arriving in the darkened lobby of the small building, we stepped into the elevator and began to ascend. Reaching our destination, the doors refused to open. I panicked, while my dad tried to explain the car would return to the lobby where we would unlock the floor and try again. The site of the imposing steel door on the other side of the now open elevator doors once we’d arrived the second time was almost too much for me to bear. I could successfully count the times between then and the current moment in my life that I had since entered an elevator. Now, with hotel reservations at the Capitol Hilton, I prayed that we would be on a lower floor. My preoccupation with these thoughts precludes my earliest memories of seeing the historical buildings that dotted the landscape. My first impression upon crossing the border from Virginia was, wow, this place is a dump, an opinion that was completely alleviated once the capitol district came into view. The sight of the White House and the Washington Monument from the lobby entrance was inspiring. Receiving our room assignment from the reservations desk eliminated that happy thought however, as I stoically approached the bank of elevators, destination, ninth floor. I didn’t breathe when the doors closed and we were suddenly whisked upwards. Unused to the feel of that type of movement, it tickled my stomach a bit, quickly allaying my fear. Safely arriving upstairs, I had reached a personal milestone, conquering the phobia I had nursed for so long. It had been my love for college radio that had come to my aid that day. I suppose experts might negate that, calling it Peer Pressure instead.
Our days had been spent attending a number of different presentations, our nights in the hotel ballrooms where we had been treated to a number of free concerts by up and coming bands including The Accelerators, and The Philistines, neither of whom progressed much further in the industry, and REM, who did okay. We carried a tape recorder and microphone with us, trying to amass as many artist I.D.’s for the radio station as possible. Basically, it entailed stopping by the record company booths, and allowing their people to say, “Hi, I’m so and so. You’re listening to the Island Rocker, WNYT. Steve, a major David Letterman fan in those days had been on a personal mission to take the artist identification one-step further, intending to bait someone into saying the words “It’s just plain big.” I had never seen the piece that inspired this bit of whimsy, but the game dominated the entire conference.
In our free time, which was voluntarily plentiful, we toured the mall area, visiting the top of the Washington Monument, another monumental step in my elevator recovery program. Obsessed with a Beach Boys concert that had taken place on those very grounds only a year ago and having seen the resulting HBO special on several occasions, I tried in vain to place where the stage had been, probably missing some of the finer nuances of this historic piece of real estate. Upon my return home I had garnered a new obsession; watching the news, always with the hope of catching a glimpse of my now beloved Washington D.C. My love for the movie D.C. Cab, an admitted guilty pleasure, was a direct result of that trip as well.
3.
Changes were taking place both within the radio station and within the industry as well. New faces included Scott A, a heavy metal fan whose primary obsession was Rush, Lisa S, a transfer student from the nearby community college I had forsaken over a year ago, Mike M, whose devotion to new music quickly landed him in the music director’s position, Donna V, a neighborhood friend of the Jazzman made her niche in the news department, and Marianne S, the biggest Greg Kihn fan I have ever known. I, for one remained primarily a hit-radio man, my mind still not as open to the prospect of new music as it should have been. I vehemently abhorred the terms New Wave and New Music. Moving up the corporate ladder, I ascended to the position of Production Director. Steve and Ron followed as well, with Ron becoming News Director, and Steve taking the top spot as General Manger. We weren’t above going to the post office however, which at times had become rather enjoyable. P.O. box 429 was always crammed with packages, most of them being new record offerings from their respective labels. I specifically remember Steve and me returning to the station one day to pore through the latest acquisitions. We couldn’t wait to give the new Hall and Oates tune a spin, the two of us awestruck at its concluding fade. I would bet that Steve’s opinion in these later years might read a bit differently, if he remembers that moment at all. I don’t know why I do, but I simply chalk it up to the inane talent I’ve come to realize that I possess for remembering some of the most inconsequential details of my life.
The Production studio was also the scene of one of the most poignant moments in my college radio years. On May 10 1982, a large group of staffers gathered around, spilling into the hallway. Radio history was about to be made with the official sign-off of Musicradio WABC.
From Wikipedia:
…the day WABC stopped playing music, is sometimes called "The Day The Music Died". WABC ended its 22-year run as a music station with a 9 a.m.-noon farewell show hosted by longtime WABC disc jockeys Dan Ingram and Ron Lundy. The last song played on WABC before the format change was "Imagine" by John Lennon, followed by the familiar WABC "Chime Time" jingle, then a moment of silence before the debut of the new talk format.
WNYT observed the moment of silence with near reverence. Scotty H, a big fan of the Top 40 format was especially moved, nearly to the point of tears. In the coming weeks, he would institute his own Top 40 format, something that was entirely unheard of in the realm of college radio, another benefit of not being governed by the FCC. A fan of the genre myself, I signed on to do one of the new weekend shifts. Following a different programming clock, seemed an easy enough undertaking, but it wound up being surprisingly challenging. Most of the tunes were considerably shorter than the typical music the station played during the week, which meant a lot of quick thinking, and breathlessly running around the studio looking for additional songs to fill time. Scotty also had me obsessing over a well-known DJ technique called Hitting the Post, wherein the jock talks over the introduction of the song, right to the moment when the vocals kick in. It takes a good degree of finesse to get it down. I still find myself mentally doing it today whenever a new song begins playing.
4.
New York Tech played host to a small number of rural legends. I call them rural, rather than urban specifically due to locality. With no dorms or high-rise buildings on campus, there was nothing remotely urban about it. Heading north on the often lightly traveled road to Ed Hall, one couldn’t help but to notice the imposing structure of an old building nestled deep within the woods. A refuge for professor’s and staff, the French Chateau was reputed to be haunted. Offices inhabited the first two levels of the edifice. Off limits, the third floor, often darkened even during the daylight hours was reserved for apparitions only.
Another pseudo-legend, which could suitably have been downgraded to rumor claimed that it was possible to reach the buildings of the central campus from its distant northern terminus via wooded trail. A small number of ‘NYT staff members sated on wine and giddy with Spring Fever dispelled that myth one early May afternoon. Two bottles down and a third one just opened, the idea sprung out of nowhere. With a sense of bravado and foolhardiness, we set off into the deep wood Blair Witch style, long before the Blair Witch Project creative team had even come into existence. With no form of communications to keep us connected to the outside world, we could very well have succumbed to whatever evil resided in those woods. After all, we would be circumnavigating at what we hoped would be a safe distance, the rear grounds of the fabled French Chateau. No one knew where spirits disappeared to during the daylight hours. We were more concerned with the final bottle of spirits disappearing before our very eyes. Taking advantage of the false sense of daring and overall silliness, the often-reserved Jazzman turned to Scott A, his heavy metal nemesis and uttered words that I shall not long forget:
“Scott, I know it’s just the wine talking, and you’re a really great guy and all, but I have to tell you, man. I think Rush really sucks.”
The ensuing laughter carried across Long Island’s north shore acreage, from the nearby mansions to the far-off destination of the central campus, the rumor/legend downgraded to fact upon our greatly celebrated safe arrival.
My favorite tale of Tech lore comes from that of WNYT itself, the little station that could, would or did, at a time when I believe it may have been broadcast on the AM radio band, before finding a new home on Cablevision. Rumor has it that certain members of the late 70’s staff had taken it upon themselves to boost their coverage over a more widespread area, with the notion of tapping into the power of one of the campus streetlamps. The signal surged like a rapidly advancing storm front, crossing the Long Island sound to Connecticut where listeners of 660 AM WNBC were suddenly treated to a new sound, The Island Rocker, WNYT. The broadcast coup did not last long, once the authorities became involved. Punishment was swift, the station ordered to cease and desist, Their FCC license revoked. Is there any truth to all of it? I don’t know, but it was always a fun story to tell.
During my tenure there, we did come into an AM transmitter for a short period, compliments of Scotty H, who in his determination was adamant towards getting WNYT on the air and Top 40 back on the dial. We wasted no time in turning it on one Friday afternoon. Chief Engineer, Johnny C and I climbed into his red nova, driving away from the building to assess the extent of our new signal coverage, only to find disappointment before reaching civilization at the other end of campus. John, displaying his extensive engineering expertise, chose to attach a long metal wire to the unit, and string it out the window where Scotty, exercising his then unknown talent scaled the nearest tree, faux antenna clenched tightly between his teeth.
I wanted to tap into one of the fabled streetlamps.
“We’ve got some real height now,” he yelled, his body lost in the maze of leaves and limbs.
Returning to the car, we were ecstatic to find that the signal reached several miles further, well beyond the reach of the New York Tech property line. History however, chose to repeat itself in the form of a phone call from the Westbury Drive-in, one of the last theaters of its kind on Long Island. Rather than the traditional old-school speaker to hang on the inside of the car window, the theater used a small number of low wattage AM transmitters to broadcast the audio for each of their movie screens. One of the transmitters suffered the sad misfortune of broadcasting on the very same frequency that we were. Ghostbuster’s patrons lodged complaints that it was tough to hear the movie over the competing sounds of The Island Rocker.
Thwarted again.
The disappointment minimal at most did not last long.
FM TOP 40 HITS NEW YORK. The message scrawled proudly across the hallway blackboard in Scotty’s unmistakable handwriting referred to the long-awaited debut of Z-100 (WHTZ). With the birth of Scott Shannon’s Z-Morning Zoo, WNYT responded with the Steve and Scotty Show, a short-lived college version of a top 40-morning show. Many of us had become instant Z-100 fans. Proudly showing our approval, we submitted a sixty-second commercial for a contest touting the Zoo’s favorite alcoholic refreshment, Hiney wine. In horrific karaoke fashion, we butchered The Beatles Twist and Shout, Jazzman providing a blistering lead vocal, backed up by the inept yet somewhat in tune, Morty, Johnny C, and News Director Donna V. I don’t remember who won the contest, what the prize entailed, but the afternoon spent putting that small piece together served as another magical production studio moment.
Following the demise of the Steve and Scotty show, due mostly to the ailment known as graduation, Johnny C and I, with Steve’s blessing, took the reins and began doing The Morty/Johnny C. show. By this time, the radio station had also signed on with Suffolk County cable, now reaching an astounding quarter million homes, a figure essentially unattainable for any college station airing in the traditional FM style. To further promote not just our own show, but the radio station as a whole, John and I began an innovative campaign we called the High School Salute, wherein we would devote an entire show to a participating school based on mail-in requests. It had been an amazing success, and at the small number of institutions where we had actually made an appearance, we were treated like royalty. My radio dreams had far exceeded any expectations. Catering to my inflating ego a bit, I placed a call for the second time in my life to real radio station, introducing myself to Scott Shannon as Morty of the world renowned (in my own mind) Morty/Johnny C. Show. Lightning struck again, when my call was aired, heard this time by a considerably greater amount of listeners. John and I also paid a visit to Howard Stern one afternoon at a local WNBC-AM remote broadcast. Inspired, the two of us were always in search of new ways to keep the show fresh. We took our show to the great outdoors one Wednesday night, setting up just outside the air studio where we placed a harried phone call to the office of Public Safety; the campus security team.
“I don’t want to raise any alarms here,” John frantically whispered, but I just saw a couple of guys taking equipment out of the radio station.”
We started the stopwatch precisely at the call’s conclusion, clocking the response time. Had that been an actual emergency, my story would have ended there. Thieves would have had ample time to take the furniture and blackboard as well.
Discipline charges were never filed.
A return to Washington D.C with over thirty WNYT staff members had been a big highlight in 1984. During the week of the IBS convention, one was hard pressed not to run into someone wearing a WNYT satin jacket. John and I submitted a one-hour pre-recorded show for the newly formed WIBS radio, a closed circuit broadcast that would be running twenty-four hours a day via the hotel’s information channel. Bringing further attention to both the station and the show, the two of us incurred the expense of having several T-shirts made up, highlighting the WNYT call letters on the front. The back of each shirt read either, I’m Not Morty, or I’m not Johnny C. I often wonder if I may have missed a calling in the field of promotions. I felt then as I still do today that we should have won an award from the Inter-Collegiate Broadcasting Systems committee. I put to use my creative flair, coming up with a dramatic scenario and utilizing the talents of additional air staff members. John and I are detained at the D.C. airport by FCC agents for executing a certain number of on-air indiscretions. Through the use of flashbacks via cheesy sound effects records, we presented what was essentially a greatest hits compilation of some of the greatest bits we had produced. Sadly, any recordings or tapes of that one hour of fame have long since disappeared. I’ve expended a lot of energy over the last several decades trying to recoup pieces of my past in the form of books and music, but nothing tops my list more than finding a copy of this long lost nugget.
I never lost touch with my radio roots during that time. I spent a good deal of time training new staff members in production basics to help get them started on their chosen path in the field, while simultaneously producing a weekly on-air interview show similar to the long defunct Rock Rap. Out on the Streets centered on the music of local artists, most of who were overjoyed at the fact that someone other than fans and family members would be privy to their music. I had pretty well mastered the art of the interview by this time and had the distinct pleasure of interviewing the short-lived keyboard player of the Marshall Tucker Band, another of my all-time favorites.
I put to use my still emerging talent in the field of promotions coordinating a WNYT night in the New York Tech pub featuring Vōg, an incredible group of local musicians who had achieved some success in the European market and were hoping to accomplish the same on home soil. Standing in traffic atop campus speed bumps, we handed out flyers, mostly to drivers whose cars had already received them by way of our aggressive parking lot campaign. The night had proved a resounding success, the like of which had not been seen since the early days of the station’s video rock events, also long defunct.
5.
The end was nearing, and not due to graduation. Somewhere along the way, Cablevision of Nassau had pulled the plug on the radio station choosing to go the canned music route in lieu of a bunch of unseasoned college kids. Shortly thereafter, Suffolk County followed suit, offering us a new home on their newly instituted Cable FM frequency. I didn’t know the first thing about Cable FM, nor did any of their subscribers. Off the air and we don’t care, had become our new slogan, uttered primarily by only John and myself. The first show we did on our new frequency failed miserably. The phone, which had always rung consistently without a moment’s respite remained silent. The rest of the station had been affected as well, the overall pulse, excitement and morale now nearly non-existent. I half-heartedly ran for Program Director, my first shot at moving up to the Executive Board. I lost that promotion to a relative newcomer and was bitter at their decision, a decision that in hindsight made perfect sense. My mind, still not fully opened to accepting new music had made me a lousy candidate. The IBS convention that year was held in New York City, another downer. John and I, in an effort to relive the glory days had come up with a scandalous plan to launch an alternate radio station. WBRU, The Brew, would air on 640 AM by way of the old transmitter, which had lain in a storage closet since its brief heyday. The plan was to use the bathroom showerhead as an antenna, where the metal of the interconnected hotel plumbing would easily disperse the signal throughout the building. We would plaster, walls, doors, and bathroom stalls with flyer’s announcing the existence of the pirate radio station, unveiling our identities only at the end of the long weekend. We created taped shows, which would allow us the opportunity to partake in conference events. We worked towards that common goal with the fire and fervor of the old days.
It was a masterful plan.
It didn’t work.
Maybe plumbing was not a great conductor after all.
Symbolically, the end of WBRU, spelled the end of my radio career and aspirations. I have no recollections of those last days spent at WNYT. I dropped out of New York Tech, taking a full time Audio Visual position at Hofstra University; my first real job in the real world.
Three years later, John and I had the opportunity to work together again, this time at real radio station, where he was comfortably entrenched in the position of Chief-Engineer. My time spent there, as morning-show producer to WDRE’s Larry the Duck is a tale for another time.
WNYT continues to broadcast today, in a far greater capacity via the Internet. The potential of homes that the station is reaching worldwide is staggering. In 2005, I had the great pleasure of attending an ‘NYT reunion, spending an hour on the air with John, whom I had loosely kept in touch with over the years and old pal Ron G, whom I literally had not seen in decades. Our chance meeting in the parking lot before going inside was heartwarming. We vowed to remain in contact, and have kept that promise. Shortly following that far too brief afternoon, Ron had e-mailed me, commenting on how much smaller the place had seemed. It had been the first thing I noticed when we walked in the door. Jokingly, I had written back saying, maybe it’s because we were all a little smaller back then.
Several hours later, I wrote him back again.
Maybe it’s because back then, it was all larger than life.

Morty,
October 9, 2008

Saturday, September 06, 2008

"Please Make It Two Weeks From Now"

1.
"Please make it two weeks from now."
I used to summon that up like some type of chant when I was younger. Looking up to the heavens, I would silently plead with whoever might be looking back down to take me away from this terrible moment, transport me no less than two weeks into the future where everything would be alright again. Terrible moments at that age came with far less consequences. It would take much longer than that to get over the events of 9/11. For those of us lucky enough to survive that catastrophic day, it will literally take a lifetime.
I'm not a survivor, at least not in the truest sense of the word. My story would not have made the headlines or the television news. I worked in Manhattan that day as I do everyday in an office some fifty to sixty blocks north of where the unthinkable had taken place.
"It was a beautiful September morn," Reception Mary, a retiring Mary Poppins like character began, telling her story to the camera for a video that I would wind up editing months later. Mary's simple words faultlessly described the beginning of what should have been nothing more than a perfectly normal late summer workday.
Seven years have elapsed since that day. It had taken me five of those years to launch this site, to return to the joy of writing, a passion dating back to my childhood. Return to Innocence; my first entry here, celebrated a simpler age, a tale of teenage love and a first kiss. I've often pined for the simplicity of those days. Now I would settle for just a return to complacency, a time where as a society we often viewed the tragic horrors of events in faraway lands with a detached interest before returning to our otherwise carefree lives. There is not an evening that goes past when descending into New York City's Penn Station for the short commute home I idly wonder, is tonight the night? We are supposed to go on with our lives, enjoy the freedom that living here has to offer, never let the terrorists take that away, but one cannot help but to wonder, what next.
When?
The Psyche of America changed on that dark day. The horrors of overseas had inexplicably transcended the great distance, right to our own doorstep.
Courage, bravado, denial.
It can't happen here.
It did!
And it changed us forever.
Six days later, I returned to work, far more cognizant of my immediate surroundings, paying particular attention to the location of emergency exits within the tunnel my bus drove through every morning, as it passed underneath the East River from Queens to Manhattan. New York City seemed strange to me on September 17th. It was quieter. The incessant honking of horns, now absent, the rushing click clack of shoes on the pavement, now in no apparent hurry, the typical buzz of Monday morning, post-weekend conversations seemed muted, careful, somber. The pulse of the greatest city in the world had changed, slowed. People nodded to one another in silent understanding, grimly offering a mutual hello as if this was something that should always have been a part of the everyday. It was the beginning of a new workweek, a new era. Only six days had passed, less than a week, yet now a lifetime ago.
On September 13th, my wife; a fifth grade school teacher returned to work. I insisted on driving her the few short miles, adamant that she stay away from any form of public transportation. Smoke continued to rise from Ground Zero, traveling Northeast over the nearby boroughs, drifting past the movie theater where only three days earlier while returning to the car we paused to admire the sun’s descent as it silhouetted the Manhattan skyline.
"Look, you can see the World Trade Center from here," I had said offhandedly.
Only three days.
Now, a lifetime.
Neither spoke as we crested a rise in the highway not far from that same multiplex, 1010 WINS, the all-news station playing on the radio. We rarely listened to AM radio. Now the need for information, answers, something to make sense of the madness far outweighed that of any need for music or entertainment.
I turned around and headed for home after safely depositing my wife, unable to imagine what her day might hold in store, having to deal with students who were even more confused than we were. It was another perfect September day, the type of day that I would normally have spent outdoors lazily reading for a couple of hours. That thought had never entered my mind. Something as simple as reading seemed selfish. Manhattan was still a scene of chaos, and I was too fearful of even considering a trip there. Buses, subways, bridges, tunnels, all things we had taken for granted now seemed to be a threat. I turned on the television and watched the unending news coverage, knowing that I was not the only one who felt cowardice. Staten Island; a borough of New York City was in a temporary lock down, all bridges closed as authorities moved on leads to terrorists that may still be in the area. It was mayhem. Scared and confused, alone in our bedroom, I turned on the computer, sat down and began to compose an e-mail. I had no idea at that moment to whom I was writing it, but the idea had seemed right at the time. Let me get this down in writing, the horror, the memory, all of it while it was fresh in my mind. Let me tell my story, everyone's story, the story I’d come to think of as that of the average New Yorker. It wasn't egocentric, it was therapeutic. In doing so, I was returning to the safety of something I had once been so passionate about and had neglected for so long. I was returning to a place of comfort, somewhere deep within my roots. I began to write. What follows is a recounting of the darkest day in our lives as seen through the eyes of someone watching it unfold on television, while the unimaginable was unfolding not around the world or across the country, but close enough to have been across the street.
2.
My earliest recollections of the World Trade Center date back to grade school, and a drive into Manhattan. In the distance lay the twin towers, under construction, defiantly rising high above its downtown counterparts. Several years later, 1976; I distinctly remember the return of King Kong to the Big Apple in the Dino De Laurentis remake, the movie posters showing the giant ape straddling the two towers, a scene that I was disappointed to find out never actually materialized in the film. 1987 marked the year that I had finally gotten around to visiting the site. Living on nearby Long Island, the New York City skyline was all too easy for me to take for granted. As a seasoned commuter in 2001, I rarely lifted my head from whatever book I was reading as our bus approached Manhattan morning after morning. September 11th proved no differently, starting out as just another non-descript workday in a career I had begun nearly ten years earlier. Robert Doherty’s Area 51 had been entertaining enough that I hadn’t realized we were nearing our destination until the interior lights of the Midtown Tunnel were racing past my window creating a strobe-like effect. I had become so used to it, that like the majestic Manhattan skyline it was wholly unnoticeable. It’s ironic now looking back, that on that very morning I was in a sense returning to innocence, having just re-connected with a long lost acquaintance I had met over twenty-five years earlier. I was thrilled to have found her name on the classmates.com database the day before, and ecstatic at discovering her response in my inbox just twenty-four hours later. I had wasted no time in vigorously typing a long-winded e-mail, trying in vain to catch up on over a quarter of a century. The summer weather continued to hold strong and I showed no remorse whatsoever in temporarily shirking the day’s responsibilities, making my personal endeavors the top priority. An intercom message from an upstairs co-worker quickly ended my jubilant mood.
“Did you guys hear anything about a plane crashing into the World Trade Center,” she asked.
“What,” I answered, my curiosity instantly aroused?
“Yeah, supposedly a plane hit the towers. Maybe two planes. Is the TV on?”
“I don’t think so.”
“Check it out and call me back.”
I hastily completed my e-mail and moved to the front room.
“Phyllis just called and said something about a plane crashing into the trade center,” I informed another co-worker, hurriedly moving across the room to turn on the television.
Our building, not wired for cable or satellite forced us to watch TV the old-fashioned way. The little reception we could get was with a vintage pair of “rabbit ears.” My initial thought like that of everyone else hearing the report for the first time was that it must have been a small propeller craft. My curiosity quickly turned to uneasiness when NBC; a network we usually received a decent signal from showed nothing but snow. I switched up to ABC with the same result before advancing the channel selector further to check in on two of the local stations, neither of which was broadcasting.
What the hell, my mind now raced?
Descending down towards the lower channels, I was finally able to get a picture on CBS. We were stunned into silence looking at the image of the gaping holes in both buildings, the angry black smoke rising above. I had barely registered the message I’d received just a few seconds earlier about the possibility of two planes, until the station replayed the recent footage of the second aircraft careening into the tower. I could feel my heart pounding, trying to catch up with the number of beats it had missed in the short instant that it had stopped beating! People began filing into the office, to get a look at what was happening, nameless faces from other offices on the floor. The news anchors were now talking of terrorism. It was a word, which up until that morning didn’t hold much weight here. The station continually cut back to another view, a long distance angle taken from somewhere further uptown, the Empire State Building prominently displayed in the foreground.
Please, I thought, don’t let me see a plane hit that as well.
When the news broke shortly after 9:30 of the crash at the Pentagon, I could feel the beginnings of a slow panic rising in me.
THE PENTAGON!
How was that possible?
I was scared, but rational. Looking around at the others, their eyes still glued on the television, I quietly exited and headed downstairs to the ATM. I couldn’t fathom what I may need money for, but at that very moment it seemed the most logical thing to do. I returned to the office telling the others they would be wise to do the same, my idea dismissed with both indifference and a slight amount of ridicule. We watched in disbelief when the south tower crumbled to the ground just a few minutes later, barely able to comprehend the magnitude of what was impossibly becoming worse. I looked out our second story window at the street below, listening. It had taken nearly a minute for the dull rumble of the downtown collapse to reach our twenty-seventh street location. The erratic state with which the broadcasters were both receiving and airing information had only added to the pandemonium following the collapse of the north tower and the crash of Flight 93 in Pennsylvania. An innumerable amount of planes remained airborne and unaccounted for. Getting out of the city was not an option at this point, but I could no longer sit idle. Finally acting on my earlier advice, several people went downstairs to the bank, now forced to wait on impossibly long lines. Instinctively I took a video camera and headed out to the street where there was now an endless migration of people heading north on foot. I briefly caught sight of a girl I had done some editing for only a week earlier, creating a photo and video montage for the upcoming wedding of her sister.
The world had been so normal then.
Our eyes met for only a second. Fear could barely describe what we were feeling. The look on her face was something I would never forget. Turning in the opposite direction towards the wall of thick grey and black smoke, I had a hard time remembering whether I had ever been able to see the Twin Towers from that particular vantage point. With the bridges and tunnels now reopened to outgoing traffic only, I apprehensively made the decision to get out. The city was obviously an unsafe place to be, but the thought of me herding on to a crowded underground subway was paralyzing.
What wasn’t a target, I worried?
I joined the dour parade and began walking uptown, still unsure of what route I would take to reach what I'd hoped would be the safety of the outer boroughs. The 59th Street Bridge while not the most direct route, would at least keep my head above water. If I continued along my present trajectory, I would pass by Grand Central Station, a major commuter hub and possible target. Veering to the west would take me through Times Square, to the east, the United Nations. Which path would prove to be the safest? Was anywhere safe?
Three fighter jets roared past, abruptly shattering the eerie silence of the grim exodus. I quickly turned watching them disappear beyond the grey clouds of destruction behind us, realizing now, that this wasn’t happening on television or a movie screen. This was the real thing!
“Free rides through the Midtown tunnel,” a civilian yelled from a nearby street corner, quoting the handwritten text from the sign displayed in front of him. Opting for the fastest way home, I hesitantly turned east, heading towards the very same tunnel I had indifferently passed through not more than six hours earlier. Traffic police stopped cars with empty seats at the tunnel entrance, instructing drivers to take passengers through. I climbed into the back of an SUV with three others. No one spoke much, each of us nervously waiting for that first glimpse of the literal light at the end of the tunnel. Reaching the other side safely, we went our separate ways. I could hear the sound of my footsteps as I crossed what would normally have been a traffic-congested roadway at that time. Towering above me stood an immense video screen. Generally, it would show ads or commercials to a captive commuting audience. That afternoon it displayed a single word.
Peace.
I was still wary of taking any form of public transportation, but it was only a few steps to the Long Island Railroad. Thankfully, it would remain above ground for the short ride to my hometown. A near empty train awaited on the equally vacant platform, the diesel engine at the front purring quietly.
“Making all stops,” the conductor resignedly said, waving me inside.
I sat alone, away from the scant few, staring out the window, nervously contemplating the safety factor as the car slowly filled around me. Commuting is not for the weak of heart or claustrophobic, something I had never been concerned about, yet as the coach was quickly nearing standing room only capacity, my unease began to grow. The arrival of two men, whom I had assumed were contractors or construction workers, broke the bleak silence pervading the crowded car. Squeezing into the middle of the aisle, they reached inside a plastic bag loaded with cold beers and popped open the first of what was obviously just the beginning.
“Here’s to revenge,” they toasted.
Anger, I considered. The range of emotions I had seen displayed on the multitude of faces that day had yet to include anger.
It added to my growing uneasiness.
The closing doors sealed my fate.
“Local stops, this train is making all local stops,” the conductor’s voice emanated from the loudspeakers.
Please don’t let those be the last words I ever hear, I silently pleaded, my heart pounding.
With every minute, every passing mile, I could feel my apprehension beginning to ease a bit. Finally stepping off the train a few minutes later, I followed the lead of the two construction types, and started for a nearby drinking establishment before heading home to my wife. The crowded, noisy room provided a brief respite from the long day of stunned quiet, though the multiple televisions often reserved for sporting events, displayed the smoldering wreckage in the city I had left behind, a sad reminder that any hint of normalcy ended there. I ordered the largest beer I could, and moved away from the bar, making room for the next lucky individual to have survived the day.
“My dentist was in the World Trade Center,” an older woman standing next to me lamented. “They were on the concourse level,” she continued. “Downstairs, where all the shops were? I hope they got out okay. They have an answering machine. If they could just leave a message so we knew…”
I was incredulous at first, before realizing it was either her state of mind, or the alcohol talking. I didn’t have the heart to tell her there was no answering machine.
There was nothing.
A second beer and a shot of Jack Daniels later, I turned on my walkman to catch any news updates and began the mile long trek towards home. Within mere minutes of leaving the bar, other news began to filter in. There were reports of bombing in the Middle East. My heart froze. I had lost count of how many times it had stopped beating that day.
Retaliation already?
Can we do this?
I ducked into a small bar, now only a few blocks from home, to see what was unfolding. The local crowd inside was riled up, making it nearly impossible to hear the television coverage.
”Take that,” one reveler screamed!
The bartender, a quiet Irish girl who always smiled, had tears streaming down her face. I couldn’t think of anything to say that might comfort her, and felt a pang of guilt walking out to leave her with these people, but my wife was home waiting. My phone call from a pay phone more than hour earlier had come as a big relief to her, knowing that I had made it safely out of Manhattan. She would be well past the state of worry if I didn’t materialize at our front door soon. It was the second time I had experienced anger that day, her wrath towards me well deserved. We spent several hours afterwards watching the unending news coverage, awaiting word from the president. Exhausted, with little hope of falling asleep at anytime soon, we retired to the bedroom, turning off the lights and the relentelss assault of the ongoing television coverage, silently worrying what kind of world we would be waking up to come morning.
3.
American psyche changed on that dark day. Similar to my initial reaction with the ATM, I had insisted that we maintain a full tank of gas in the car at all times. The following day we drove out to a Long Island beach. I still had the video camera and wanted footage of the battleships approaching New York Harbor to safeguard the city from any further acts of violence. Walking across the dunes, I could hear the seagulls and smell the ocean, a peaceful moment interrupted seconds later by the imposing sight of the charcoal colored smoke still rising several miles to the west. Later that evening, in the backyard I had grown up in as a child we sat at a table with relatives and friends, sharing our collective experiences. The silent sky, devoid of air traffic in what was an often heavily used flight path on the approach to New York’s Kennedy International Airport added an eerie element to the forced conversation. By Saturday, the 16th, planes were flying again in a limited capacity. Now, sitting outside our Queens apartment, I tried in vain to return to the world of Robert Doherty’s Area 51, my concentration continually broken by the sound of low flying aircraft on the approach to nearby LaGuardia Airport, a sound I had become mostly oblivious to that now held an air of menace. A month later, in October, on a brief overnight trip to the Jersey Shore, I held my breath driving over the Verrazano Bridge, a two-mile span connecting Brooklyn and Staten Island.
Here we are, Seven years later, on the eve of another dismal anniversary.
I still wonder, when?
It’s a different world now.
We had harbored some serious doubts before bringing a child into a world where the value of human life meant so little. He'll have his moments of reckoning, his days of consequences, be them great or small. I can only hope that he’ll never have to look up to the sky and plead with whoever might be looking down,
“Please make it two weeks from now. "

Monday, September 01, 2008

Boom! It was over

I miss the days when life used to move in slow motion. In a desperate effort to make the most out of what was unbelievably the last day of summer, my son and I got an earlier start than usual in getting out of the house. Walking alongside, watching him pedal a bike he is quickly outgrowing, we spent our leisurely journey happily rehashing some of the finer moments of a summer season that has gone by entirely too quickly. His rapid-fire reminiscing fades a bit, while I temporarily, albeit involuntarily, tune him out and forlornly take notice of the faded remnants of a Yard Sale announcement stubbornly stuck to a lamppost, fighting to stem the tide of the inevitable in much the same way that we are doing. I can't say that I still relish the arrival of summer in much the same way I had when I was younger, but I do hate to see it reach its conclusion in much the same way I'm sure kid's do when they're facing that long dreaded first day of school. At what point did life begin passing in a blur, lending some credence to the old saying, flash before my eyes? I still recall a long ago conversation with a co-worker during my tenure at Hofstra University. I had idly commented on how quickly the summer seemed to have passed. She forewarned me that as you get older, time moves at a far more rapid pace. I offhandedly dismissed that, thinking to myself, no way! These are the best years of my life right now. This will last forever. It doesn't.
I have this habit now of attaching a theme to each summer, in an effort to keep them all straight in my mind. Last year, for instance was The Summer of Potter. J.K Rowling's final chapter of the beloved Harry Potter series was certainly the media event of the season, if not the year. You could not walk anywhere through everyday life without seeing someone reading The Deathly Hallows. 2008 will always be remembered as the Summer of Dorsey, though I didn't see anyone else with his or her head buried in a Dorsey book. Tim Dorsey is an author who makes his living in the genre of Florida fiction. With the exception of Laurence Shames, another author of the same ilk, I usually don't follow this type of work. The outlandishly over the top characters and situations can get tiresome. Shames, at least keeps this in check somewhat. The appealing thing about the Dorsey novels is his penchant for Florida history, which he seamlessly weaves into every storyline. I've always dreamed of escaping to Key West, and living the Parrothead lifestyle. I generally prefer to take my literary Florida excursions during the winter months, but as I was desperately in search of a theme to catalog the Summer of 'o8 for future reference, July seemed as good a time as any. Here we are in September, five Dorsey's later and in great need of a break. With the unofficial end of summer, comes my unofficial end of Dorsey, at least until the New Year.
Cabin Fever is an ailment that usually strikes my wife and me shortly into the onset of winter. Entertaining a five year old who will quickly be bored with his recent cache of new Christmas gifts is no easy task. With the prospect of little snowfall in our area, he starts longing for the warmer weather shortly after the holidays. The weather has yet to show a hint of changing yet and he’s already asking me when we will make our next pilgrimage to Pennsylvania. This year, by unanimous decision, we returned to the land of the Amish. He fondly remembers last year's ride in a horse and buggy and the exciting journey aboard a genuine steam train, yet he talks mostly about swimming in the motel pool and playing in the playground in his pajamas.
I guess it really is the little things.
This time around I had wanted to try something different, with the hope of making a memory for him that would last forever. Rather than a motel, we had chosen to stay in a log cabin on the property of the Mill Bridge Camping Resort. A built in pool, playground, canoeing, and the opportunity to sit outside by a campfire seemed a great way to take his Pennsylvania mindset to another level. It was sleeping in a loft that he will remember most about his return trip to the Pennsylvania farmland. My wife is not really into the whole great outdoors thing. Bugs and the lingering smell of charred wood on both clothing and person kept her from joining the two of us around the fire, where we stayed one night until well past his bedtime. I never would have thought it possible to actively converse with such a young mind for such an extended period. Two days later as we were pulling out, I watched his pensive face in the rear view mirror, feeling a bit of his sadness at the prospect of returning home, while wondering at the same time whether my dad and I may have shared a similar bonding experience when I was that age. Should my little guy ever take the time stop by here and read about his dad one day, I hope that he will remember that night with as much warmth and fondness as I do. I always worry about his teen years, and how that will inevitably affect the bond we share now. He started Kindergarten this morning. His infant and toddler years have gone by in the same blur that this summer has. Long before he had come into our lives, my wife and I just beginning a relationship that would span a lifetime, country music radio was alive and well in New York. Summer seemed to last just a little longer back then, though I no longer harbored the illusion that this will last forever. It was during that time when country artist Robert Ellis Orrall had scored a minor hit, that as cliche' as it may sound, sums up this long winded (yes, another one) entry perfectly.

Like stepping off the corner on a busy street,
Like a pretty girl can knock you off your feet,
Like a change in the weather, or the drop of a hat,
BOOM! It was over, just like that.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

I Hate the U.S. Open

Tennis enthusiasts, don't take offense, I'm not a tennis fan. I know very little about the game over all. I know that points are scored as Love. Had I known it was that easy, I would have picked up Tennis years ago. What a boost to my delicate teen ego it would have been, even if I had scored just a little love! I wrote a story about Tennis once, wa-a-y-y back when I was in the tenth grade. The title was "Lost Love." I'll spare you the gory details. Saying that I hate the U.S. Open is like saying that I hate the Good Year blimp, or any corporate sponsored dirigible for that matter. Blimp's play a large part in my life. It may seem minuscule, but to me a blimp represents a goal, not in the sports sense however, but in the life sense.
It was a summer's day in 1974 when Lisa and I had met. In truth, we had actually met several years earlier at a far younger age. Our mom's had attended High School together, managing to do what a significant amount of the general public could not...Keep in touch. Lisa's family resided roughly thirty miles east of the small hamlet I called home on a street whose name I shall never forget; Bread and Cheese Hollow Road. Imagine trying to fit all of that on the front of a small white envelope. Her address was longer than the subject matter of the letters I would stuff inside those envelopes. Had there always been some undercurrent of romance dating back to our youngest years, I wondered? It was at a church picnic where we had wasted no time getting reacquainted. Young and temporarily in love, we were glued to the waist, walking proudly through the park, our arms around each other so tightly that I can still feel the bruised ribs today. We held hands, we rode the carousel, and reveled in that special type of magic reserved only for the innocence of youth. The only other memory my addled brain, with its talent of remembering some of the most inane details had retained, was her account of a family trip to Florida and a flight in a blimp. I was jealous. We had never ventured to such far off and exotic places. I had yet to travel by air, on either a plane or a zeppelin! That special day reaching its inevitable end, we were separated once again, relegated to future communication via the postal service or the occasional phone call. Ultimately, we failed to accomplish what our parents had for so many years and eventually lost touch. She did remain in my thoughts, having often played the role of the heroine in one or two of the short stories I had crafted in my Junior High and High School years. She was not the love interest in the aforementioned tennis tale, however. That leading role was played by a girl I had met camping some years later. I'll ruin the ending by telling you that she dies in that story.
By 1985, my writing in conjunction with my brief stab at higher education had long been abandoned. I was in a great mood one warm July afternoon, cruising through life in a dead end job with no future, no game plan, and no clue. It was a happy time, similar to what a Prozac moment might feel like. Stepping out for lunch, I looked to sky above where I could hear the unmistakable droning of a large propeller driven craft. I always love the site of a blimp lazily lumbering along. The unwanted memory crashed in with the angry force of rushing water.
"I'll never do that," I thought sullenly, recalling Lisa's age-old tale of flight. "I'll never get to Florida either. What the hell am I doing? What am I going to do with my life?!"
There was nothing surreal about it. That in-body experience was a crystal clear moment of clarity, a shocking wake-up call that depressingly set the tone for the remainder of the day. Eventually I found the power within to return to my fairy tale world, though its landscape had changed somewhat. I unconvincingly told myself that life would get better one day.
It did.
Florida happened for me two years later, the curse that I had brought upon myself finally lifted. It was in the early spring of the new millennium that the unimaginable happened. Called upon by the powers that be, in a job I had turned into a career, I was asked to attend a technology trade show in Sin City. I got on the web to do a little recreational research and found myself staring at the screen in total disbelief. I shut my eyes tightly for a second, and then opened them again. It was still there. Looking around the office to make sure no one was watching me; I thrust my fist in the air and silently praised Al Gore, the Lord of the Internet! Vegas.com on the launch of their new website was offering passenger's the once in a lifetime thrill to hop aboard their newly christened aerial billboard; the blimp. I had felt only the slightest degree of guilt, opting not to attend the tradeshow on the afternoon I had planned the flight. My timing could not have been any better as there were no other passengers scheduled. Due to contractual obligations, the vessel was required to be airborne regardless. My paltry fee for flight was an added bonus. It’s not a white-knuckle experience and can barely be compared to any type of extreme sport. It’s pretty similar to driving in a car on a newly paved road. The side windows are open and you can hang your arm out as you would on the highway. Holding tightly to the attached ropes, a small group of people gently maneuvers the blimp, pointing it in the proper direction for takeoff. Once clear, the propellers roar and almost instantaneously the view of the horizon changes radically as we begin our steep ascent. It was an unexpectedly painful experience for me when without warning, a heavy piece of equipment fell forward, scraping and bruising my right shin. Apologizing profusely and inwardly hoping we wouldn’t be seeing me in court anytime soon, he hastily shoved the unit back into position while I rubbed my battered bone and wondered how quickly or at what rate of speed we would be returning to earth. Apparently, the oversized electronics did not play an integral part in the function of flight. Now in the vaunted pilot’s chair, he instructed me in the basics of operating the craft.
It was the least he could do.
Two wheels positioned on each side of the chair are used for flight control. Spin them forward and the vessel descends, backward and it points skyward. The top rate of achievable speed was no more than 45 M.P.H. Now back in our proper seats he demonstrated this by bringing the engines up to full and aiming us at the ground, which was in no rush to come up and meet us. Heading upwards again, the speed never changed. I wondered what the people below were thinking as they watched our erratic flight pattern. I had gotten well more than my money’s worth. With no passengers waiting at the airstrip for what would have been the next scheduled departure, we stayed in the air for well over an hour, veering from the normal flight path so I could see my hotel from above. The view of the famous Vegas strip from that vantage point could only have been more magical had I taken the opportunity to see it at night. A fleeting thought of Lisa must have entered my mind at one point that afternoon. While I hadn’t thought about her in years, she was inadvertently responsible for my being there and making it a priority to achieve a goal that I had long come to consider as insurmountable.
There are a lot of blimp sightings when the Open is in town.
Why do I hate the U.S. Open?
It simply signifies the end of summer.

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Sunday, July 27, 2008

Blogging: Small Fish in the World's Largest Pond

WOW!
There's hope for us small town blogger's after all.
Recently I had the great pleasure of reading a feature article in Long Island's Newsday relating the tale of a local blogger. longislanddailyphoto.blogspot.com opens a small window allowing the rest of the world to come inside and experience a piece of everyday life, one photo at a time, as seen through the eyes of an average long islander. She was inspired by a similar blog highlighting the sights of Paris in much the same way. I've always maintained that the simplest ideas are most often the best ones, and applaud all of the daily photo blogger's for allowing us a brief moment to step into their shoes and take a brief look around. As I tend to be a little long winded at times, this type of daily blogging would never work for me, so I've decided to treat this particular entry more like a book report; something I haven't done since the days of my youth. Feel free to comment or simply grade me from "A" through "F." Hopefully no one has screwed up the Bell Curve.
My Neighborhood, by Morty.
Yes, the above link would be considered blatant plagiarism, so consider it footnoted. In an effort to stem my longwindedness, I figured I would send you there first. Now, on to business.
I was born and bred roughly eight miles east Forest Hills in nearby Nassau County on Long Island proper. The borough of Queens, while physically a part of Long Island is considered more often than not, by its residents as part of New York City. My earliest impressions of Queens echoed that of the locals. It's a far cry from the more relaxed, spread out, greener pastures (in the literal sense) of Long Island. A major percentage of the Five Boro's consists of pavement, high rise apartment buildings, major thoroughfares, gridlock, noise, parking meters, and a lack of parking spaces. Add to that, Alternate Side of the Street Parking. Twice a week on alternating days, drivers are forced to find suitable parking elsewhere as one side of the street is off limits to make room for the street sweeping trucks. My non-expert opinion as a casual, often frustrated bystander is that these trucks do nothing more than throw up dust while moving the dirt around.
My son gets a kick out of them though.
I had a rather large number of stipulations when it came to moving from the peace and quiet of the suburbs, a realtor's real nightmare. I wanted an apartment in a private house as opposed to high rise, and did not want to live on any street named with a number.
That's a tall order!
During the late summer of 1993, My significant other found said apartment without the help of anyone in the Real Estate industry. The only thing I'd known of Forest Hills was that it was one of the more sought after areas in this borough to lay down some roots, be them temporary or permanent. There's also a certain stigma attached to it that raises some eyebrows. Whenever I'm working with clients and the availability for small talk arises, the second I mention Forest Hills, their immediate reaction is,
"Wow, you must be doing really well."
"No, no," I correct them. "I walk through that neighborhood to get to mine."
The Gardens is one of the premiere exclusive neighborhoods in the borough of Queens. Its cobblestone streets and Tudor style homes give it a real European flair, at least the way I picture Europe based on what I've seen in say, James Bond and Pink Panther movies. I love to meander through the quiet tree lined streets, where parking is abundant and the noise of typical general traffic mayhem is considerably muted. There are actually plenty of buses, subways, and commuter rails that pass straight through the heart of town, which unbelievably is not more than a few blocks from this tranquil neighborhood, making for a short, trouble free commute to Manhattan. The main line of the Long Island Railroad slices through it's center. The dividing line it creates provides clear indication of the contradiction that is Forest Hills. Immediately south is the aforementioned upper income community of The Garden's. To the north lies Austin Street, the hub of Forest Hills, both for transportation and shopping. Beyond that lies Queens Boulevard, probably the busiest thoroughfare in the borough, followed by a high concentration of apartment buildings; essentially the more conventional Queens.
Pulling in or out of the Forest Hills train station, one cannot help but notice the hint of grandeur that once was. Mere steps to the south, the Forest Hills Tennis Stadium; the original home of the U.S. Open still stands. It's place in the music world is equally impressive, hosting such greats as The Beatles, Frank Sinatra, The Who, and Diana Ross. If memory serves, Hall and Oates may have passed through there as well. Majestic from a distance, it's crumbling facade upon closer inspection is sad. The last event that I can remember taking place there was a Phish concert in the mid-nineties. I may be speaking out of turn here as this is only based on my observations walking home at the end of a long work week, but the mildly unruly crowd wandering the streets with open beer containers, loudly complaining about the lack of parking most likely proved too much for the locals whom I am sure had some kind of hand in putting an end to such events. I for one would love to see this landmark put to use again. I'm sure that if I were to do a bit more research I'd find some type of preservation committee standing firm on leaving this iconic structure intact. In the meantime, it just seems to be a waste of some prime real estate.
Meandering further south on the quest to reach my neighborhood, the landscape begins to change. Nearly as drastic as the Long Island Railroad dividing line, is the razor sharp property line that signals the change from exclusivity to everyday. The middle income homes here are textbook old school Queens! Take a look at the opening sequences of television's King of Queens, or the classic All in the Family and you can see first hand exactly what I'm talking about. In fact, the exterior shot of the Archie Bunker home is literally just across the Forest Hills border, residing in the town of Glendale. Just a few blocks shy of this border is the area that I call home. The Long Island Railroad plays an important part here as well, both in its history and in the beautiful almost country-like serenity left in its wake. This was the major selling point in my relocating from suburb to borough. The former Rockaway Beach Branch; discontinued in the early 1960's now provides a beautiful buffer zone separating this neighborhood from the traffic and congestion on nearby Woodhaven Boulevard; another major thoroughfare. Our first order of business after settling in was to take a walk on those long abandoned tracks to explore a piece of Queens history that not a lot of people get to see, or may even know exists for that matter. Here we see the rusted remains of a set of stairs that at one time must have led to a long gone station platform.
The view from the rear of our home is idyllic. In the early days, my wife and I could often be found sitting outside at night, sipping wine as we listened to the rustling of the trees, looking to the night sky at the twinkling lights of stars while planes silently soared high overhead. In the morning, we would enjoy coffee back there, or spend some quality reading time together. The freshly fallen snow from the occasional winter storm would almost provide a Norman Rockwell like scene.
Recently, we acquired a new neighbor in the house next door who has put to good use the land behind his home, making for the perfect summer getaway without actually going anywhere. I hear there is talk these days of turning this area in to parkland, creating a Greenway here for biking, jogging, walking, or simply enjoying nature.
One of my closest companions in High School was a girl who had two great loves in her early life; horseback riding, and country music, one of the two which has rubbed off on me. I owe my love of country music primarily to my father who during our teen years always had 1050 WHN-AM on the car radio, making the unlikely pairing of Lisa and I as friends not so unlikely at all. I fondly remember coming to the end of the winter months when she would begin the countdown of days leading to her getting back in the saddle again (no pun intended). She would often try to coerce me into joining her, but there was something about the unfamiliarity of climbing on an animal many times my size and putting my trust in it's comfort with having me there. I was far more comfortable in the seat of a roller coaster, no matter what the size! Horseback riding probably would never have crossed my mind again, yet herein for me lies the greatest contradiction that is Forest Hills. This is such a far cry from the Union Turnpike that I remember as a kid, and that was at its eastern end in Nassau County Long Island! I've always had the dream of one day living in the country, waking up to the peaceful sounds of nature, living life at a pace that is somewhat slower than the frenetic one that New York City and it's outlying boroughs are known for. Pictured here is the entrance to Forest Park. There's a beautifully quaint playground here that abuts the entrance to the bridle path, and a working line of the Long Island Railroad most often used for freight trains. My son and I enjoy walking along the fence, each with our own nature supplied walking sticks, reminding him of a past trip to Vermont, while allowing me to lose myself in the dream of living in the country. If the quiet piece of land that borders the rear of our dwelling wasn't enough, the scene of horses trotting in and out of the park while a freight train lazily lumbers past is pure country paradise!

Development is important to the growth and well being of any community, a bland statement, I know. While paradise is often not more than a few steps away, there were certainly a few blemishes to mar this otherwise near perfect picture. The long unused, dilapidated buildings that once bordered the nearby intersection of Woodhaven Boulevard and Metropolitan Avenue are now thriving businesses. The recent additions of Staples, Sports Authority, Home Depot, and Trader Joe's are encouraging. I'm sure it's caused a bit of consternation for the long established small guy who 0nce dominated these parts, but sadly, this is the downside of progress. Another downside here is traffic! While I'm all for progress and development, the recent influx of shoppers has turned this place into a congestion nightmare. I don't know who plans the traffic studies to see how it may affect the community, but the individuals in charge of this one have failed miserably. Talk about screwing up the Bell Curve! Further development continues in this area on a piece of property that was truly a long decaying wasteland, overgrown with weeds and grass. This however is progress of the most positive kind! I can only guess at what it may do to the traffic patterns here, but the opportunity to have my son attend school in a brand new building, only a couple of blocks from home would make it worth the aggravation.
So, long story short?
In the eyes of my five year old son, there's magic here. Every community has its share of problems. I've very lightly touched on the rare few that really irk me, but this community, while not perfect is the place that I call home. I've seen a lot of changes since the day I gave up my suburban roots, most of them positive. I would love to hear and learn more about the Forest Hills that was, but not from a book (remember those?) or the Internet. I openly invite anyone to comment here or contact me. I'm a great listener. Besides, a few more visitors on this site would also be considered progress of the most positive kind, with the hope that one day I may be a slightly larger fish in this enormous pond.

Monday, July 21, 2008

AWRY (pronounced "orrie")?

I consider myself a decent wordsmith when it comes to the English language, something I can attribute to my voracious appetite for reading. I'm not reading Faulkner or Hemingway mind you, but I seem to get by fairly well. Admittedly, I am a bit on the lazy side when it comes to words I'm unsure of, so rather than puzzle over their meaning or pronunciation, I just kind of skip over it and move on. I never would have dreamed that this lazy little habit would one day bring to the forefront of my life a simple SAT like vocabulary word that just by its mere site or utterance could instantaneously transport me back in time to an era of untroubled days and a relatively carefree existence.
"Imagine if the world ended today and the only two people left alive to carry on the future of the human race would be them," my friend Scott strangely contemplated, gesturing towards our two unlikely traveling companions?
“That would be like completely…” he paused, looking for just the right word. “Orrie?”
Laughing, I could see the word in my mind and knew exactly what he was trying to convey.
“How do you say it?”
“I don’t know,” I answered. “A-W-R-Y, I’ve read it a million times.”
It was July of 1987; the two of us lounging poolside at the South Shore Resort Inn, Virginia Beach, reveling in that special time of life where spontaneity and impracticality were the primary rules we lived by. Having recently endured a horrific four hundred miles on the road, we reaped our well-deserved reward that afternoon in sun and beer. Fran and Robbie, of whom I was only casually friendly with at the time, rounded out our crew. There was not much more to the lure of the Virginia coast for me other than fact that I had never been there before. The only sights I’d planned on seeing were the beach, the boardwalk and the nightlife. Scott on the other hand had chosen this little piece of paradise with the distinct pleasure of visiting the world headquarters of the Association for Research and Enlightenment (A.R.E.).
At least one of us would get a little culture.
The plan to leave the New York area sometime during the pre-dawn hours had been an ambitious one. As it was Scott’s turn to take the wheel this time around, I had opted for a night spent partying at our favorite watering hole where they would pick me up later. My jubilation mounted in direct correlation with the several Budweiser’s I had consumed before switching to Coca-Cola to keep the blood flowing. I had planned to stay awake at least until we reached Jersey. I retrieved my bag from the trunk of a friend’s car barely noticing the scent of overheated engine odor wafting from the direction of the late 70’s era red Dodge Dart that was unmistakably Scott’s. The not so tough looking crew I had already come to consider as our small band of highway rebels looked none too confident as I approached.
“The trip’s off,” Scott disconsolately proclaimed.
I could just make out the last wisps of rising steam, colored amber by the overhead streetlamp behind him.
Looking to the others who nodded resolutely, I put on a concerned face while trying to mask my obvious disappointment. Barely listening to Scott’s very non-technical diagnosis, I became momentarily distracted as a light southerly breeze kicked up, taking with it the cloying scent of burning anti-freeze and leaving in its wake a strong aroma of fresh brewed coffee. I looked over his shoulder at the lights of the 7-Eleven next door. The decision was immediate.
Several months earlier, I had made my first real car purchase, opting for a same decade 1987 Dodge Charger. There was no doubt in my mind in the car’s ability to make the journey. My only trepidation was that no one else in the group was capable of handling a four speed standard transmission. I bought myself an extra large coffee and a box of caffeine pills, which I hastily ingested during the laborious process of switching vehicles. It was four a.m. by the time we hit the road, the car packed with luggage and the prerequisite cooler of breakfast beers.
They were asleep before Brooklyn and stayed that way until roughly five hours later at the Maryland border, where I required some assistance in plotting a new course to correct the faux pas I had made earlier, having missed an important exit several miles back in Delaware. The best bet at that late juncture called for continuing South to Route 50 where we would veer east towards the shore. It looked sound enough on paper until we grudgingly realized that a large percentage of the state’s population had decided to hit the beach as well. We were deadlocked in the worst traffic jam that I had ever known. The only plus to this course deviation were the road signs touting Ocean City; a name I had stored in my subconscious for future vacation consideration, and the opportunity to drive over one of the most extreme bridges I had ever seen. At some point we would arrive at one of the nations more impressive transportation marvels; the Chesapeake Bay Bridge-Tunnel, which had become something of a Holy Grail in our quest to reach Virginia. It was our crossing at The Bay Bridge however, that will resonate in my mind forever. Sleep-deprived and moving at barely a crawl across its span, I luxuriated in the pleasantly disconnected feeling of floating in midair, high above the gently undulating water’s below. By the time we had touched down on solid ground, I was in a state of euphoria and felt the need to celebrate. I pulled over, opened the rear hatch and retrieved a number of long awaited (now well past) breakfast beers. Clandestinely handing the frosty contraband to my companions still seated inside, I very openly took a long pull from my own right there on the pavement, smiling and waving at the astonished onlookers as they drove past, some of them looking decidedly parched. I laughed, umworried at the prospect of anyone calling a cop.
Cell phones hadn’t been invented yet.
A couple of hours later, we had finally reconnected with our original route only to find ourselves shocked, dismayed and forlorn at the irrefutable fact that we still faced a minimum of four hours traveling time. Maybe it was the caffeine or the momentary beer buzz wearing off, but I was privately and inconsolably distraught. Not even the excitement of reaching the world’s largest Duck Decoy Factory, whose proud signs we had been passing for several miles could lift my spirits. Irritable and agitated, our long awaited arrival at the famed Chesapeake Bay Bridge-Tunnel came with little fanfare. The sparse recollections I have were of a gift shop located mid-span, the gulls that seemed to inhabit every lamp post, and the actual pavement with its constant rises and dips that seemingly created the nauseating sensation of seasickness.
Twelve hours after our early morning departure from Long Island, we had finally arrived, greeting the Virginia shore with a tired indifference, although Scott had perked up for a second as we drove past the sacred home of the Association for Research and Enlightenment.
Talk about your Holy Grail!
My one glimmer of hope appeared in the form of a lone parachute soaring above the ocean. Parasailing, a safe, sane version of skydiving had long been a dream of mine, which would soon come to fruition.
It is no wonder that in my exhausted state, I would lose track of some of the routine aspects of our impromptu getaway. There must have been some degree of excitement upon checking into our temporary residence. There was most certainly some degree of celebratory beer consumption once we hit the pool. Following dinner in the hotel restaurant a short time later, we finally ventured out to explore the beach and boardwalk where I clearly remember witnessing a number of minor altercations, which were most likely alcohol fueled. Scott’s concerns echoed my own in that there appeared to be an under-current of racial tension, luckily short lived, at least during the time of our stay.
Later that night we visited a club inside a high rose hotel across the street chosen for only two reasons; location and a live band. Still shell shocked from the drive, the night was wholly uneventful and would have gone unmentioned here had it not been for this bizarre ability I have of retaining some of the most mundane, unimportant little tidbits of information. The band was forgettable, yet to this day, I remember them only because they performed an obscure Inxs tune from the Listen Like Thieves LP, “Same Direction”.
The next morning, we dropped by the dock to reserve parasailing time. With nearly two hours to kill before our scheduled departure, it was back to the pool for some mid-morning brunch beers, this time at Scott’s behest.
“I don’t know,” I said doubtfully. “I never drink before flying.”
“You don’t have to do anything but hold on,” he chided!
Sated from grog, we gaily meandered back to the dock, trying to stifle any errant laughter that might give away our near state of inebriation.
What happens if I have to pee up there," I secretly worried?
The boat ride out to the ocean was both relaxing and insightful, providing us with an unimpeded view of the Virginia Beach shoreline. It was also the first time I had ever witnessed something called a Banana Boat, wherein riders towed behind a speedboat atop a banana shaped raft slalom in and out of the waves, soaring momentarily skyward, before jarringly returning to the unforgiving sea. Shortly thereafter, several of the happily dazed passengers would be found floating in the water like shipwreck survivors awaiting rescue.
We passed on it.
My parasailing experience was invigorating at first as the anticipation began to build. Holding tight to two vertical poles on the boat’s rear platform, there was the momentary thrill of resistance as the chute fanned out behind me and I was suddenly airborne, amazed not only that I was actually flying, but that there was absolutely no sensation of movement. Soaring quickly higher, the droning of the powerful motors beneath me dissipated, leaving nothing but the light ruffling of the wind blown fabric above. It’s not an extreme sport by any means. Those eight minutes were among the most peaceful moments of the entire vacation. I’ve parasailed many times since then and would recommend it to anyone without a fear of heights, water, sharks…
I was always on the hunt for a girlfriend in those days. While other males on a four-day getaway would be on the hunt for something else, I simply yearned for a significant other. Tina was the poolside server who brought us a continual stream of beers and daiquiri’s. She was sweet, easy to talk to and we tipped her well. Had it not been for a single photo we had somehow coaxed her into posing for, she would long ago have faded into obscurity. Thinking about her kept a smile on my face during those few days while my mind pleasantly contemplated the what if factor. Alas, while romance was not in the cards, we had become pen pals for a short while.
Fran and Robbie; the other half of our unit were in no way romantically linked, yet they fought and sniped at each other like married people would. Their constant bickering had me practically begging Scott to take me with him on his afternoon sojourn to the A.R.E.! Choosing to ignore those pleas, he left, in search of something I would never understand. Met with a small degree of apathy by the others upon his return several hours later, Scott’s tales of crystals, negative ion’s, and atmospheric calm held my rapt attention long enough to usher him upstairs and begin a marathon of late afternoon snack beer consumption. I really believe that we acted mature enough for our age, choosing not to behave like rock stars hell bent on launching televisions from upper floor balconies, and as a result had never been evicted from any premises nor asked not to return. The letter we received from management as a gentle reminder to leave all of the furniture inside the room seemed a bit extreme. Any furniture removal was only in good fun. Coorsman; our own personal super hero came to life that afternoon. I don’t know what he was fighting for or how many people might remember the iconic character standing on our balcony smugly waving at the crowd below like a proud dignitary riding upon a parade float, but he lived in our hearts long thereafter.
Twenty-one years have gone by since the utterance of that unremarkable, trite little word. Scott relocated to the west coast in the early nineties, resulting in the inevitable waning of our kinship. He recently popped into town for the first time in nearly half a decade, allowing us the brief opportunity to get together one Sunday afternoon to do a little catch-up beer consumption. It’s always a bit awkward for me trying to reconnect with someone after a long period, but with Scott, we seem to have a knack for picking up right where we left off. It’s a special bond that while broken by time and distance on the outside still holds strong on the inside. It was during that short reunion, the two of us sitting at a lakeside bar in New York City’s Central Park, lazily rehashing the old days, when the magic word floated from my mouth, releasing this flood of memories.
“Where was that from,” Scott asked me with a look of confusion on his face?
I was dismayed to learn that the word didn’t hold as much significance with him.
“Virginia Beach, Fran and Robbie,” I prodded.
Laughing upon immediate remembrance, he looked at me and said,
“Man, you have a great memory!”
I do.
For certain things.
I call it selective retention.
His statement is the very catalyst, not just for this story, but also for the entire reason that this site exists. The photo albums I’ve kept from those years are helpful in triggering recollections, but pictures just barely tell the tale. I know there’s plenty that I’ve forgotten.
The remainder of our brief adventure has faded from my memory, although I must have connected with Robbie on some level. Ignoring common sense and the refusal to learn my lesson, the two of us spent our last night in some bar or club, while Scott and Fran had opted for sleep instead. The drive home went smoothly, clocking in at somewhere around six hours. The route was easy enough to remember, and would be followed again when we would make a return trip for the upcoming Labor Day Weekend with a larger cast of characters. I’ll leave the exploits of our Virginia Beach homecoming for another time. Should I ever decide to revisit that weekend in literary form, I think I’ll title it with one other unremarkably trite little word…
“Twice!”

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Wanted: Discipline

Right now I picture a bunch of wayward Internet surfers in search of something along the dominatrix, S&M lines wandering in here after typing the tag word "Discipline" in the Blogspot search engine only to find a picture of a doting dad with his kid, and a number of very "G" rated stories as well.
WAIT!
Don't leave until I've had the opportunity to welcome you and invite you to look around. My first entry here "Return to Innocence," may surprise you.
(Right now I picture the abovementioned crowd moving on elsewhere with said Internet search).
Hey, I've never been a salesman, but I may have some of those traits housed within. Using deceptive tag words to lure in unsuspecting others is not a bad idea. "Discipline" goes without saying. "Return to Innocence," while seemingly innocent at first glance may mean something completely different. For instance, what is he returning from? A-a-a-h-h-h, you're thinking about that now, aren't you? Go ahead and look. I'll still be here when you get back.
"Hello?"
"Hello?"
"Echo."
"Echo."
I guess you're not coming back.
Yes, once again it's been a while since I've stepped foot inside these hallowed halls. The alternate title I had considered for this space; "There Nobody's Here," which was one of the first truly cognizant sentences uttered by my (then) two year old son has yet to disappoint. Don't pull out the hankies, start playing the world's smallest violins or any other cliché oriented things that come to mind yet. Although I am a bit disappointed at the lack of traffic through here, I can't blame folks for not stopping by. My last entry was back in November of '07. I can easily make a number of weak excuses as to why, but for now let's chalk it up to plain and simple laziness with a lack of motivation on the side. Writing has long been a dream of mine and now that it's finally being realized, I find it can be cumbersome at times. Yes, I still submit a bi-monthly column to a local magazine. No, there's still no paycheck in sight, but that's alright. The charge I get out of seeing myself in print is still second to none, and while I'm not being stopped on the street for autographs, hello's or simple nods of recognition, I know people are reading me. How, you may ask? On the days immediately following the magazine's release, one can often find me suspiciously skulking around the distribution sites, mentally calculating the rate at which the magazine is being consumed by its devoted readers. The fact that many of these sites are banks should raise a few eyebrows, especially from local law enforcement, who upon realizing it's me should offer high-fives and pose for pictures.
Guess what? There Nobody's There either!
I need to set aside time to write. I tell myself that daily, but find it nearly impossible just trying to balance work and family. Once the weather turns warm, I selfishly enjoy retreating to the peace and quiet of our front steps to lose myself in the pages of a good book for an hour.
(These days enjoying a bad book wouldn't be so bad either).
Naturally that time could be better spent putting some of the jumbled thoughts that race in and out of my brain down on paper, but it wouldn't matter. My son, whom I am convinced is nocturnal also happens to be an early riser. Shortly following what I thought was a successful solo trip to the great outdoors, I hear someone trying to sneak up behind me.
"What are you doing, Buddy" I ask, trying to mask my momentary disappointment?
"I just want to watch you read, Daddy."
"OK, but keep it quiet," I say, knowing I won't get a sentence further.
My eyes return to the page for barely a second when:
"Daddy," he begins.
We return inside to get breakfast started.
He's like my shadow and I wouldn't have it any other way. In his younger days when I would bring work home, my wife would find the two of us on the couch furiously scribbling notes in our respective composition books, me trying to log some DVD footage for editing the next day, him trying to emulate his dad.
It's hard to write with a five year old always looking over your shoulder. His antics and simple observations alone as he continually discovers the world around him give me a wealth of material to work with. The hard part is finding a wealth of material to interest readers in a public forum. With the magazine, I've spent a good deal of time revealing some of the odder moments in my life (all of which are unarguably true and without exaggeration.) They call the column a Literary Showcase, but to me it's really anything but. Literary brings to mind accomplished authors and dusty tomes on library shelves. I've never considered myself an author. I'm just a guy who enjoys to write when the mood strikes. Recently the mood seems to strike when I am jarringly reminded via e-mail that anther editorial deadline is on the horizon. Somehow, in under 48 hours I manage to pull off another submission. I call it winging it. Even in my professional life when I'm facing a tedious video project that I have managed to lazily put off a day or two, I find myself winging it on the day before it is due. Maybe it's the whole working under pressure thing that seems to click with me. In fact as I write this, I'm considering a hastily written e-mail to the publisher of Forest Hills Celebrity and Entertainment who has unselfishly given me a very long rope with which to hang myself, and see if he'll consider changing the name of my small page of literary real estate to "Winging It." Maybe that will draw some inspiration. In the meantime, consider this a call for help. Feel free to throw some ideas my way or some tips on writer's discipline. Otherwise, maybe I will resort to a dominatrix to help whip me into shape.

Monday, November 05, 2007

Go to Your Happy Place

Alright, so just when you think the novelty has worn off and he's gone back to the everyday mundane aspects of daily life, he resurfaces. Yes, it's been a while since I posted; nearly six months to be exact. I've got a few things in the works that will at some point find their way here. In the meantime however, the writing has actually continued. In fact, it was with the completion of my first blog "Return to Innocence" that soon landed me a position (non-paying, but the dream actually came true) as a columnist in a local magazine that's starting to garner a bit of attention. I've aways been rather long-winded when it comes to committing words to the written page, so not knowing the first thing about writing for periodicals, my first entry which was very happily a shortened version of the abovementioned "...Innocence" selfishly spanned two issues. The publisher; knowing a good cliff hanger when he sees one left the reader panting (that's the way I envision it, anyway) for more. My wife, upon completing my debut entry into the world of literature exclaimed, "He stopped it right at the dirty part." I had to remind her that at the age of 13 which was more or less when "Return to Innocence" had taken place, there were no dirty parts! Today's youth at 13 however...I won't go there. While the original dream was to write and see some of my fiction published, seeing my name in print while I spin tales of my life has been pretty rewarding. I'm hoping to make some kind of mark locally, but as no one is really stopping me on the street as yet...
Ah-h-h, that's alright. I've already had what I consider to be my 15 minutes of fame (see Blog #2 "...Résumé for Disaster"). When asked what the column is about, I often compare it to a Seinfeld episode - It's about nothing. So far I've all but written my own book (no pun intended) as I wing my way through it with each new submission, writing about whatever comes to mind. I poke a lot of fun at myself which is OK, because frankly there's enough to poke fun at. The intent is simply to make people smile; something I don't do nearly enough of these days. Oops, no skeletons, remember? I intend on maintaining this site as a happy place. That way should someone ever tell me (highly cliché and unlikely) "Go to your Happy Place" well, here I am. I'll include a number of my submissions in this space both for the sake of some good old fashioned shameless self-promotion, and on the off-chance (realistically also highly unlikely) someone should find their way here either by choice or by accident. That said, feel free to leave comments at will. One day i'd love to pop in here and not hear my imaginary voice echoing back at me. With that, I leave you with one of my son's earliest proclamations at the beautiful age of two, "There Nobody's Here."
- - 'Nuf said!

Friday, April 06, 2007

Tales From the VW Part I: A Car is Born


"So What’s the Words…,” my two year old asked as he tried desperately to peer around the cover of the paperback I’d been attempting to read…



There comes a rite of passage in the life of most young teens which is often looked upon with much excitement as it really defines the first major step towards independence and maturity.
I didn’t see it that way.
Lacking a degree of self-confidence during those awkward post-pubescent years I could simply never picture myself behind the wheel of a car, especially one that was large enough to safely transport a good percentage of the population of my small middle class hometown.
Comfortably!
Approaching the year of my sixteenth birthday, the most ridiculous thoughts would often cross my mind like why do highway entrance and exit ramps have to be so curvy? The boundaries from which I socialized were soon to be increased exponentially to nth degree, yet the idea of cruising aimlessly with a bunch of friend’s ala American Graffiti looking for...what (?) I had no idea, never crossed my mind. I was simply still content upon the seat of my two wheel Schwinn, while my father was quite intent on getting me in the driver’s seat ASAP!
“It’s moving,” I said clearly panicked as I slammed on the brake bringing our oversized Dodge Monaco Station Wagon to an abrupt halt nearly bringing my first driving lesson to as quick a finish.
Sighing patiently, my dad looked across the miles of seat between us while simultaneously wondering where he had gone wrong in the child rearing department and explained:
“That’s what happens when you put it in drive. Now ease your foot off the brake, move it over to the gas pedal and gently apply some pressure.”
2 mph, 3mph, 4mph, the fence drawing nearer, the barest breeze blowing in through the open window.
Wow, I thought eagerly, feeling suddenly exhilarated; empowered. I’m getting the hang of this.
An hour later after several laps around the empty parking lot, and some pretty daring slaloming between the lamp posts we headed for home, dad back behind the wheel.
“So whaddya think, tomorrow we’ll try it on the street,” he suggested?
In the weeks that followed, our excursions had taken us further and further from the comfort of the quiet neighborhood I’d called home, circumnavigating the unending winding roads and rolling hills of Long Island’s affluent north shore, 1050 WHN-AM providing a country music soundtrack that would fondly remain with me forever. By the completion of my 11th school year, I had accumulated far more miles under the belt than any of my contemporaries in the smaller boxy car in which we were taking High School Driver Education. I could hardly contain my impatience while waiting for a turn in the driver’s seat with the hope of not only impressing my cooler classmates, but changing the opinion of the instructor; my former fifth grade teacher who would always remember me as an underachiever.
"Alright Tommy," he smirked. “Why don’t you take a shot at it?”
Tommy, I groaned inwardly. Come on that was like a million years ago!
Adjusting the bench seat forward, trying as hard as I could to accidentally force his knees into the glove compartment, I rolled down the window, flipped on the blinker, and self-assuredly eased away from the curb with one hand on the wheel and the other dangling lazily outside the driver’s door. The only thing missing was the musical accompaniment via the radio which I mischievously had one eye on.
“Two hands, two hands, Tommy”
Oh-h-h, I groaned again.
“Ten and two position, Mr. Pro,” he reprimanded, hands upon an imaginary steering wheel.
Parallel parking is just not my forte. I’d never gotten the hang of it in our gas guzzling monster, and not being able to master it in the smaller Driver Ed vehicle I realized that this was going to be a problem come road test time, which was looming imminently closer.
“I wish there was a smaller car I could take it in,” I hinted one afternoon, thinking furtively about the Datsun 240-Z I’d so longed for.
The Buy Lines; my dad’s favorite newspaper was always within easy reach at home. Many cars had come and gone through our household compliments of this printed version of a used car lot, and we were getting set to add another to the roster. It’s no doubt every kid’s dream to have their parents buy them a hot car; often a common site in the student parking lot as the upper class elite showed up at school in their Camaro’s, Trans-Am’s, and assorted other high priced rides.
Pulling up outside the small Floral Park home in our beloved wagon, my dad and I approached the front door of the current owner of what would become my first vehicle.
Hooray, I thought sarcastically, feeling the same exhilaration as that of a child who knowingly prepares to open a gaily wrapped holiday present that will undoubtedly contain some type of clothing.
Advertised at $125.00 and not running, the sight that awaited me was sure to be less than compelling. The weeds growing out of the rust covered hubcaps of the small white VW bug offered little consolation. Herbie the Love Bug it wasn’t, although who knew? Maybe it was in a past life. Where did old movie legends go to die, anyway?
Lifting the reluctant well rusted engine cover with a mighty heave; my dad examined the inner workings with the precision of a skilled surgeon. Pronouncing the little bug legally dead, he switched hats, haggled briefly, handed over $75.00 in cash, and proudly declared me a new car owner. Another oil spot on our driveway later, the little car (sans hubcap flora which didn’t survive the tow home) had mystically risen ever so briefly from the dead, the motor incredibly running in a matter of minutes. The near literal reincarnation of my 1970 Herbie might possibly have played well in an early 80’s update of the beloved Disney films.
The next morning we set out for a junkyard in the Five Towns area owned by someone I remember as Uncle Bill, where could be found an inordinate amount of long deserted and forgotten VW’s, some of whose engines were inexplicably considered to be in better shape than that of which was housed within my little guy back home. Extricating one such motor and loading it into the back of our all purpose family wagon occurred pretty quickly with the help of a few big grease covered guys; none of whom I’d referred to as Uncle. Several late nights were then spent sitting in our own dirty garage, me disinterestedly looking on as my dad and closest friend from next door painstakingly rebuilt the car practically from scratch ala TV’s The Six Million Dollar Man.
“We can rebuild him. We have the technology.”
They did.
And it ran like the day it came off the assembly line. Sanding, painting, a few strips of chrome molding later, and it actually began to resemble a car I could almost be proud enough to own. Not quite the Datsun 240-Z I had envisioned, but it would do. Now all I had to do was learn how to drive it, a task I’d reasoned should be pretty simple, having had some previous standard shift transmission experience as a much younger child when my dad would allow me to actually switch gears as he drove, marveling at my uncanny ability to do so at exactly the right moment.
That uncanny ability failed me on the night of our maiden voyage.
“How’d it go,” my mom asked cheerily, trying to break the obvious tension upon our return.
“It was like teaching a four year old,” dad answered disgustedly. “He has no coordination whatsoever. What happened to you,” he accused, looking at me sadly?
I’d spent the next day dwelling on the failure of my initial attempt and working up the courage to ask for a second chance which I was surprisingly afforded. Apparently dad’s day had been spent doing much the same. A little grinding of the gears, a few fits, starts and stalls later, and I was suddenly, seamlessly an expert.
Disney would have been proud.
Now with the road test but a mere week or so away, I was confidently looking forward to becoming a bona fide New York State licensed driver.
There was however one minor frustrating quirk that popped up a few days prior to the main event. The transmission liked to pop out of first gear at some of the most inopportune moments causing me to hastily shove it back in to which it would often vehemently, screechingly protest.
Driving to the road test site with mom in the passenger seat I silently pleaded with the little car to behave. If we could just get through this without incident I swore that I would learn how to drive the car using only second and third gears.
“Alright Thomas, let’s drive up to the stop sign and make a right please,” the instructor said coolly.
Left directional on, a quick glance in the side view mirror, throw in the ridiculous over-hyped, never used left turn hand signal for good measure and we were off. I would almost have contemplated turning on the radio just to prove how relaxed I was. After completing a flawless three point turn in the middle of the street I felt for sure that I was now at the top of my game… before proceeding to throw it all down the drain a short time later by completely blowing the parallel park, having to execute the maneuver twice.
“Don’t worry about it, let’s move on,” I was dryly instructed. “When we get to the stop sign I want you to make a right turn, and prepare to move across two lanes where we’ll hang a left and return to the starting point.”
Signaling my intention no less than a hundred feet from the corner (as per N.Y.S. driving specifications), I cruised up slowly, took the car out of gear, stepped on the brake and came to a nice smooth stop.
“Listen, about the parking thing back there,” I contemplated saying out loud, my mind obsessing over the recent faux pas.
Easing up on the clutch using the precise manufacturers recommended standards pertaining to pedal pressure while inversely applying the exact opposite amount to the gas pedal we effortlessly glided away from the corner, executing a symmetrically perfect arc of a right turn that could have been choreographed to a gently sweeping piece of classical music...
POP!
In perfect unison the two of us snapped our heads towards the offending gearshift, me in disgust, him in utter shock!
Trying to save grace, while recovering as quickly as possible, I attempted to get it back into first. The horrific squeal and grinding could only have been made worse if sparks were to come out from underneath.
“It does that sometimes,” I yelled above the mechanical malestrom, laughing maniacally inside.
Suddenly the car jerked forward as I slammed the shift home.
Whiplash, I thought. Can I, an unlicensed driver be sued for whiplash?
“Get over, Get over,” he said anxiously looking back at the approaching cars behind us.
I revved the engine, slipped into second, and with but a moment to spare safely crossed two lanes of traffic (remembering to signal as well), eased out into the middle of the intersection, and dismally completed my last left turn.
When the envelope bearing the New York State seal had inevitably arrived at my home it was without fanfare. The last several weeks of intensive psychotherapy had helped me to get past the horrifying events of that dark day. Opening the letter I wondered disdainfully how long it would take just to schedule another test.
This is your temporary driver’s license, the orange piece of paper read.
Looking first for the hidden camera that I was convinced must be behind the hideous oil painting that adorned our dining room wall, my eyes drifted unsurely back to the document in my hand.
This is your temporary driver’s license, it still read.
“Mom, I’m taking the car,” I uttered for the first time in my life.
“Where are you going?”
Anywhere, I thought.
Anywhere.

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

I've Always Considered Myself Pretty Clueless Musically

"So What’s the Words…,” my two year old asked as he tried desperately to peer around the cover of the paperback I’d been attempting to read…



December 2006
“How can this thing not be here yet,” I silently cursed?
I’d paid for the merchandise several weeks ago, receiving an automatically generated e-mail stating that my item was already on its way!
Talk about expediency, I mused!
Yet here it was nearly a month after the fact and still NO PARTRIDGE FAMILY SEASON ONE DVD!
I’m 43 by the way.

I only blinked my eye; and now the world that I used to know is changin' on me;
why can't it be only a moment ago?
- Only A Moment Ago
The Partridge Family Album (1970)


Summer 1972
Skipping gaily on my way home from school – well, not really skipping, but there was definitely an extra bounce in my step - I thought happily, today is definitely the day!
It wasn’t!
In fact, barely a week had gone by since my mom had placed the order with Columbia House, but to the mind of an impatient nine year old it felt more like months! In the past my parents had been particularly remiss in allowing us to participate in the democratic process of choosing new music to enrich our lives, but in this case, something monumental must have occurred to effect such a sudden change of heart; planets realigning, a windfall of unexpected cash, a probable lack of any truly exciting musical offerings this time around. Whatever the reason as far as I was concerned, The Partridge Family’s At Home with Their Greatest Hits could not possibly arrive fast enough! Already by this time in my young life I had somehow managed to obtain all of the vinyl from which said greatest hits had been compiled, so adding this new tidbit to my collection should really not have been a big deal.
It was!
And on so many levels!
With the impending delivery of this soon to be latest acquisition (and much to my family’s delight) we would now have the pleasure of taking the family Partridge with us wherever we went, for this was no simple LP…This was an 8-Track!
8-Track tape representing the latest in audible technology, now allowed you to take your music almost anywhere, be it in the car on a state of the art 8-Track car stereo, or maybe on the beach with the coolest pre boom-box, post transistor radio invention; the Dynamite 8!
“But wait, there’s more!”
(Think special TV offer featuring over-zealous announcer here)
“But wait, there’s more!”
This particular greatest hits collection boasted a brand new unreleased album track!!
I’d never heard of “Breaking is Up is Hard to Do,” and was eager to feast my ears on the Partridge’s latest! On the day that the package had finally arrived at our front door, my mom had been kind enough to leave it sealed until returning home from my institute of lower learning. There it was, the cardboard box, gleaming like a Holy Grail atop our monstrous maple wood grain stereo. Dropping my schoolbag haphazardly to the floor I raced across the worn beige rug and seized the coveted prize, ripping it open none too carefully, a blizzard of packing material and worthless plastic tape cartridges bearing the blurred faces of Perry Como, Andy Williams, Vic Damone and Steve & Eydie burying me nearly to my neck.
“OH NO”, my mind screamed!
Could they somehow have impossibly forgotten to include it in this lackluster order of non-imaginative old people’s smorgasbord of crap, was it out of stock, discontinued…?
“Whoa, whoa, whoa,” my mom admonished me from somewhere behind.
“It’s not here, it’s not here, it’s not here…” I repeated disconsolately, until…
“HERE IT IS, I triumphantly announced!
“Oh, hi mom,” I half heartedly acknowledged, before wholeheartedly sweeping the ridiculous vase of fake purple flowers to the side, throwing open the heavy lid to reveal the dusty components within. Studying the track listing as if it were a roadmap , I contemplated the quickest way of getting to the as yet unheard track, suddenly realizing the major downfall of this newest technology; no instant access to the song of your choice.
An interminable, (almost as long as it had taken for Columbia House to make good on this order it seemed) three minutes and twenty-four seconds later having only to endure one cut; the not loved “Echo Valley 2-6809” – what was this doing here anyway? – my reward had finally been delivered in the form of multi-layered incredible harmony.
WOW, what a catchy tune!
“Brilliant,” I sighed contentedly
I’ve always considered myself pretty clueless musically, and yes, it would be a number of years before I was to realize that “Breaking Up is Hard to Do” was not a true Partridge Family original recording. It would take slightly less than that to realize there really was no true Partridge Family to begin with. So what had brought me to this euphoric high, (or lowly low, truth be told)? Like most things in the life of a small town nine year old, it had begun innocently several months earlier on a cold winter’s night. Having wrapped up our weekly viewing of the Brady Bunch, my parents had erred only slightly in not changing the channel or scooting us off to bed quickly enough before the unmistakable sound of a Wurlitzer electric organ emanated from the small television speaker giving way to the abovementioned multi-layered harmonies inviting all to “hear the song that we’re singing and Come On Get Happy.”
“This is the Partridge Family,” I said breathlessly.
Having never seen the show, I don’t know how I had come to be blessed with that little bit of TV knowledge. I’d known absolutely nothing of the Partridges; who they were what they were, why they were. Whatever they were, I was immediately tuned in, having seamlessly made the transition to the more personal, intricate family structure that was Partridge. The Brady’s could never compare with their infantile domestic issues and pathetic musical aspirations. Their lame “Time to Change,’ and “We Can Make the World a Whole Lot Brighter” couldn’t hold a candle to the Partridges far more complex “I’m On My Way Back Home,” the first tune I had been introduced to on that historic Friday evening. My taste in music now evolving well past the ditties of childhood past, life suddenly had new meaning. Armed with nothing more than the paltry allowance my parents had afforded me (which I didn’t deserve anyway) I was on a mission to obtain Partridge vinyl, the first acquisition being the band’s third release; Sound Magazine.
Opening the album, Side A’s One Night Stand; a musician’s lament features Keith in raw vocal form…
Alright, that’s ludicrous.
Up until the moment of this writing I have doubtfully ever used the word lament in a sentence, be it complete, incomplete or run-on. Sitting cross legged on the floor, the new record booming from the maple wood monster’s speakers (beginning a mother’s lifelong lament in repeatedly urging me to turn it down) I scanned the contents inscribed on the album’s back cover paying particular attention to the fact that there were two earlier releases I would have to get my hands on while ignoring (call it denial) the fact that there were far more musicians listed on this record than there were Partridges under the heading “It Takes a lot of Good People.”
Hal Blaine: Drums
Hal Blaine, Drums, I wondered, confused? Who the heck is Hal Blaine?! Chris plays drums…and he’s only six, a regular prodigy! Granted, I’d yet to hear him play a drum solo, but his tasty fills…
Yes, Tom, There is a Partridge Family.
I stuck with denial.
A few short months later at a tag sale in the parking lot behind the local Methodist Church, I was introduced – compliments of the Minister’s two eldest daughters; Katie and Julie, with whom I was friendly at the time – to the Partridge’s second release; Up to Date spinning one of those 1970's era high-tech portable record players. I wasn’t wowed, but was determined however to add this to my not yet growing collection. How and when I’d finally acquired both Up to Date, and its debut predecessor; The Partridge Family Album escapes me, but in time I came to relish both of these and the later released Christmas album as well. Shopping Bag; the fifth release, I had been eyeing in a local five and dime for several weeks before I’d saved up enough pennies (literally) from my undeserved allowance to afford it. This was a great one because it came with a little something extra; an actual Partridge Family plastic shopping bag!
WOW!
I couldn't wait to be seen in public with that baby dangling by my side. Choosing to join my dad one night in a short excursion to the store, I quickly gathered up my new prize and headed towards the door.
“Where are you going with that,” he asked warily?
“I just thought I’d take it to…you know hold stuff,” was my lame reply.
With great wisdom and diplomacy, he advised:
“I would leave it here. The store clerks may think you're up to something walking in there with an empty shopping bag."
I was flabbergasted.
The nerve, I thought angrily!
In hindsight, I often wonder if in a way he was saving either me or himself from almost certain ridicule as I gaily perused the aisle with my brightly colored little plastic Partridge Family bag. Notebook; the sixth release followed in December, arriving under our tree via Santa. I remember Christmas morning sitting on that same worn rug bestowing upon my family future classics like Together We’re Better, Friend And A Lover, and We Gotta Get Outta This Place; a real rocker and oddly different from the other tunes on this collection. I’ve always considered myself pretty clueless musically, and yes, it would take me nearly a decade before realizing that this too was not a true Partridge recording. I remember feeling no small amount of pride at hearing the single; Looking Through the Eyes of Love played occasionally on AM radio. Crossword Puzzle; the band’s final release – so I’d believed until recently – pretty much spelled the end of this love affair with the Partridges; whom I’d finally admitted to myself were really nothing more than It Take’s A Lot of Good People. My clearest memory of this album was listening to it in Katie’s bedroom…yes, the minister’s daughter!
In addition to my now complete vinyl collection I was also working on keeping up with the nonstop deluge of paperbacks that continually appeared on drug store book racks, at one time actually owning sixteen of the seventeen published.
I read only one of them in its entirety; #5 Terror by Night.
Great story.
“The Partridge Family was ready for a vacation,” my first fifth grade book report began. Staring at that short introduction, I could almost hear the uproarious laughter of my classmates as my dirty little secret was revealed.
I was a closet Partridge Family fan!
Not cool! In fact the only person out of my immediate circle I can remember admitting this to would be the surgeon who was setting my broken wrist several months earlier as I lay there drugged and delirious imparting upon him my musical wisdom. I crumpled up the paper and went on to something that was not nearly as significant to me, but would at least leave me with some respect.

“Ah, but you're gonna find if you hang around awhile
you will remember me when you're gone”
- There’s No Doubt in my Mind
Up To Date (1971)

Realizing that I was now somehow maturing, the time had come to put away the Partridge books and vinyl, knowing that with Junior High School in the not so distant future it would be for the best. Those items spent many years hidden away in my bedroom closet until without warning they seemingly vanished like so many other tokens and mementos of my childhood innocence. Decades have literally passed, but not without the occasional brief resurgence of Partridge interest. Sometime in the early to mid-nineties when the albums were re-released on CD (now allowing immediate access to the tune of my choice) I wasted no time in purchasing them, amazing myself that I had not forgotten the lyrics to all of those songs that had brought me so much happiness. Caught up in the excitement of musically revisiting my childhood, I’d attempted to share this youthful exuberance with my wife who just didn’t get it, forcing me to realize there may actually be some credence to the old saying "guess you had to be there." Another decade would pass before those discs would see the light of day again.


December 2006
“Justin,” I yell, at my three year old, trying desperately to get his shoes on. He’s spent the better part of an hour running around the apartment singing “Come On, Get Happy” as loud as his little lungs will allow. Having finally received the long awaited Partridge Family Season One DVD, the two of us have spent several evenings glued to the television. I don’t know how much of it he’s retaining, but he’s definitely digging it. Once again enmeshed in the obsession of my childhood I have also decided to revisit the old Partridge paperbacks, already completing #5, Terror by Night for the second time in over three decades.
Not a great story!
And no by the way, I did not hold on to all of those literary masterpieces for all these years. I painstakingly reacquired them through Ebay at far more than their original worth, keeping them hidden from prying eyes, locked within a double reinforced steel door behind a secret panel at the rear of the linen closet. The CD’s (now including a bootleg copy of the hard to find final release; Bulletin Board) reside in the lowest darkest recesses of the media rack for much the same reason.

I wish I knew then what I know today,
I'm on my way back home again
- I’m On My Way Back Home
Sound Magazine (1972)



Skipping gaily on my way home from work – well, not really skipping, but definitely with an extra bounce in my step as I disinterestedly pass by a group of shabby looking youth’s with no taste in music I smile inwardly as I once again revel in the music of my childhood (old people's music as they would think of it) playing on a newly purchased iPod. This not only allows me instant access to every single Partridge tune, but I can keep my guilty pleasure (dirty little secret) literally close to the hip and away from prying eyes. Another step forward for technology, while I myself have undeniably taken two steps back.

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

The Pen Is Mightier Than...Part II: A Blog Begins!

"So What’s the Words…,” my two year old asked as he tried desperately to peer around the cover of the paperback I’d been attempting to read…

The Present

Why Blog?
I guess you can say that on the surface it was really the birth of my son that was the catalyst to get the pen moving again, but beneath that surface lies a little more of the real story. While I’ve subtitled this particular section The Present, I’m going to avoid spending too much time there. This is primarily to be a celebration of the past, somewhere that my son can go to and read about life through the eyes of his dad – who he adores right now at the innocent age of three, but will one day come to the conclusion that, “my parents are so not cool,” as all kids inevitably do. For me it has become a celebration of the fact that I have actually picked up a pen (this usually starts out in the aforementioned composition book as noted in part 1) and begun to create again. Somehow, within the last decade or two my mind seems to have succumbed to just ordinary, for lack of a better description, creativity beating a hasty retreat, so in a way this is almost therapeutic for me. The idea of starting a journal a.k.a. blog is not a new one however. In fact, there are several composition books strewn all over the apartment that remain primarily empty. Occasionally I would jot down a sentence or two (“What is about to transpire on these pages I have no way of knowing”, comes immediately to mind) but then quickly abandon it due to lack of interest or inspiration. Besides, who would read it anyway, but then the idea came to me, why not just put it out there? Naturally though, in revealing myself to the wide, wide world via the World Wide Web would require some tact.
“We all have skeletons in the closet” a close friend confided to me one afternoon last summer, stopping himself immediately after saying so. I plan to do the same…for the most part. This page (or site, or blog, or whatever you choose to refer to it as – I prefer shameless self-promotion, myself) will remain a positive place. No whining and complaining about the present state of my life, or the world for that matter, no political opinions and no slandering of persons past or present which may prove difficult in bringing up old relationships and exes…
Think tactful, I remind myself.
‘Nuf Said!

Why Now?
Several months ago I joined a Yahoo! Group started by some old acquaintances. The moderator e-mailed me back asking, “Why should you be allowed to join this group?” to which I replied simply, “I was Morty once, people loved me.” I therefore owe kudos to “Joey Angel” of georgeandjoel.com (who by the way has done a little writing of his own and will forever be linked to this site) for lighting the fire underneath me to actually get past the silly opening sentence mentioned above that has graced so many virgin composition books.
Currently, I continue to sign off on most e-mails to old friends and acquaintances with the moniker (Still) Morty!I’m not Still Morty, however... at least not the Morty of the past that once was so loved. Somehow with maturity all of that changed.
I guess it’s called growing up.
Somewhere beginning around the early 90’s a certain degree of cynicism began to evolve within me. Before I had decided on “So What’s the Words” as the title for my life’s story I was also considering two others. “There Nobody’s Here” was another utterance that Justin used to say at a much younger age, and while I fear that may be true where this website is concerned, it seemed a bit cynical. The other consideration, “Because You Didn’t Ask,” was just way too negative, and would probably turn potential readers immediately away.
So I thank my lil’ feller for the current title which I find both positive and intriguing (hopefully!).
What can I say?... with age came cynicism, and on that note we’ll leave the skeleton closet closed. While my life’s story will most likely not sell any books, I really feel that it may - if nothing else, raise a few eyebrows here and there.
Am I a complex person?
No.
My top three favorite movies of all time are
(Raise eyebrows here)!
“The Gumball Rally,” “Time After Time” (Malcolm McDowell/Mary Steenburgen), and “Monty Python and the Holy Grail,” not necessarily in that order. Bubbling just under you would probably find “Capricorn One,” and “Rollercoaster.”
Call them guilty pleasures…just like Spam and the Partridge Family (not necessarily in that order either).
I look forward to revisiting and regaling you with tales ranging from college to concerts, music interests, employment, romance, cars,etc.
What is about to transpire on the following website I’ve no way of knowing...
I do hope you’ll all
(is “anybody’s here?”)
come along for the ride.

(Still) Morty!

Monday, January 08, 2007

The Pen is Mightier Than...Part I: Prequel to a Blog


"So What’s the Words…,” my two year old asked as he tried desperately to peer around the cover of the paperback I’d been attempting to read...



The Past

Writing was something that had come very naturally to me at a really young age, and while I can’t remember (no surprise there) those earliest attempts at creativity I can reach as far back as the third grade – a simple assignment set before the class by Mrs. Rosov, who had placed a photo upon the blackboard ledge and instructed us to simply write a short story based on what we were looking at. The picture was that of an alley behind what I would assume to be a row of apartments, clothes hung out to dry on clotheslines stretching across the street, two women talking to each other from their windows, kids playing ball in the street below, and a barking dog. What I had written about these people I couldn’t say, but I’d embraced the assignment with a fervor that was unmatched to anything else we were being taught at the time. In the months and years to follow this would result in something that would become nothing less than an obsession for me. What was it about a blank page that had so excited me, the call of an empty legal pad, or virgin composition book?
“You Poor Thing, Charlie Brown,” was to be one of my earliest attempts at writing something I had dreamed may actually see publication, based loosely on the Peanut’s Paperbacks of the early 70’s. I’d started a few lines on a yellow pad probably sometime around the 4th grade, but I don’t recall it ever panning out. That title would actually resurface sometime later in Junior High School as part of another creative writing assignment. I was getting pretty decent at tracing pictures of assorted Peanut’s characters from my collection of books and decided why not write the tale around that? It began with a lone picture of Charlie Brown and a caption underneath that read “It was another boring, do-nothing day.” I received an “A” on that assignment.
Somewhere around that same time while seated one afternoon on the horrendous looking brown cushion chair in our blue shag carpeted living room I opened to the first page of a brand new spiral notebook and wrote two words - “Thunder Mountain.” Thus began a tale of two teenagers; Bob Felder and Lisa Anderson who meet while on vacation and stumble onto some sort of mystery or other ala The Hardy Boys or Nancy Drew. It's all but impossible now to recall the specifics, but some of the elements included a chairlift, unexplained disappearances and hang gliders. What I do remember most however, is having absolutely no plot or direction in mind, just the challenge of the empty pages before me. That story had taken on a life of its own, seeming to write itself until one day I just abandoned it. Of course that notebook in return has abandoned me, never to allow a conclusion be reached, or a sequel, or…
Stupidly, and for some reason unbeknownst to me, I nearly plagiarized a children’s book for another assignment some years later. Chalk it up to laziness, apathy, or temporary insanity. Luckily I’d allowed a classmate to read a few pages several periods before I was to present it. He'd remembered reading the tale in grade school, as would a number of my other classmates, not to mention the English teacher. I spent the remainder of that day furiously writing “The many tales of Jimmy Piekarski” (the last name I’d borrowed from a female semi-famous someone I’d privately been stalking). I hated and despised the story of this habitual liar’s ridiculous fantasies, yet miraculously received a “B” on the assignment. Following that, I put down the pen and paper for close to two years, and would not reacquaint myself with the creative bug that still lurked within until my first year of High School. “Introduction to Creative Writing,” for which I’d received half a credit re-ignited my earler obsession, but not immediately, and not without some trepidation. During those first few weeks, I was simply uninspred, my first real case of writer's block I suppose. One of the first assignments we’d been given; describe an early childhood experience, seemed simple enough as my memory was still pretty much spot on at that point. The result had been nothing more than a bland retelling of a day spent seeing the big city for the very first time with my grandfather and younger brother, some of which I can still recall vividly today and should probably write down before those memories are no longer spot on! In a lame attempt to see what others had thought of my writing, I baited a girl from class one day while waiting on the lunch line, asking her about some of the stories that had been read aloud by the teacher (we’d had the option of not having our identities exposed). “What about the one of the kid and his first big trip to the city,” I’d hinted? “Oh, that was awful, terrible,” She replied.
I was mortified.
I was dismayed.
She’d insulted me to my face without ever knowing it. I was not however, a quitter, and fared slightly better on the next assignment. “El Dorado; A Modern Day Fairy Tale,” became my second offering. Not well received by the instructor, I had chosen to read it aloud in class; who looking back on that now probably did not receive it all that well either.
“What makes this a modern day fairy tale,” Mr. Calandros had asked?
“It’s loosely based on an album by the Electric Light Orchestra,” I responded, for which I’d received a satisfying nod.
Apparently this had meant something to him.
Trying not to repeat the failure of my earlier autobiographical attempt, I tried again, penning “Nelson’s Family Campground: The Truth Speaks Out…Almost!” Based on several trips to a Connecticut paradise in my mind, this story did everything but speak out! I recently went back to those now time worn and deteriorated pages in the hopes of ferreting out a memory or two for inclusion in my first blog; “Return to Innocence,” but found that reading it was as painful as it was repulsive, similar in scope to a bad movie screenplay that could never live up to the splendor of the original book.
The next outing was vastly different, and a real leap into new territory for me. “Lost Love” was a story of two teens who make it big in a tennis competition, but not without complications. Jean, (a girl I’d met camping a year or two earlier) played a central character who eventually met her demise during one of the matches in which we had made it to the finals (yes, I was the other central character). I think she had slammed hard into the fence trying to retrieve a long ball, fell to the ground, hit her head, and… It had been my longest piece as yet, but again was not well received until I’d redeemed myself by revealing that it had actually been based on a dream I’d had several weeks earlier, earning yet another satisfying nod from the instructor. I try not to look too deeply into dreams and their meanings, but to this day I have never played a game of tennis, and I’m relatively sure that up until that point neither had Jean. “Lost Love” clocked in at somewhere around 11-14 written pages, and really started the ink flowing again as my confidence began to grow.
The great thing about "Introduction to Creative Writing" had been that there was no true curriculum. In fact, students weren’t even required to actually write anything! As long as you participated in class conversations, offered insights, opinions, comments, criticisms, etc. and appeared to be doing something other than sleeping, you were awarded credit. I opted to go the other way, taking full advantage of the opportunity to write. It had become all consuming, the ideas coming hard and fast, stories flowing from me in what I can only describe as a raging river of ink. The following year I would be paid the ultimate compliment when a classmate would spoof something I had created! Over the past years, I have gone back to some of these stories sometimes just for old time’s sake, and sometimes playing with the idea of recreating them, building upon them, now with the mind of an adult while trying not to be too hyper-critical of the sophomoric writing style of my youth. I was after all, only a sophomore at that time anyway.
By the time I’d reached college in September of 1981, I had once again lost the urge to write, though every now and then assorted ideas and/or inspiration continue to surface. It has literally taken me a quarter of a century to pick up a pen again (that’s how most of these start out), returning first to the autobiographical style of my earliest Introduction To Creative Writing assignment, and with the hope that one day the creative juices may flow again.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

A Christmas Miracle

“So What’s the Words…,” my two year old asked as he tried desperately to peer around the cover of the paperback I’d been attempting to read…





It was a cold wintry December night as I began the long journey home, gazing wonderingly at the lights and displays upon the Tudor style homes, the smell of burning wood permeating the air as it wafted from the chimneys. Yes, it was that wondrous time of year once again…or that wondrous time of week anyway. It was another glorious Thursday evening. A couple of hours of peace and quiet awaited me at home while my wife, Jenn and two year old son, Justin were busy at nearby Archetots; his weekly playgroup. I could almost smell the Spam (a guilty pleasure) frying on our kitchen griddle while the living room stereo was cranked up far louder than that which would be considered acceptable by my adoring spouse. Ascending the front steps (both of them), my reverie was suddenly interrupted by the sound of E.L.O.’s Turn To Stone reverberating from the inside of my left front pants pocket.
Flipping open the cell phone I said, “Hello Snoog,” addressing my wife by her pet name of the month.
“Oh my God”, we lost Blue,” she said, the sound of panic in her voice clearly evident. “I don’t know how. What are we gonna do...?”
“Wait a minute, wait a minute,” I answered trying hard to sound just a bit more concerned and a little less annoyed.
“Let me get inside first. I’ll call you right back.”
Answering nature’s call in our horrific lime green bathroom I thought sullenly to myself, oh well so much for quality alone time.
Blue came into our lives several months after our son had arrived. Justin, who was somewhere between infant and toddlerhood had started to become restless that Saturday afternoon on a brief shopping excursion to a nearby Kohl’s store. Thinking quickly, I grabbed a stuffed animal off one of the shelves and dropped it into his lap providing a temporary distraction that was supposed to last only until checkout time; however he was a bit reluctant at that point to surrender his new friend. Parting with an additional five dollars, a miniscule amount I figured, for something that would become a young child’s lifelong companion seemed like a good parent thing to do.
“Alright, now explain to me exactly what happened,” I said half-heartedly into the phone, my eyes distractedly gazing upon the clean and unused griddle sitting atop the stove.
“He had him at my mom’s house, and then we went to Sears before coming here.”
Having grudgingly accepted her shopping obsession several years ago, I asked her anyway, “Why did you go to Sears?”
“What difference does that make,” she snapped?
Ignoring her, I pressed “Did he have Blue with him when you went inside?”
“I don’t know, I don’t remember. I think so.”
“He definitely had him when he left your mom’s?”
“I don’t know,” she yelled.
This was going nowhere fast. In my mind, I’d already made the decision that I would get over to Sears as quickly as possible which meant making the 1.5 mile trek back to town to jump on the Subway, but not before begrudgingly calling her mom whom I’d known would exercise a calmer, more rational demeanor in the face of what would probably wind up ending in tragedy and heartbreak.
“He’s definitely not here,” she said. “We checked the parking lot, street, hallway, lobby, and all three elevators. I would call the store first. If someone found him, they would surely turn him in to Lost and Found, or Security.”
“Oh, dear, dear, where did you come from my little friend? Some little boy or girl must really be crying for you right about now. Oh, that poor child. I’m going to bring you right downstairs,” the kind matronly part time employee soothingly comforted the wayward animal.
That would be my mother in-law’s reality.
“Where the hell did you come from,” the disgruntled underpaid part-time employee sneered as he uncaringly dumped the defenseless blue animal into the trash.
That would be my reality!
Several minutes later after waiting interminably on hold for a disgruntled underpaid Lost and Found employee to actually pick up the phone, I’d obtained the expected result; no Blue. The half hour that had passed since I’d last conversed with my anxious wife had done little to soothe her.
“Does he know Blue is missing, I asked, now starting to become genuinely concerned?
“He hasn’t said anything,” she responded.
Having told her of my plan to race back out into the dark cold night, she stopped me, illustrating in detail that no time would really be gained in doing so. Half an hour later Sherman (that’s the name our ’99 Corolla goes by), horn blaring screeched up in front of the house.
“Hey buddy,” I grinned, greeting my lil’ guy as I climbed into the passenger’s seat.
He smiled.
Turning the radio up to keep him from overhearing any frantic conversation I asked, “Do you remember exactly where you parked?”
“I think so”
“What about the entrance you walked in?”
“I always use the same one”
No comment.
“Which department were you in?”
“Women’s.”
No comment.
“Remember how you got there?”
“I think so”
Starting with the parking garage, which was now pretty empty at this point, I drove around slowly looking for any signs of what might later be construed as Furry Blue Road Pizza.
So far, So good.
Next, I started looking underneath the few cars parked in the vicinity, thinking to myself I’m either going to get shot or arrested. Happily, it had been neither. Sadly though, no sign of Bluey.
“When we get inside, you go ahead of us and start looking. I’ll keep him distracted,” I instructed looking forlornly at our 17 month old.
Stopping First at the Security/Lost and Found desk, I had wanted to do the talking, but Jenn had walked in first.
“We lost a little blue dog, I was here earlier and I think I may have lost him in the women’s department. Did you hear anything? Has anyone turned in a blue dog? He has a tail and long nose…”
Two nodding silent faces stared back at us.
“He’s not real,” I offered dryly.
A feeling of hopelessness began to pervade as we made our way through the store looking under shelves, and behind counters. It was in the large tools section when Justin looked up at me with his blue eyes and innocently asked, “Where’s Bluey?”
I froze.
Choked is more like it!
The only thing that appeared to have gone right this evening was that he had seemingly not yet noticed his little companion’s disappearance.
“Wh, who’s Bluey,” I stuttered, looking at Jenn and shrugging my shoulders.
Parenting skills had not come naturally.
As we ascended the escalator to the next level, a semi worst case scenario was beginning to play out in my mind. We would simply get back in the car drive almost an hour east to the nearest Kohl’s store and pick up another one. Of course the worst case scenario was that they wouldn’t have another one.
In the women’s section Jenn just disappeared.
No surprise there.
Every few seconds amidst the racks of clothing within the middle of the bright, cheery maze of colors and fabrics, her head would pop-up but for a brief a second. With Justin in tow, the two of us got down on our hands and knees acting as if this were all a game, looking under racks and displays of dresses, pantsuits, blouses, and I didn’t even know what half the stuff was called, thinking for the second time that night that I would either be shot or arrested.
Then…suddenly, the unmistakable sound of jingle bells ringing from overhead caused Justin and I to look up while simultaneously somewhere off to our left I’d heard an unmistakable gasp that could only have come from my wife.
Could it be??
Had Santa made an unscheduled appearance, flying miraculously unscathed and unseen through the crowded store? Had eight tiny reindeer passed by above without leaving behind any cheery droppings?
“I found him,” Jenn squealed excitedly, holding the little blue dog triumphantly above her head.
“It’s a Christmas miracle,” I yelled jubilantly, causing a number of rather not so jubilant shoppers to look briefly in our direction.
“Justin, it’s Bluey,” Jenn gushed, happily handing over the little critter that looked no worse for wear.
“Yea, Bluey,” he answered in a way that only a bewildered young child could.
We laughed, we sang, we shared our success with the disgruntled, underpaid security employees as we marched proudly past them on our way back outside, a parade of three stepping in time to the tune of “Sleigh Ride” playing gaily from the circular ceiling speakers above.
It had truly been A Christmas Miracle!

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Odd Jobs: A Résumé for Disaster

“So What’s the Words…,” my two year old asked as he tried desperately to peer around the cover of the paperback I’d been attempting to read…

The bar was set pretty high when I’d finally acted on my parent’s not so gentle prodding and decided to get a job. Simply – no fast food and no supermarkets.
A recipe for disaster, it had become apparent that I would not be holding a job of any magnitude for very long following “The great Pennysaver Debacle.”
If you’re reading this from somewhere outside of the Long Island area (hopefully), or outside of the greater New York area (incredibly), or possibly outside of the United States (WOW!), a Pennysaver was nothing more than a weekly classified paper delivered to your door at no cost whatsoever. The fifteen or sixteen jam packed pages were filled with personal and business advertisements offering the talents of everyone from Astronauts to Zoologists. Alright, bad A to Z example, so for the sake of argument I’ll say Attorneys to Wallpaper Hanger-Uppers. Once a week through rain or snow or sleet or hail, this venerable wealth of information and talent would be hand delivered by a smiling teen or pre-teen looking to accrue a little wealth of their own.
It was life’s first lesson in corporate greed.
The pay-scale – if you could call it that started at .03 cents per paper which didn’t sound too bad on a route that guaranteed nearly a hundred homes. Add to that the ¼ cent (not a typo) extra for bonus circulars on certain weeks and the dream of unimaginable wealth and riches seemed like something that was now within my grasp.
A dream that was shattered long before the first paper had been delivered!
Sometime midweek the papers, circulars, and plastic bags were dropped off at my home by a smiling Pennysaver representative; my Pennysaver mentor so to speak, all in neat little stacks. Piece of cake. Beforehand, I’d had visions of racing through the streets on my three-speed, wind in my face, papers a blur as I tossed them out of my basket landing perfectly on the beautifully landscaped lawns of Searingtown.
That vision was shattered long before the first paper was delivered.
Unlike the generic-no name circulars of the same type that were left strewn across the same neighborhoods, the Pennysaver had a certain set of delivery standards, the parcel to be artfully hung on each individual door, or gently laid upon the front stoop should a door handle or doorknob not be readily available. By the time my dad had arrived home that evening to the smell of dinner burning in the oven, papers and circulars lay all over the living room, dining room, and hallway areas, my mom and I begrudgingly stuffing it all into plastic bags.
The next morning, armed with a number of friends on foot with whom I would be splitting a small percentage of my earnings, along with my mom and little sister (who would not see a penny) we set out on the arduous journey. Sweating, as a.m. gave way to p.m. and the rumblings of lunchtime hunger began I started doing some mental calculations, rapidly coming to the conclusion that financially this was a raw deal.
The following week, the delivery went much quicker as we shamefully performed the task in much the same way that those of the generic ilk had, haphazardly depositing the papers anywhere else but on the stoops or door handles for which I received a written admonishment delivered with the neat little stacks on what would be my final week. That third attempt at making money in this job went smoothest of all and was done solo, as I unflinchingly delivered each and every one of them to a nearby dumpster.
Next!
My first real job was landed compliments of my Dad at F.A.O. Schwarz on the miracle mile in Manhasset, this too with some not so gentle prodding. When I’d arrived to fill out the job application the manager seemed surprised to see me as he was not really in need of help…until I mentioned my father; a vice-president at the flagship NYC location had sent me.
I got the job!
It lasted through my senior year of High School and first year of college until the store closed during the summer of 1982. It was a great gig. I got to work with a lot of hot older girls and the mom of a local guitarist named Greg Meade who was playing and recording with Gary U.S. Bonds at the time. I collected unemployment for several months after that while supplementing it with cash from assorted DJ’ing gigs which for me had become a true passion. Of course unemployment would run out soon, so I took my stock room expertise to Toys ‘R Us, quitting on day two shortly after being told to re-hang the Hobby Horse (which was no easy feat) because its eyes had to appear as if they were staring into those of the customers.
Next!
Harrow’s warehouse, Melville Long Island, a tough job loading and unloading tractor trailers during the holidays. This job had lasted a scant few months. I’d taken a number of sick days mostly due to disgust, and a fair number of late weeknights out partying, making them the first employers to fire me before I’d had the chance to quit; not however before I’d left my mark…literally. Mazarin; a local band that I would follow to present day, not to mention all over the U.S. was indirectly responsible for my untimely dismissal, partially due to the abovementioned late nights but mostly due to my obsession towards a song called “Smile” whose lyrics I’d partially inscribed upon a virgin clean bathroom stall…
“I eat when I’m hungry, and I sleep when I’m tired,
Late in the morning maybe I’ll get fired…”

And I was!
Next!
Looking through the classified ads, there was always a driving job to be had.
I’d had plenty.
The first one entailed making deliveries of cosmetics and stationery to local supermarkets which was not bad as I was on my own for most of the day. Somehow I’d lucked out, working half day Wednesday’s (at full day pay) in exchange for using my own vehicle to make a trek out to a Waldbaum’s store in Rockaway Beach. Playland was still in existence then allowing me to spend some of that extra cash riding the roller coaster, not to mention the beach was a great place to be on a mid-week afternoon; especially when I was being paid to be there.
In keeping with the tradition (hopefully) that began in my last blog, assorted obscure, trite details that don’t really mean anything tend to surface as I commit some of my past to paper (computer, cyberspace, whatever). For instance, I distinctly recall driving to this job one gorgeous morning and hearing Dire Straits “The Walk Of Life” on the radio for the very first time. Also keeping with the tradition started in my previous posting, the more pertinent details of why or how this job didn’t last that long either escape me.
Next!
False teeth!
There was actually a living to be made in picking up and delivering false teeth…and I did!
Remembering the day I’d started there might seem like yet another trite inconsequential detail, but January 28th 1986 would long be remembered as the day the space shuttle Challenger had exploded.
This job entailed making no less than 50 to 60 pick ups and deliveries a day from dentists and labs while putting no less than five hundred miles on the car weekly causing some serious angst on the home front. At least I didn’t have to pay for gas.
In April of that same year while still gainfully employed there, I’d accompanied my good friend Scott one night to see Irene; a psychic he’d been in contact with (no pun intended) for some time.
She blew my mind!
“I feel that you’re at a sort of crossroads in your life right now,” she said, echoing the same exact thoughts I’d literally had just a few days earlier, “unsure of where you’re going or what to do next, but I see that changing soon, maybe within the next few months. An opportunity will be presented to you that will set you on the right path…”
That opportunity arose four months later when one of my closest friends – who remains exactly that to this day - offered me an unbelievable position overseeing the daytime operations of Hosftra University’s Special Events A/V group. Bob C. had been videotaping Mazarin (that band again) for close to two years, and somewhere during that period we’d become acquainted. Mazarin, who had been indirectly responsible for my losing one job had been redeemed as they now had become indirectly responsible in my finding one! Taking on a position of this magnitude and importance would require a certain degree of professionalism and maturity, neither of which I had completely mastered quite yet, so following a cue from my first real job at F.A.O. Schwarz all those years ago I had opted to surround myself with beautiful women under the guise of "Student Aides."
Nobody complained.
This opportunity which lasted a record breaking three years taught me another important lesson in life – It’s not what you know, it’s who you know! Alright, that’s not entirely true. There probably is a gentler, more feel good lesson here as well, that shouldn’t be overlooked, but for now I’m going to do just that.
My dream job came in October of ’89 compliments of a close friend I’d met in college several years earlier further reinforcing the abovementioned not what you know life lesson. It was at New York Tech’s WNYT radio that I had met John C in 1983. A couple of years younger than I was, he would soon move on to greatness and unbelievable success, but not before helping me along the way. Having become restless in my position at Hofstra, John offered me the opportunity of a lifetime in joining Long Island’s 92.7 WDRE as morning show producer to local icon Larry the Duck. I had finally landed a real job in radio, something I had dreamed about from a very, very young age. Prior to actually being hired, I had been forewarned in a lunch meeting with program director Dennis McNamara that Larry was not easy to work with. Lucky for “The Duck”, I was! Together we had successfully brought the ‘DRE morning show to it’s highest ratings in the station’s history. Unfortunately that accomplishment would be short lived with the arrival of a new program director and the untimely dismissal of Larry and me.
Having been let go on a Wednesday morning in the spring of ’91 I did what any normal newly unemployed twenty-something would do. I hopped a plane for Austin, Texas two days later following Mazarin to the South by Southwest music conference kicking off a several month employment free hiatus. Unemployment checks and unreported income from assorted DJ’ing gigs financed my travels over the next several months taking me from Canada to Atlanta, and multiple escapes to the Jersey Shore. During that time I had sent out résumés to assorted radio stations both locally and afar, but unfortunately to no avail.
Life took a downward turn here as I was in between girlfriend’s and the finances were running low forcing me to take a management position with a scammy (for lack of a better word) multi level marketing firm called Scentura Creations. Look it up on the web.
I was suckered in and within a few short months lost everything including my ’89 Grand Am, and a fairly excellent credit rating. Luckily I had an understanding Mom (my dad had passed on a few years earlier) who allowed me the comfort of a roof over my head. It’s a chapter in my life I pretty much gloss over when my past comes up in conversation.
‘Nuf said!
Next!
Humbled, with no other options left before me, I lowered the bar I had set for myself as a teen and took a job in retail. Ugh!!
It was the most rewarding experience of my life!
Jenn and I met in August of 1992 at a week-long Radio Shack training course in Manhattan; a course I’d considered blowing off the night before. There were fifteen guys in that room and one girl.
I won!
Although she’d been engaged at the time, she had quickly broken it off, knowing the future that lied before her was probably a dead end. We began dating immediately, got married in 1999, and brought Justin Thomas into the world on July 18th, 2003. (A retelling of those events in full will definitely follow).
A couple of short months into my Radio Shack management training position I once again found myself searching the classifieds from A to Z hopefully for the very last time. Surprisingly, under the heading of driver, I’d found the work number for yet another close friend; a senior partner in a widely known New York City Audio Visual firm, Marc Mazarin (not his real last name). Starting out on the lowest rung there in October of ’92, which I maintain to this day that I would never have it any other way; I made my way up to where I sit today; on the corner of Park and 27th in Midtown Manhattan, working as a corporate video editor on projects ranging from dental surgery (teeth again?!) to Tarzan on Broadway. It’s been a ride!

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Return To Innocence

"So What’s the Words…,” my two year old asked as he tried desperately to peer around the cover of the paperback I’d been attempting to read…

And so begins my first “Blog”…an odd word, but in these politically correct times we now live in, let’s face it “Journal” or “Diary” would never fly. Of course any hopes of updating this or adding daily entries are completely out of the question for several reasons, one of which is that typing is just not my forte. First and foremost however, time just slips by. At the ripe young (?) age of 43 life just screams by (what happened to the summer of ’06 for instance?). As I considered finally taking the time to begin this new millennium version of a “journal” on this, the first day of a new school year for today’s youth - who incidentally are probably not as amazed at the sudden demise of summer as I am, I found myself drifting back to those bygone and often sorely missed carefree days where summer’s seemed to last forever, Labor Day nowhere in sight…

1.

I was but a mere 14 years old during the summer of our nation’s bi-centennial, a teenage misfit whose favorite band was still the Partridge Family (one of several guilty pleasures to be unveiled during this circuitous odyssey winding its way back through my life). It was a summer that seemed wholly unremarkable if memory serves - which nowadays it usually doesn’t. It may actually have been the first year that as a family we had earnestly taken up camping as a leisure activity. Labor Day marked the third trip of that inaugural season - mom, dad, three kids and a dog whose tongue was too long for her mouth - tooling along Connecticut’s I-84 in a 1973 Gold Dodge Monaco Station Wagon ala “The Brady Bunch…” only not quite as connected. There was certainly no singing going on in the car, anyhow…
“Nelson’s”, I whined repeatedly.
“I can’t believe we’re spending the last camping trip of the year...”
Ever the cynic, this had become my mantra over the last several weeks as I repeatedly voiced an opinion over my parent’s poor decision making process in choosing places to best please and/or entertain their loving children. I mean this is what vacations were supposed to be about, wasn’t it? Following on the heels of two successful excursions, this trip should have marked the penultimate end to our summer vacation before the inevitable return to school but it was beginning to look like this summer wasn’t going to end on a high note after all.
Of course planning vacations back then wasn’t as easy as it was today. In 1976 nobody had computers in their homes, let alone Al Gore’s life altering invention known as the Internet. You couldn’t just move your mouse (pictured in the dictionary back then as a tiny 4 legged long tailed rodent) or just click on a “website” (not in the dictionary at all) to see your destination of choice in full living color, meet management, see and/or hear live testimonials…you get the picture. No, in those dark times one might have to bite the bullet and make a long distance phone call requesting a brochure which was not always in true living color. In our case we would most often defer to the travel guru of sorts, Rand McNally. Similar in most respects to a common Yellow Pages, this in depth travel guide would list camping destinations alphabetically by state with only a scant few campgrounds taking out actual ad space to further entice would be travelers to choose this little piece of paradise for their next vacation destination. In our case the state of choice that summer had been nearby Connecticut. The previous excursion and more successful of the two had been to “Hidden Acres”, whose quarter page ad had been well thought out and was simply a can’t miss. Naturally reservations were difficult to come by, especially for a long holiday weekend, thus forcing us to choose another place whose ad space had been…let’s say somewhat lacking in comparison. The old adage, “You can’t judge a book by its cover” definitely comes to mind here as I vividly remember seeing the Nelson’s Family Campground ad…no glitz, no glamour… no fun!
To the best of my memory, it was in the waning hours of daylight that we had finally arrived having nearly driven right past the entrance (my dad would soon be nearly famous for that)which was easy to do because there was no real signage marking the place as was depicted in the non-imaginative ad. The name of the campground had simply been written in yellow paint on two large oil drums (or garbage cans?) causing me to cynically wonder if this was a sign of things to come. Driving in on an unpaved road, the immediate sight was none too impressive; a hilltop view offering a glimpse of a small pond in the distance somewhat beyond a grass challenged field. An imposing skeleton of a structure on the right which was really nothing more than a large roof covering a dirt floor completed my less than stellar first impression. Simply called the “Pavilion,” it would one day become the Nelson’s Family Campground centerpiece. The finer, less important details like checking in, finding the campsite - which was a field site, and not a wooded one as we would have preferred - and setting up the camper (A Starcraft 1970ish Pop-Up model), etc. escape me. I did however manage to retain a few ridiculous and insignificant details that to this day in fact still amaze me.
It was dark out by the time the site was secured and we were ready to eat, choosing to drive almost 30 minutes back in the direction from which we’d come for some down home good and nutritious McDonalds that happened to be located adjacent to a movie theater showing “The Gumball Rally.”
“What the hell kind of name is that,” my 13 year old cynical mind pondered “and who would see a ridiculous flick like that, anyway?”
To this day that silly flick rates as one of my favorites of all time…another of those guilty pleasures I mentioned earlier.

“The key to sleeping bags,” my dad had expertly advised my brother and me before retiring to the confines of our tent later that evening - while he slept in the comfort of the trailer, “is body heat. If you sleep in your “civvies” (a.k.a. underwear) the warmth from your body will keep the inside of the bag snug and warm”
This small bit of wisdom obviously referred to a more expensive, better constructed bag. Learning our lesson following that near frostbitten first night, we elected to spend the following ones bundled in layers from head to toe – another less significant yet warm (no pun intended) memory that will probably live with me forever.

2.

“Hurry, Hurry,” I silently, desperately pleaded, fearing that my younger brother who was a master of mischief would certainly get caught. Pulling the stakes out of the ground in the hopes of causing the neighbor’s screen house to topple had been masterful planning on my part but would more than likely result in an abrupt end to our third camping trip, yet how else would I be able to talk to her again?
Romance was in the air; day two starting out on a higher note for me at the sight of a girl who was just my type camped right next door. At 13, I’m not exactly sure what my type consisted of, but the fact that she looked to be around my age definitely worked for starters. There had been a lot of nervous eye contact all morning long, two young teens playfully averting each other’s glances hoping for one or the other to make the first move. It had been windy which seemed to work in my favor as I’d finally mustered up the courage to go next door and alert our good neighbors that their screen house had succumbed to nature’s fury, the wind knocking it flat. I’d rapped lightly on the door, nervously hoping that against all odds she would be the one to answer it, and not believing my luck when she actually had.
“Uh, your screen house fell,’ I nervously stammered.
Laughing, she thanked me and I was quickly dismissed.
“Idiot,” I cursed myself, thinking I’d completely blown it.
Why was she laughing at me? Why was I walking away? Desperate times called for desperate measures. Dejectedly I sat at our picnic table watching her dad and older brother re-secure the screen house, thinking that it would take nothing less than a hurricane to knock it down again. My brother’s tormenting was no help either, thoughts of him pulling up those stakes still dancing in my head, but unfortunately like trying to start up a conversation with the dark haired girl next door, that too had been nothing but fantasy.
The windy morning had dragged on, me playfully suggesting that my brother carry out the devious plan still whirling about my head, when suddenly good fortune smiled down upon me once again as a furious gust ripped the stubborn tent stakes from the earth, and the screen enclosure toppled for the second time. I don’t know how I did it, but swallowing hard - as well as what little pride I had at 13 - I slowly approached the waiting gallows ahead, thinking more than once about fleeing in the opposite direction. The fact that I hadn’t is testament as to how and why I can write this blog today.
Her name was Sue.
The rest is a blur.
Somehow, following the second bout of continued laughter emanating from the inside of her trailer we finally got comfortable enough to introduce ourselves, beginning a relationship that unknown to us at the time would span the better part of two years. It still amazes me that I can remember The Gumball Rally on a movie theater marquee, but I can’t come up with anything more solid here than yes, we did finally meet. Sad!
Now that the holiday weekend was officially underway, Nelson’s seemed to come to life. A wide assortment of activities had been planned catering to campers of all ages running the gamut from Horseshoes, Softball, Scavenger Hunts, Hay Rides, Bingo, A Tag Sale and something called the “Honey Wagon.” There was even a band called “The Travelers” (yet another trite and insignificant detail retained) that played out in the middle of the field area one afternoon.
Sitting on the beach together probably trying to at the very least make physical contact, I contemplated which of the campground activities might prove helpful to this clumsy teenage mating ritual that I was now ensconced in.. The hayride sounded like a decent idea, but it was the Honey Wagon that I was sure would prove to be a bona fide winner. The weekend’s activities would culminate with the big dance (“Dance to the Sounds of DJ Chuck Skoog”) to be held Sunday night in the pavilion for which Incredibly, I had a date. I can only hope that Chuck Skoog appreciates the fact that I have somehow kept his legacy alive these thirty years later while not being able to remember the more important details that led up to our walking together hand in hand that first evening, something that I know was a monumental moment in my young life. The first kiss, however…

“Psst,” she whispered from her bedside window in the trailer next door.
I don’t know if she had somehow managed to alter the inside sleeping arrangements or if for the third time that day good fortune had smiled down upon me as I looked up to see her beckoning me towards her. Looking slyly past the front of her camper, I could see her parents and assorted others gathered around the campfire. Grabbing a lawn chair, and trying to keep out of their line of sight, I tiptoed over to her, kneeling atop it so we could converse at eye level.
“I had fun today,” she said quietly
“Me too,” I stammered
“I’m glad we met,” she added
“Me too,” I stammered
Alright, I’m ad-libbing here, but somehow I’m pretty sure that that was the gist of the post curfew conversation which lasted for quite some time before it happened. How it happened, or who instigated it I’m not sure (of course) but at some point during the late showing of The Gumball Rally nearly thirty miles away our lips met…almost. I don’t remember what the mesh screen of that small window tasted like, and in writing this I’m almost tempted to search out a 1970’s era pop-up camper and try it again in the hope that a flood of memories and the more pertinent details of this teenage rite of passion might come pouring in. Sketchy details, failing memory, it doesn’t matter, what transpired at that very moment will live me with forever.
“Susan,” her mom had called a short time later, “Time to get to sleep now,”
Sighing, not nearly ready to call it a night and feeling slightly mortified at the same time I indulged in one last taste of window screen before my lawn chair and I sheepishly made our way back home, me smiling the entire short distance.

3.

“Like a Rhinestone Cowboy, riding out on a horse in a star spangled rodeo,” the acapella serenade drifting on the light morning breeze gently from the pup-tent of Sue’s older brother Dave early that next day. Sitting outside our trailer in a euphoric like frame of mind waiting impatiently for the object of my affection to make her appearance I was thinking to myself that this could be like the soundtrack to a movie. It was one of those songs that you couldn’t get away from at that time and today almost never fails to bring me back in some small way to that beautiful late summer morning. My brother notwithstanding had met a girlfriend of his own at some point during this perfect weekend, though I don’t think he’ll be blogging her anytime in the future. There were plenty of other friends and acquaintances made as well, most too numerous to mention here, with the exception of one other. Cora was five years my senior, the older woman…the other woman. She’d worked in the campground store (alongside Mrs. Dunphy – another unbelievably obscure reference that just this second popped into my head), and was the unofficially adopted daughter of Mr. and Mrs. Gustine; the campground owners. To say that I hadn’t been attracted to her would be a blatant lie. She was sweet, she was beautiful, and she was patient enough to put up with a thirteen year old hanging around while his true love interest had been temporary unavailable. I was determined to have at least one dance with her at the “Chuck Skoog” fueled soiree the following evening. After all, I was feeling a fair degree of confidence coming off the thrill of the previous evening’s magic moment. Trying to figure a way to recapture that glory and kiss Sue again however, had pretty much dominated my thoughts for most of the day. There had to be a way to smoothly approach the subject without seeming too over eager.
“And tonight we wanna go on the “Honey Wagon,” I happily told her mom, my mouth speaking way ahead of my mind. (What the hell was I thinking)?!
Laughing, while trying not to burst my bubble, she happily informed me that the “Honey Wagon” was actually a unit used for cleaning out the waste disposal systems of camping trailers, and not some romantic moonlit ride through the trees.
So much for that perfect opportunity, I brooded silently.
Sometime later that evening with curfew time rapidly closing in, the two of us walking alone hand in hand again I gulped hard and met this seemingly insurmountable hurdle head on.
“Um,” I stammered.
At least that’s one thing I was definitely getting good at…stammering!
“So uh, do you wanna…you know, do what we did last night…again…sort of?”
I’m not quite ad-libbing here. Seriously this was pretty much the way it went, and guess what? Laughing – which I was getting pretty used to by now she uttered,
“I can’t believe you just said that.”
Stunned, I didn’t know what to say.
Luckily, I didn’t have to say anything.
There underneath the harsh spotlight outside the bathrooms in Area C, she leaned into me and we kissed for the very first time. That is to say our lips actually met. I’m pretty sure that I can say here with some degree of confidence that it felt (and tasted) a whole lot better.
If Rhinestone Cowboy was not really a suitable theme song for the weekend, then James Taylor’s “How Sweet It Is (To Be Loved by You)” certainly was. There we were on the dirt floor underneath the skeleton roof of the pavilion the following night, Chuck Skoog spinning the wax, the two of us frenetically dancing, laughing, smiling and singing the words of the chorus out loud to each other. To this day, I have absolutely never been a dancer, always feeling self-conscious about how I appeared on the floor of a club, but on that perfect late summer evening of ‘76 no such thoughts existed.
“What are you guys supposed to be, a water pump?” my father joked, describing the rhythmic up and down motion of our clasped hands as we ungracefully attempted a slow dance.
Cora, who had a quieter demeanor, bordering much more on the shy side would also have the pleasure of a slow dance, although looking back upon this now, pleasure would probably not be the operative word here. I had pretty much dragged her onto that dirt floor, and while she reluctantly followed, I fear the experience for her probably bordered on near painful, but as a teen who’s confidence level had suddenly been rocketed into the stratosphere I would not be denied. I could have been a little more sensitive, having witnessed Cora’s shyer side earlier that afternoon during the famous (?) Battle of Mott Hill, an odd re-enactment of some skirmish during the Revolutionary War (?) that to the best of my knowledge never took place. A lot of time and energy had been put into this yearly tradition as was clearly evidenced by the men in full uniform, firing rifles and cannons at each other. Not really a history buff, this campground activity never rated as one of my favorites. Cora, self consciously (and Ralph Dunhpy’s mom - now I even remember her son’s name) had been dressed in garments representing that tumultuous period in our country’s past and had been exceptionally camera shy trying to thwart my every effort at snapping a photo, yet pix did exist at one time that somehow, not unsurprisingly I seem to have misplaced.

4.

Alas, as someone – whom I’m too tired to bother researching once said - “All good things must come to an end.”
(Bet you thought you’d never get here – and for those of you have, I sincerely thank you)
The exchange of multiple addresses and saying good-bye had all but dominated that entire last day. Did Sue and I share one last poignant kiss? Of course we had! Do I remember anything about it? Of course I don’t! However, like hearing Ike and Tina Turner’s “Proud Mary” for the first time in my life at the dance the night before, or my mom reading Mary Higgins Clark’s “Where are the Children” that weekend, or “The Gumball Rally” showing at a nearby theater, there is one last memory I will never forget. Simply, it was life’s first real heartache, the absolute feeling of despair causing what felt like a lump in my throat that would literally stay there for most of the long ride home, a feeling that I truly hope my now three year old son, Justin Thomas may one day experience himself, because no matter how much it hurt that day some thirty years ago, today it fills me with a sense of warmth, and melancholy - longing for a return to that time of innocence.
What would the future hold?
Would we ever see each other again?
So much uncertainty lied ahead.
Two days later I would be starting Junior High School, a milestone or rite of passage in my young life. It was something I had quietly dreaded earlier that summer, a fear of the unknown…only now it was with a new found confidence that hadn’t been there two months earlier on that first day of summer vacation.
Labor Day nowhere in sight.